My Little Prince's
Zen's First Love

"I have something to say to you .." I said slowly and carefully.

"Hc. Just say .." he said gently and smiled warmly at me. Haku has always been gentle and warm to me. And I feel very comfortable with him.

Is this a good time to tell him all that? Haku just got sick. Even yesterday he dropped because of the exhaustion. I'm afraid this will burden him again. I don't want him to suffer anymore.

"Hm ... No. gabe. It's nothing." I said lying because I was a little hesitant to say it now.

"Tell me, Yuko. Whatever it was .." she said gently and looked at me fixedly. I looked at those pair of clear eyes. Very calm and soothing. All right, I won't put it off again. I'll say it today.

"My ... This ... About Zen .." I said carefully.

"Hmm?" Haku scrunched his forehead this time. "What's wrong with Zen?"

I was silent for a while staring at the beautiful beads before me. Why do my lips feel so heavy to tell her?

"Yuko ..." said Haku to disperse my daydream.

"My ... Actually ..."

"Say it ... I'll hear it .." she said very gently and accompanied by her smile again.

I took a deep breath and took it out slowly. All right, I'll tell you everything!

"Sister Zen once told me about his first love for me. He was about 9 years old at the time. He met a little girl at a playground while he was visiting her relatives' house in Hokkaido. The girl was about 6 years old at the time."

Haku is still carefully listening to my story. He also looked at me seriously.

"They met at the time. It was the first and last meeting, before Brother Zen actually found the girl back. He's back in Tokyo. But after he grew up he tried to find the girl back by going to Hokkaido. But he never found it, Haku."

I looked at Haku and he was still carefully listening to my story. Why my heart hurts a little. I even feel like my eyes are a little watery.

"Sister Zen did not know the whereabouts of the girl. He only hoped that one day he would be able to see and know his whereabouts. However, one day he accidentally reunites with the girl. At first he did not realize that the girl was the little girl he had been looking for. But after seeing the childhood photo of the girl he just met, Zen sister just realized it."

I felt like my eyes were already so watery, as if they were about to rebel to come out wetting my cheeks.

While Haku was still looking at me very seriously, he listened to my every story.

"My ... Do you know what? I'm the little girl .." I said a little quiver. I even felt my tears falling down my cheeks.

Haku glued to me for a moment. His gaze turned full of sadness.

"So what should I do, Yuko? Should I step down this time?" haku said quietly and sounded very heartbreaking. My heart was very sick and a little turbulent to hear his words.

I immediately grabbed his fingers and I shook my head in my sobs.

"I don't want to be separated from you, Haku!" raangu.

Haku looked down at my hand and clasped it back with his other hand.

"What should I do, Haku?" I said in my isak.

"Right now you're probably the only one that Zen's sister really needs, Yuko! And right now he needs a lot of encouragement and encouragement from you .." Haku's voice sounded so heavy.

Haku's words were like a needle slowly piercing me. It hurts so much ... What does that say? I don't want to be separated from him!

"I don't want to be separated from you!" my words are getting sobbing.

"Me too, Yuko!" now Haku started looking back at me. She smiled a smile at me and then rubbed my tears slowly. "But right now Brother Zen is in need of you ..."

I shook my tears. "I don't want to be separated from you!" I said getting sobbing.

"We'll stay together. But you should always give your support and encouragement to Brother Zen. I will not forbid you to always come visit him. The most important thing is that Zen can get through all of this soon. And don't worry about me, Yuko. I'll be fine ..."

"We'll always be together, won't we, Haku?" I was so scared to part from him. I don't want that sad event to happen again in my life!

It felt like I had lost one of my organs at the time.

Haku just stared at me without a word. I just looked into those two sorrowful eyes.

Then he nodded slowly and smiled slightly.

"I'll really leave when you ask for it yourself, Yuko ..."

"No! I will never ask you to leave! I'd go crazy without you, Haku ..."

"So is I. I'd go crazy without you, too." Haku wiped my tears back. "Here, don't cry anymore. Everything's gonna be fine. Trust me, Yuko." she said so gently.

After a while I finally felt calm again.

"This ..." Suddenly Haku gave me a chocolate bar. "Enjoying some chocolate will be able to calm your heart a little. Do you remember, Yuko? When we were little ... When you're crying I always give you chocolates and candy. And that's when you stop crying."

What makes me calm and feel better is actually not the chocolate and candy. Except you, Haku. I've been so comfortable by your side ever since we were kids.

"Thank you .." I said as I picked up the chocolate.

"Until any time I'll always be with you. I will always be with you like these times. I want to go through the rest of my life with you, Yuko. Even until my hair starts to whiten and my skin wrinkles later ... I want to be with you always."

I was silent and stunned to hear Haku's words. The cold wind was slowly sweeping through our bodies.

Looking at me who was speechless and not answering her words Haku smiled and rubbed my head gently.

"Thank you, Haku .." I said at last. I was so moved after hearing her words earlier. I threw my body and hugged her very tightly. And he also returned it.

It was so warm and made me so calm. His heartbeat sounded so regular and beautiful. Like a melody that calms my heart at all times. I don't think I want to turn away from that hug for a second. I always want to keep it warm. I want to always be on his deck.

Haku, don't ever leave me! And never ask me to leave you!