
It didn't take long for me to arrive at the hospital where I interned with breathless breaths . I didn't even return the greetings of some of the Hospital staff who were a little familiar with me , if only the streets hadn't been jammed by then maybe I wouldn't have run around like this crazy .
I set my breath when I was in front of the door of Doctor Charles's room which indeed had its own room on the floor .
I knocked twice on the door of the room while adjusting my breath and I heard a reply from inside the room I immediately entered Doctor Charles's room with normal breathing .
Doctor Charles raised his eyebrows while looking at me with a confused look as he found that I who was standing before him at this moment might be .
" Aren't you on clearance, Hellen ?? " Task Doctor Charles in astonishment to make me frown at my clueless mark
" I ti—" said I was cut
" It says you'll be back in the day after tomorrow" said Doctor Charles cutting my words to make me even more confused
" I didn't send anything about my permission Doc" I said honestly
" It's not you but Mr. Thomas" said Dr. Charles, explaining that I was a bit surprised to hear
Doctor Charles opened his desk drawer and took out a letter from there, at which point the letter was placed on me . I who was curious immediately opened the letter and read it until it ran out . I just put the letter on the table after I finished reading it .
" There's something I want to ask you Doc" said I tried to get rid of the letter Thomas sent to the hospital
" Please "Reply Doctor Charles with a calm face without interest
" What about patients with a Psycho background ?? " Task me directly at the core
Doctor Charles who was not interested now looks at me enthusiastically even he straightened his back which was originally leaning on the back of the chair .
" You knew that in just one look ?? " ask Dr. Charles as if he knew who I meant
Doctor Charles resumed his speech when he found an unconvinced nod from me .
" Thomas .. stay away from him, Hellen" said Doctor Charles warning me to make me stare in his direction
" Do doctors don't want to cure her ?? " I asked Doctor Charles but I saw Doctor Charles just raise his eyebrows and laugh softly
" He cannot be healed Hellen, not even himself wants to be healed . Doctors are not God and medicine experts can cure everything, Doctors also can not cure patients without good cooperation with the patient himself , just so you know Hellen that guy can't work well together" said Doctor Charles at length explaining it to me
" Convincing the Patient is the best thing it makes the patient feel wanted . Thomas was empty, Doc "said slowly but deeply as he looked at Doctor Charles
Instantly my memory returned as I recalled Thomas's blank stare as if there was no life there . I looked back at Doctor Charles with a deep gaze .
" Can't we give her a chance, Doc ?? " I said again
" Give me just one thing that's the reason why I should give her another chance ?? " ask Doctor Charles
" Because— "my word hangs as if I'm thinking a lot about the man
" You have no excuse, not " said Doctor Charles suddenly and immediately awakened me
" I have "my words fast while raising my voice a little
" I have Doc, the reason is because he is sick . don't doctors have to cure someone who needs help, even if that person doesn't ask for help" I said quickly
" Even if that man killed both your parents ?? " Doctor Charles cut me off and shocked me and my body suddenly stiffened
" Are you still going to help someone who killed both of your parents" Dr. Charles said
" Your.ngkin "that's all that can come out of my mouth right now, now I think I suddenly feel very chaotic when I hear Doctor Charles say
It is pain and disappointment that I feel right now . I couldn't even breathe normally when Doctor Charles spoke at length at that moment .what new reality do I think.
Fathering..
Mother..
I kept calling my mom and dad in my heart hoping they would hug me right now . I felt like crying but my tears seemed to be held back from coming out .
" It is not good to talk about others from behind" said a man whose voice I have heard recently, The cold voice of Thomas is now entering my eardrum
Suddenly my anger was mounting I couldn't control it when I saw Thomas who was behind me 'I even forgot the fact how the man was here .
" What ka— " said I was cut
" It's been two hours past three minutes and forty-five seconds Miss Hellen" Thomas said, looking at the clock in her hand
I just fell silent while staring angrily at him but that figure just looked at me with a flat gaze even he grinned towards me .
" You're 3 minutes 45 seconds late Hellen, which means you're late from the time you gave yourself . Didn't you risk your life for the 2 hours you needed just now ?? " said Thomas flat and deep while looking at me with a face that sucks in my opinion
I did not answer the man's words I just walked closer to Thomas with an angry and flat face .
" Have you killed my father and mother ?? " I asked Thomas
Thomas raised his eyebrows without answering my question , shattered already my current defense suddenly the face of Father and Mother who increasingly faint in my memory again revolved even the warm figure of Reyhan who until now still I missed spinning in my head .
I shed tears that had been held back since I remembered the three most precious people in my life 'I cried silently letting the clear liquid wet my cheeks . I walked closer to Thomas and stopped right in front of him .
I closed my eyes for a moment and let my tears fall and after that I opened my eyes and looked at Thomas who looked very calm at that moment .
" What's my fault? , why did you destroy everything I had in my life ? , you destroyed everything without rest " I said with a raucous voice and tears that were still wetting my cheeks
" What are so many sins I committed to you in the past ?? " Many more
" At least—" I said pausing for a moment my voice as if strengthening myself while sharpening my eyes
" Don't take Reyhan from me and his two parents .you killed the one I love, you've ruined someone's life . If you're a human being apologizing or at least feeling guilty, you just ruined my life, sir "My words are full of anger while staring hard at Thomas's face with blurry eyes from tears
" Then kill me like I did with your life" Thomas said expressionlessly
" No doctor will kill anyone else even if the Doctor is desperate to kill him" I said fiercely
" You're a hypocrite, Hellen" said Thomas coldly and with a slanted smile
I passed Thomas without retorting his words . I don't want to be a murderer like him . While I was at the door suddenly I heard a thomas sound that made me stop my steps.
" Every human being has a dark side, no matter how much you want to hold that dark side you will still lose because humans are only emotional beings who will be tempered by revenge . Like you right now who's holding your dark side back . Don't you miss Mom, Dad and your girlfriend ?? " The words were so long that they made me clench my palms tightly .
" Killer "my short words were full of anger when our eyes met
I also immediately left Thomas alone because without me realizing Doctor Charles had come out of his own room either since when I did not know .
Without Hellen knowing a slow mutter from his small mouth managed to break the heart that had just grown . The small mutter managed to hurt Thomas's feelings .
Anyone can call himself a murderer but not Hellen .