My husband no longer touched me
Indissolubility
The one who listened to my talk and Mas Ferdi was mas Beni.
I was surprised so was Mas Ferdi.
"So you're the father of the Ocean?"
Ferdi was surprised. Then get close to Beni.
"You heard wrong, Ben. I was talking about my son and my wife" Ferdi said evasively.
Beni looked at me. "What are you doing here?"
"I came home from the market and saw Mas Ferdi here." I lie. He glanced at Mas Ferdi.
"You haven't stopped by Fer's house in a long time" said Beni.
"I'm busy Ben."
"Ah, usually you are busy too can stop by."
I also say goodbye first so that Beni mas does not suspect me.
"I'll go home, Mom."
Both nod.
Huuf!
Almost found out if it was discovered Mas Beni would be furious. He was disappointed to learn that he had cornered his best friend's wife.
I promise I won't tell Mas Beni who the real Father of the Ocean is.
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"Accoland ...." Beni said hello.
"Waalaikumsalam," I said from within.
I hope Beni forgot about the discussion this morning. If necessary, do not discuss.
"I want to talk" said Beni, landing his butt on the couch.
"See wait a minute!" I approached and sat down next to him.
"What's up, Mom?"
"Kok, can you chat in the middle of the road alone with Ferdi,"
"And I told you it was just passing by and happened to see Ferdi there."
"really? You're not lying" said Beni convincingly.
I nodded and said, "Yes. I'm not, I'm lying."
"Then, why was the name of the Ocean brought up?"
"Oh, Mas Ferdi asked our daughter what a boy, what a lie" I said.
"We?" Mas Beni scrunched his forehead and looked at me sharply.
"i-iya. We're." I'm a little nervous.
"I'm still doubting my son's Ocean or not, you say my son" Beni said.
My heart feels sore listening to Beni's words.
Then Beni stood next to the window and looked out.
"My hunch says the Ocean is your son and Ferdi!" Mas Beni glanced at me.
I was surprised my face was a little heated up.
"Don't just accuse me! Where does Mas know Samudera's son Ferdi don't just talk." I turned my face while holding my forehead.
"Because the Ocean is similar to Ferdi. Can't you blind see the equation?"
Mas Beni increasingly fierce tone of speech.
"Yes, he is my son!" The loud voice broke our chat.
Beni and I turned to the source of the voice apparently it was ....
Ferdi!
"Bad!"
Bugh!
Mas Beni punched Ferdi blindly.
"Stop, I'm enough!" I'm divorcing.
Mas Beni was very emotional seen from his chest up and down regulating his roaring breath. Both of his eyes were flushed with clenched hands.
"Your men are having an affair with my wife, Ferdi." Her tears seemed to fall.
I know Beni's heart must have been broken knowing his wife had an affair with his best friend.
"I love Larasati." Mas Ferdi said.
Bugh!
One tonjokan landed again on Ferdi's cheek.
"Love you said?!"
"I love Larasati. Satisfied?!" Ferdi held her cheek
Mas Beni pulled the collar of Ferdi's clothes clutching with his two hands.
"Have stopped. Don't fight anymore." I was in the middle of Beni and Ferdi. Holding both hands Mas Beni so as not to hit Ferdi again.
"You're low, Ferdi! The wife of the man you stabbed." A cynical smile from Beni's face.
"Larasati today was witnessed by your lover you are a talak!"
The jedar!
Like being struck by lightning in broad daylight my body slumped down hugging my feet and Beni insisted that he not divorce me.
"Please don't leave me, don't divorce me for the kids. I beg you!"
Mas Beni forcefully let go of my grip until I fell.
"Well, you're in front of me now!" Beni kicked me out.
I stood aided by Ferdi.
Mas Beni stepped into my room and then threw a bag of clothes at me.
Bruk!
"Mas please don't throw me out what about the kids?"
I groaned and begged Beni to retract his words.
Ferdi could only watch without speaking.
"You can go without the children, except the bastard,"
I'm getting hysterical crying it hurts infinitely. How can a child be separated from his mother.
"Please don't throw me out, stay where there's no place for me to go." I'm holding Beni's leg.
"good. I'll give you 2 days until you actually find a place and remember, kids don't take it except for the Ocean."
"And you're out of this place!" beni pointed at Ferdi.
Ferdi turned his back and he walked out holding his face.
Beni grabbed his car keys and went outside.
I'm confused about where it's not possible to go to Mom's place.
God's trials what else?
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Drrt ....
SMS notifications from my phone anonymous messages.
[Guard your things I'll find a place for you. Bring our son the Ocean, too,]
Did Ferdi really love me? If it is. I'm gonna get out of this house. But I really can't afford to leave my two children.
"Cahya, Faisal ...," I said. They both came up to me and hugged me.
"Where are you going? The way his clothes were put in the bag" Faisal said.
My lips were shaking and I couldn't speak. I stroked Faisal's hair and Cahya hugged them tightly.
"Mama go first you guys don't be naughty, yeah. Mom will ask you sometime."
"Why isn't Faisal invited, Ma?"
"Light as well." Cahya.
"You're old and you're still in school. Later if it's holiday we can meet, yes."
Cahya and faisal nodded.
My tears don't stop flowing Ocean can only see his mother crying the little boy knows what about the adult pellara.
"Where are we going, Ma?" tanya Ocean.
"Finding a new home."
"Who was the man that Dad stabbed?"
I glanced at him briefly.
It's hard to tell me he's a real father.
"He ...," My sentence hangs.
Her innocent face looks at me.
"Your father."
"Well, my dad, are there two?"
I stroked her hair and said that, "Later when the Ocean is big Mama will tell me the truth."
"Old dong, Ma." Lips cone.
I'm nodding.
"Means the Ocean has two dong dads, cool!"
This chest felt claustrophobic how full of a squeezing burden.
Let it be like this I will try to survive for my son the Ocean. Beni divorced me and Mas Ferdi really loved me? But I don't want to fall a second time into the same hole that means really getting away from my past.
I packed my things and put them in my bag the next morning and left this house and my dear children.
God, I don't want to part with my children. Give me the best path.