My husband no longer touched me
Farewell

The next day I was ready with my luggage.

"Have you packed your things?" ask Beni. He stood on the doorstep of my room.

"It." I'm down.

Cahya and Faisal held my hand.

"Don't go, Ma!" They whine.

Mas Beni turned his body and said, "Have not been long."

I dragged my bag and some of it I was carrying.

The ocean held onto the edge of my shirt, and he was not willing to part with his brothers.

Tears ran down both cheeks of the children. I was so sick of parting with your baby that you separated me from the children.

"Now, take it." Mas Beni gave me two pieces of red money.

I took it with tears and said, "Mas please pull your words,"

Beni bergeming he did not reply.

"I'll get our divorce papers done right away, right away,"

The more my chest tightens hearing the word divorce.

With a shaky step I dragged my legs together forcefully as soon as I listened to the children crying and saying my name.

"Mama!" Faisal called him restrained because it was held by Mas Beni.

"Mama!"

"Abang Faisal!" Samudra called.

"Sam Dean!" cahya shouted he ran after the Ocean and I. But quickly Beni closed the door.

Brak!

Huh, Faisal. Sorry, Mama.

I quickly drew the hand of the Ocean and rushed out looking for the angkot.

While in the Angkot Ocean do not stop crying. I hugged him to calm him down. I know his soul is disturbed.

I took my phone looking inside the bag. After I checked, there was an incoming message.

[I'm waiting for you at the park where we used to meet.]

Urung I reply to the message there is another desire after I weigh and I think carefully.

I don't want to see Ferdi I have to go all the way so I don't see him again. I want to open a new sheet through the days without Ferdi my past. Let me alone with the Ocean face another life.

The journey took me 1 hour to find a new place even though Ferdi was looking for me.

Bismillah by opening a new leaf I must forget Ferdi and Beni.

My phone stood there was no stopping.

Scramble messages into this flat object.

[Where are you, Dek?]

[Thanks to my phone.]

[Deck]

[Thanks to the phone, Dek. I want to talk.]

I deactivated my phone, took the chip, and broke it into two pieces.

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A month has passed I'm used to it without the two kids. Yes, despite the longing to crack. We live in an empty house building, the owner left it to me as long as the house is well cared for.

Quote my days by selling a traveling cake while delivering Samudera school and working odd jobs to the homes of residents.

Today I made a lot of money from the sale of cookies and a salary from washing clothes. I take the ocean for a walk and tour the park to entertain myself of course the Ocean is happy.

"Gradjay!" Someone called my name.

I also looked up, my God! It was Ferdi.

I quickened my footsteps and pulled the hand of the Ocean.

"Larasati wait!"

Ferdi ran after me until he pulled the hand of the Ocean.

"Let go, Mas. Don't touch him!" my hardik. I quickly pulled the Ocean of my arms.

"Larasati I want to talk please listen to me,"

"All right, 5 minutes."

I let him talk and we chose a seat in the garden.

"Laras let's get married to build a family and a household."

"Have you gone mad? Wife want to flap? I don't want to hurt a woman" I said.

"I'll divorce him if you want to."

I was surprised to hear his idea.

"No. I don't want to marry you, Mom. Don't bother me let me and the Ocean live without you,"

"If I don't divorce will you be my mistress, Laras?"

I stood up and snapped at him, "Greedy Man!"

"What do you want, Deck?"

I turned towards him, "I don't bother me anymore and Ocean."

"But .., He's my son too."

I approached him a few steps, "Your son? Yesterday, wherever I told me to drop it and leave, I just like that. Looking for you like a madman I almost killed myself because of you!"

Ferdi was standing under my feet.

"I'm sorry, I'm Laras. Please forgive me."

"good. On condition,"

"What's the condition I'll follow." Ferdi stood up and aligned with me.

"Stay away from me and the Ocean" I said with emphasis.

"But ..., Come on, Baras I beg you not to be like that."

"Yep, our ocean is getting out of here!"

Ferdi smitten his lips could not say anything right hand clenched.

"Well I qualify from you but you accept my terms as well."

I stopped a few steps and looked towards him.

"What's the condition?"

"Let me hug the Ocean just this once." Ferdi please.

My hands slowly loosened and pushed the Ocean towards Ferdi.

"Hug your father, son."

Slowly Samudra approached Mas Ferdi then hugged him warmly with his face buried in Ferdi's chest.

Ferdi wept as he kissed the sea cucumber many times and said softly, "I'm sorry father, son."

Then the Ocean is pulled slowly letting Ferdi cry in the park. The farther away the body seems to vibrate because it is crying.

Am I the heart? Sure didn't. Let Mas Ferdi know what it's like to be separated from a loved one maybe he doesn't remember when he told me to abort the Ocean while in the womb first.

My tears are dry tired it feels like crying to withstand disappointment and unpatched heartache let God return karma.

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"Ma. Um who was in the park yesterday who was he my father?"

The ocean approached me peeling an onion in the kitchen I smiled and answered, "He's your real father."

The lips of the Ocean are coiled with oh ria.

"I miss Bang Faisal and Brother Cahya."

Suddenly in my chest it was like thousands of needles piercing my heart.

"Yes. Mama will take you there, yeah. We visited Brother Cahya and Bang Faisal."

"Guys!"

In accordance with my promise I drove Samudera to Beni mas house.

The house looks empty dirty unkempt yard. I miss the boisterous sound of the children I miss.

" Asalamualaikum!"

Tok tok!

The door I knock.

"Waalaikumsalam," said Cahya and Faisal together.

As soon as the door is opened ....

"Mama!"

Faisal and Cahya embraced me and hugged the Ocean in turn.

"My mom's missing,"

"Yes, Mama's darling misses too." I kiss my kids one by one.

Tears glued when only 1 month did not meet the feeling of sewindu did not meet.

"Who is Faisal?" The baritone voice broke the silence.

"Mama.Yeah."

Mas Beni came out disheveled and smelly drink.

"Oh, you seem to be happy already, aren't you out there?" sindir mas Beni's.

"I'm here to miss my kids. Can't you just forget our problems?"

"Forget it? It's not that easy, Laras. The betrayal you've done for me is so painful."

I was silent a thousand languages yes it was me who was wrong to blame me and Beni cornered continue.

"It's also good that you come here I'm not hard to find you." Mas Beni stepped inside he was looking for something whether it was what.

"Now, take please sign in this letter." He handed the white sheet to me.

With a firm and strong streak of my signature on the stamped paper painted there as a sign of me agreeing to this farewell.

The official account is divorced and is no longer Beni's wife.