Doctor Beautiful Vs Mafia Handsome
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Crying .that's what I'm doing right now, the pain in my chest is getting my tears going down .

I closed my eyes using both of my open palms, I cried with a sobbing that got slower and slower .

After leaving Thomas I immediately ran towards the guard room of an apprentice student like me .

Fathering..

Mother..

I sobbed even more as my lips muttered unknowingly mentioning the two people who were most precious to me .

" You're just Ellen's surgeon . no, more precisely the surgeon candidate" said someone right on my right side

I just ignored the voice and chose to stop the shameful sobs I came out .

" Why don't these tears stop" I said with sobs while wiping the remains of liquid on my cheeks just that it was all in vain , the more I wanted to remove the trace of my tears the more tears flowed down my cheeks .

" I heard your talk ', your talk with Doctor Charles . I accidentally listened to her when I wanted to give her a patient report "

I stopped my activities and looked at the person who was beside me, that person was Gina my apprentice friend .

" Right as Doctor Charles said, you're just a surgeon no more, you haven't even got the title Hellen . to cure someone with a psychic disorder must gather a lot of teams , including psychiatrists.You are not a doctor needed in the healing process of patients with mental disorders like that" explained Gina at length

Gina who was looking straight ahead now turned her head towards me and looked at me as I was about to cry out her words , Gina interrupted her again and resumed her speech .

" We need brain scans on patients and again they have to pass another set of tests Ell . Even if you're a Doctor, you can't be careless because it's not your area . You're just an aspiring surgeon who can't get involved in a case like that, I'm talking like this to open your ridiculous mind to it . Our job is just to operate, split and sew it back together, that's just "The bridge is flat as if scolding me

I closed my eyes again and opened them when I felt like I had calmed down like before .

" Isn't it a Doctor's job to cure a patient??? , Then what's your reason for becoming Doctor Gina ?? " Let's flat

" Gina, I have a dream to heal everyone around me, no matter who I hate so much that I want to save someone's life with both hands " Say it again

For a few moments only silence enveloped the room until I finally got up from my seat and left Gina who was silent at all .

I kept walking until I finally arrived on the hospital terrace.I saw the now overcast ceiling, with slow steps I walked until I was completely away from the hospital . I stopped at the bus stop but I just sat quietly in the seat of the bus stop .

" How much you've interfered in my life, Thomas "

The thought never disappeared from my head as if it kept spinning inside my mind . I should have been able to control myself earlier, I shouldn't have called him a murderer, I'm just like the judge who judged the defendant thought I was .

I just fell silent on the streets filled with crowded vehicles passing by, I remembered a little about the events of the past until I unconsciously returned to shed tears .

Flashbacks...

" Dad, why would anyone kill ?? " Be plain

At that time I was watching television broadcasting the murder case of one full family member . The father who was watching looked at me and smiled gently when he heard my question .

" Because they're alone" said Dad, answering my question

Before long Mom came with cookies fresh out of the oven and a glass of hot chocolate, Mom took her place next to Dad while I sat down at my Dad's feet .

" Everything in this world can be forgiven Hellen, many things and reasons that cause them to kill .one is the environment and loneliness" my father explained

" What are you talking about, hm "ask my mother who is starting to be curious about our conversation

I answered Mom's question and immediately asked her something.

" Mom, why would anyone kill??? , and why would they do that ?? " I asked who repeated my words to my mother

She smiled warmly and gently rubbed my head with love.

" Whatever their reason is, it's the wrong thing . But has Hellen ever thought about venting ? " Task her while looking at me yet I shake my head at the sign I never thought like that,

" However they are wrong Mother, do not they deserve to be dropped execution" I said while starting to eat Cookies made by my mother

" Nobody deserves to determine one's life by execution . They need a decent life and of course they also need to be guided , They are –-killers but will not like being dwarfed by the people closest to them" said Mommy at length

I turned my head to Mom and swallowed the chew on my mouth and swallowed it up .

" Why is that? , isn't that really the fact that he's a murderer ?? " I'm confused

" For it will add to their mental deterioration . A murderer still wants to be admitted, not acknowledged for his actions . They just want to heal but don't know how . They have a good side and that's what makes them cry and crumble when the closest people call them "Mom's clear to me

I just fell silent as if thinking but I understood about it all .

" So Hellen, have you decided what you want to be ? " Task my father breaking my daydream

Dad's question made me change my mind, when the thought that was originally centered on Mother's explanation now centered on Dad's question, I thought for a moment and smiled brightly at my parents.

" Doctor, I want to be a Doctor" I said with a happy smile

" Wow, what a wonderful dream can be . Why do you want to be a doctor, son ? " Ask Dad while rubbing my head with a pity

" Because I want to , I don't have Father's excuse "my words are plain to make them laugh because of my answer .

I smiled happily as I saw the two most precious people in my life smiling brightly .

" Be a great Doctor son and use your heart to heal many people . It doesn't matter if you hate that person so much , even if the person is a murderer they are still human and a human being has the right to live whatever their condition and background . Understand "clearly the father with a gentle look

" I understand Dad "I understand

flashback off's...

I set towards the ceiling that is now getting cloudy I try not to cry back . If only Dad and Mom were still by my side I would give Mom the answer to why I wanted to be a Doctor .

" Dad, haven't I been like the Doctor I wanted ? . I didn't even kill the man who killed you and Rayhan, I even wanted to heal him "I said in my heart

" What should I do now ? " Continue me softly while turning my gaze down as if I feel very tired of my current state .

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