Doctor Beautiful Vs Mafia Handsome
Loving Him My Way ...

" I'll keep protecting you in my own way, and without you asking me I'll love you in my own way "

It's still fresh my memory of Thomas saying that when it's been the fifth day since the night , the night that I decided to start everything from scratch and the night that I also willingly belonged to a man named Thomas shine .

I massaged the base of my nose which felt a little sore due to too long staring at the computer screen in front of me . I stood up from the chair I was sitting in and began to stretch my entire body letting out the distinctive sound of my spine that rang from too much sitting .

Scroll a few people who are still loyal staring at the computer screen each enter some data about the patient and I'm the only prospective doctor who is in this room .

This room was filled with hospital staff and there were also some nurses and I was the only one who looked miserable. I'm still in my time of punishment and this is where I am .

" Do you guys need a cup of coffee or something like food ? " Tanyaku began to make a sound to those who were still focusing their eyes on the screen and occasionally looked at the book that was beside them .

" I need a glass of hot coffee, Hellen" said someone began to answer my question without bothering to turn his body he was still speaking with eyes staring at his laptop .

I immediately pulled out my phone to write down all their orders . After recording their order on my cell phone memo immediately permission to exit .

Currently the hospital hallways look quiet there are only a few families of patients who look to pass by because a few minutes more time will soon be over .

The cafe where I bought the coffee is not too far from where I only need 7 to 10 minutes on foot . I saw several cars crowded the road next to me , the sound of horns and some walkers also crowded the streets that I also passed .

Some people are seen singing with their guitars, not forgetting the guitar box they put in front of them .

I paused while listening to the song they were performing, it was one of my favorite songs titled When We Were Young the instant I remembered someone who had sung this song for me , someone I love so much . I smiled a little when I heard that song, that's all I can do right now . Sometimes I still often miss Reyhan's figure when the moment of memory with the man passed in my memory as it is now .

As if remembering something I hurriedly took out a dollar note that was in the pocket of the pants I was wearing, I walked back and finally I reached my original destination .

I came out of the cafe after taking all my orders, a little weighing I finally walked back straight ahead to a 24-hour minimarket not far from the cafe . I think some snacks will be very helpful for the job tonight I thought

After buying a bag of plastic containing snacks I immediately returned to the hospital . I walked to the road that I passed before , now the streets are getting crowded and many people who have crowded the special pedestrian street .

I walked down the road with my head lowered while staring at my legs that were walking on the road but suddenly I accidentally hit someone who was in front of me , in a hurry I immediately raised my face and gasped in surprise when I found Thomas who was in front of me who was currently staring at me.

" Have you always been like this, Hellen "The question was ambiguous to the point of making me stare confused and just blink my eyes a few times because I didn't understand what the man's question meant .

I was still silent until Thomas finally took out the two palms he had hidden in his pants pocket . I saw Thomas walking his feet towards me until the sole of our shoes touched each other .

" Look at your path Hellen, look ahead if you walk don't duck down" he said softly as he told me while holding both my shoulders

I gulped my saliva to wet my throat that suddenly dried up when Thomas told me about a bad habit .

" Eum. sorry, I just have that habit" I said slowly as I lowered my head and did not know where we were

I felt Thomas pinching my chin slowly with his thumb and index finger forcing me to stare at him .

" Dispose of that bad habit, you could have fallen and hurt Hellen" he said gently, leaving me slightly stunned to hear Thomas' reply coming out of his mouth

Thomas's face looked very flat but his tone now sounded friendlier than when we first met .

I'm too late in my heartbeats right now to know what to say to that guy until I finally see Thomas changing position to be next to me right now .

" I will accompany you on Hellen's foot, so as to make sure you don't fall because of your carelessness" he said, staring straight ahead

At once I felt Thomas withdrawing my hand to walk immediately 'We went hand in hand with my hand held by the man .

Thomas held my hand so tightly that it made me want to let go but I was scared and on the other hand I felt a sense of comfort and protection .

