Oh My Cecunguk
Episode 45's

I went back to the office today. But not to work. Instead of meeting with superiors to submit resignation letters as well as packing my belongings.

"You sure I don't need to be with you?" ask Kevin when we get to the front of the office. His face looked worried.

I nodded while putting on a cheerful face. "Mas Kevin take it easy, I'll definitely be fine when I get out. Although everyone hates me but they won't bite" I said with a small laugh.

Kevin breathed a rough breath. Dispelling anxieties. "All right," he said later.

"I go first" I said as I got out of the car.

Kevin leaned over to look at me who was already outside. "Don't be long."

"Ok," I said, closing the car door. I took a deep breath and slowly breathed it out. It took enough mental preparation to get back into the building again. Especially when facing hypocrites and annoying people who are in it. It was like when I was going to apply for a job. I was nervous and a little scared.

"Good morning, Neng Lea," said Mr. Kardi. The tall man smiled at me. Although he is no longer young, he still carries out his duties as a security officer very well.

Seeing her smile so sincere I felt moved. Of all the people I know in this building, young people are the only ones who don't change. Even though he already knew the case that hit me yesterday. He still greeted me kindly, still the same as before. When I saw his face he never looked at me with a condescending look.

"Morning too, Mr. Kardi," I said with a smile. After rebuking with that security, I resumed my steps to enter the building.

Just like the day before, once inside people immediately looked at me. Only this time no one was whispering, talking about me. I kept going, not caring about the cynical gazes of those people. I just passed them who were sitting at their desks.

I stopped my steps while in front of the room whose walls were made of thick glass.

Tok to tok. I slowly knocked on the door.

"Come in" said a man from inside the room.

I pushed the door to open it. After that break into the manager's office. I saw that Jordi was busy with her laptop.

"Good morning, sir," I said.

Jordi turned away from her laptop screen. He turned to look at me who was walking towards him.

"Forward, Alea," he said. "Please sit down, Lea," he added.

I dropped my ass on an empty chair there, faced him. Without further ado, I handed over a letter I had prepared since last night.

Looks like Jordi already figured that I'm leaving this company. He was not at all surprised when he opened and read my resignation letter.

"So, is that why you rejected me, Le?" ask without looking at me. He was busy re-folding the letter.

"What does Jordi mean?" my question, don't understand.

Jordi raised her face again. Now he's back to looking at me. "You didn't want to accept me back then because you were still in touch with your ex-boyfriend."

Ah, so what Jordi meant was that problem back then. I get it now. To be honest, if I wasn't with Kevin at the time, I couldn't take it. I don't like him at all.

"Why shut up, Le?" tanyanya, again.

"Sorry, Sir. I came here just to hand over my resignation letter. I'll only answer if it's about work. I don't want to discuss personal matters at all,"

"Well, I won't ask you again" said Jordi. He finally gave up.

"Then I say retreat" I said, rising to my feet.

"Before going to see the director first, he has been waiting for you since yesterday" Jordi said before I left.

"Good, sir."

I was stunned as Jordi stood up and reached out to me. I looked into her narrow eyes.

"Aren't you even going to shake hands with me, Le?" ask her in a soft voice. I smile. Then quickly shook his hand.

"Thank you for your hard work, Alea. You're the great woman I've met. I'm sure you have your reasons. I hope in the future you are happy with all your choices," he said sincerely.

I was moved again. Even this time my eyes were glazed. I just realized there are still sincere people around me. "Thank you, Di."

"You too, I pray that one day you find a woman who loves you sincerely. A much better woman than me" I said solemnly.

"Hm" said Jordi, nodding his head.

We take each other's hands off. After that I left. Rushed up to the top floor where the main director's room was located. My arrival was welcomed with a jutek by the personal assistant of the boss of this company.

"Please enter, the boss is waiting inside" said the assistant named Luci. His face was not friendly at all.

"Thank you" I said as I went inside.

"Alea," said Mr. Dendi as soon as he saw me. "Sit down" he added.

"So you really want to stop?" ask her directly to the point. He took off his glasses and put them on the table in front of us. After that I looked at me.

I nodded, assuring. "Rubber, sir," I said without hesitation.

"Can't you think about it anymore? I like you a lot. You're one of the employees I can count on. You're responsible, hardworking and smart. This company needs people like you, Alea. Can't you stay? I can give you a leave of absence if you still need to calm down" he said.

"I want to thank you for all your compliments. Thank you for the offer you gave me. But sorry, I don't want to change my decision."

Mr. Dendi looked disappointed. "All right then. I won't force."

"Thank you for your understanding."

"Together, Alea. Come back if you change your mind, this company will always be open to you" said Mr. Dendi.

"Good, Sir. Thank you." Thank you."

After our conversation was over, I retreated and rushed back to the previous floor. I packed all the personal belongings on my desk. Not much stuff I have. Everything goes in a small cardboard box. After everything was done, I hurried to take her away. This time I did not say goodbye to anyone. Even though there were a lot of people around me. Including Naira, the co-worker sitting next to me. Who used to be very close to me. I just walked past him, not even intending to see his face.

I went back to meet Kevin who was still faithfully waiting for me in his car. He came right up to me as soon as he saw me coming out of the building. Then take over my luggage.

We walked together, to his car. "Am I old?" my many.

"Not really. Just a pack of cigarettes" he said.

I chuckle. Although he said not long but if you spend a pack of cigarettes it means very long. "Sorry," I said later.

Kevin put the cardboard in the trunk. After that, I got into the car. He turned the engine back on and rushed into the gas.

"Where else is it going?" ask Kevin.

"Come home?" I said in a questioning tone. Now I have no other purpose than to go home. But I really don't want to go home. For a week, I just kept quiet inside the house. Fortunately, Kevin and Alan took turns to accompany me.

"You want to go for a walk?" ask Kevin.

"Walk? Where's where?" I looked at him with sparkling eyes.

"Wherever you want, I'll drive him."

"Seriously?" I still can't believe it.

"Do I look like I'm joking?" Kevin asked back.

I'm shaking. "Absolutely not," I said, smiling.

"Then, how about we camp out on the mountain?" ask Kevin

Suddenly my eyes opened. I can't believe what Kevin just said. Did I hear wrong? He said camping, right? Did he speak wrong? Why are you suddenly taking me camping? One more thing, he called the mountain? Is the world going to end? Why would he take me to a place he hates.

"You don't want to?" kevin asked while I was still struggling with my own thoughts.

"Mas Kevin doesn't like mountains" I said, recalling.

"It's okay, you like it."

Kevin stopped the car. He turned his seat facing towards me. Then cupped my face with both of his big hands. We looked at each other at a very close distance.

"Now what matters is your happiness, Ly. All this time I hurt you too much, I hurt you so much" he said with a sad face. "But take it easy. I promise you, after this I'll make sure you don't get hurt again, I'll end this suffering. In the future you will be happy, Ly," he said with smiling lips.

I kept looking at him in silence. I should have been happy, he promised to make me happy. But the truth is not at all. I just feel scared. His lips were smiling, but not his eyes. I see a deep sadness. Like he just wanted me to be happy but not with him.

Suddenly my chest felt tight. I felt like he was saying good-bye.

"I love you, Ly" said Kevin. I closed my eyes as he kissed my forehead long enough.

I hope what I saw was wrong. I hope what I think is not right.

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