The man's big hand almost covered my left hand, the grip of his hand really felt warm and made my heart feel very comfortable .

There was no conversation during our walk down the street, only the noise of vehicles and some of the voices of road users were heard on our side , I was still silent not knowing what to say until I finally ventured to call the man's name .

" Thomas.. " Call me quietly while looking at Thomas' handsome face with his flat face

" Hm "his voice recited without looking at me

" Why did you get to stand in front of me ? " I asked all of a sudden who was curious about the presence of the man

I felt Thomas's thumb touch my lower lip as I stroked it gently and it felt so soft it made a smooth pounding back on my heart .

" I followed you "he said briefly, stopping his touch on my face

And at first glance I saw the wry smile that Thomas was emitting on his lips until finally the man turned his eyes towards the front and we resumed our journey to the hospital

The leaflet on my heart was still beating when I found Thomas' sudden treatment . There was no other conversation until Thomas and I finally arrived at the hospital yard, Thomas let go of his grip on my hand and looked at me with his gentle gaze .

" Make sure you get enough sleep Hellen, if you can go home" she said in a soft-sounding tone to my ears

I just fell silent while nodding my head slowly signifying yes he said . And I saw Thomas still looking at me but somehow I saw another look from the glare of his eyes right now .

I saw his gaze look sad as if he was feeling something, I wanted to ask a lot of things but I did not dare to ask further .

" Hellen, do you trust me that I will protect you ? " Thomas said suddenly as I looked into his eyes

I looked more and more at Thomas not understanding, and I saw him moving his feet closer towards me until we were very close , Thomas looked at me with a worried radiance that looked very clear at the moment and I felt his hands touching my cheeks, eyes and nose and after him the man peeked at me for a very long time .

" I'll protect you, Hellen" she said again after the kiss on my forehead slipped off

I just fell silent while looking at the man, honestly I really don't understand what the man is saying but I feel like something's going on right now .

" You have to trust me, do you trust me, Hellen ? " Sanya But I still remain silent and increasingly do not understand where this conversation is going.

" If you get hurt I'll be very angry ' 'If you get hurt I'll also be very angry 'and if you walk away from me.."

I saw Thomas pausing his words as he continued to stare at me with a very different gaze than usual

" i will be hurt, Hellen" he said, continuing his words

" I don't understand what you're saying, Thomas "My words are honest in the end after a long silence

I saw that man just fell silent as he continued to stare at me until it made me take a slow breath and exhale slowly.

" The only person who can hurt me, only you . The only person who can hurt me is also just you . as you once told me Thom that I am yours . I wouldn't be hurt if it wasn't you who hurt me, I'd be fine because you've always protected me, haven't you? , Not only you but your entire confidant protects me . So what are you worried about, Thom "I said at length to the man

" I'm worried about you Hellen, I'm afraid I have no choice but to kill you" he said, causing me to reverse my steps

I gasped in shock at the confession that the man said arrived – arrived.

" I'm not going to let myself get hurt, and the only person who can get me hurt is you, Hellen . and the biggest fear in my life is killing you" he said

I was choked and a little frightened when I heard all the words of that man with great difficulty I gulped my saliva violently.

" If I hurt you and make you hurt, kill me, Thom "My words suddenly return the words that the man had just uttered while looking at Thomas who was also staring at me

" I swear, I won't hurt you Thom, you're the one who's been hurt a long time ago , I won't add to the burden of your pain anymore . I just want to be someone you can love and not be afraid of "but I assure the man

What I can say is that I am in love now, I don't know if this feeling can be said to be love, I don't know either . I just want Thomas to be sure of my feelings that want to really learn to love him .

I recorded clearly the look in Thomas's eyes which looked very sad . for this time I swore to myself, that I would not hurt him, that I would not hurt him, I will not give pain to the man for the umpteenth time, I will only learn to love him as sincerely as my heart .

If Thomas can love me in his own way then I can do it too. I will love Thomas in my own way.

" Hellen, let's get married "he said suddenly

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sorry if a lot of typo because again gk fit his body 🥴