SHE'S YOUR MOTHER, NOT MY WIFE.
HOPEFULNESS

Mikola, Edward and the Doctor came out of Clara's room. Mikola in Freddy's cradle because she was tired her eyes were almost closed.

Edward came up to me, his sister and Aunt.

"What's wrong, son?." I asked him.

He shook his head, "The doctor didn't say anything, Mom. Maybe talk later with Om Reza inside." he replied while teasing his sister.

"Yes, honey. Rest up. We'll be home soon." I'll wipe his head. I saw the look on Reza's face and the others were grim.

"Did Aunt Clara respond to Mikola's chat, dear?" looking from their looks ahead there seemed to be no response.

Edward shook his head.

"Tante Clara, just crying, Mom." I nodded.

Mas Gaga approached us who were sitting at the end of the hall. Because Edwina's on Aunt's lap.

"We're home, yuk. Rest is already night, kasian children." looked at Edwina and Edward alternately. I'm nodding.

"We say goodbye first, how is it going, Mas?." I got up to Edward's hand, saying goodbye.

"Titip, Edwina yes, Bi." leaving Edwina and Aunt.

"There has been no response except for tears. Yes, I hope Clara survives, there's a desire to live after hearing Mikola's voice." Mas Gaga grabbed my waist.

"Aamiin, whatever it is I only wish him all the best. For only God knows what is best for his servant." he kissed my forehead and nodded.

"Om, Auntie, everyone. Sorry, we are going home. The children are tired." said Mas Gaga.

"Yes, Ga. Thank you very much yes.. Bella, Edward's.. Already accompany Aunt Clara here." raucous voice Aunt Sarina.

I nodded, "Strong aunt, take care of your health. Don't forget to rest and eat. We who are healthy must stay healthy to keep Clara and her baby healthy." stroking the back of Aunt Sarina's hand.

"Then Freddy and Mikola. Want to come with us home, stay at home or book a hotel?." Gaga asked Freddy. It just so happened that Mikola was already sleeping in Freddy's arms and there was no way that such a small child would have to sleep in the waiting room.

Freddy answered, fearlessly, because he was alone guarding Mikola. And Mikola was asleep.

"Follow us home, Freddy. Kasian Mikola, you have to rest comfortably." I rubbed Mikola's back.

"Is it no problem?" he said slowly.

"What problems? She was like a sister to Edward." I glanced at Edward by my side.

Edward nodded. Freddy nodded too.

"Thank you, ma'am."

****

"Sister, ant-t e hurts?" her adorable voice touched my heart.

"Yes, Mikola. Pray for Mama Clara to heal quickly, yes." Edward's voice was warm.

"Mama? Mama na - na ?"

"This is Mama Clara, Mik. Try to hold her hand." A warm little hand touched my hand, eager for me to embrace and tightly embrace her body.

"Mama La - La.."

"Yes Mama Clara, tell Mama Clara that Mikola has arrived here."

His little hand rubbed my cheek.

"Mama Celine .. Mikola's here, Mama's up, yeah. Let's try Mikola says that." Edward led Mikola.

"Mama La - La, Miko ni, Mama ng-u nya.."

Only a cry can answer the melodious voice I long for. I did not have this heart until I separated this little angel from her family.

My son Mikola, I have used his life first. I am grateful that he finally managed to escape my cruel grasp.

Edward, nice and warm boy. Although he rarely spoke. And I had a great sin on him, I took Papa who should have been by his side. Loving her, completing her life. Even I destroyed the happiness that had not happened for him.

I have sinned against you all.

Reza, I separate you from a wife you love so much and question you, even I separate you from your flesh and blood. I always remember the look on your face when I thought of Edward, your heart ached when I heard him call you "Om". A thousand sorry for you, Reza. I know my regret is not returning the word "Om" to "Papa" to Edward.

Bella, you're the best man I've ever met. I took your husband when you were pregnant, but you always accompanied me at every difficult time. Mycola's pregnancy even went to childbirth. Whether your heart is made of what, I truly envy your heart that can so sincerely forgive me. I'm the one who always messes with your happiness, but you're the one who always embraces me in trouble.

You're the humans I want to meet in the life to come. I hope for my life, I am one of your families who can love, love and be happy without ruining the happiness of others.

'Son, hug Mama.. In Mama's stomach is your cute sister.. Son. Can Mama raise your sister, in exchange for Mama's regret for leaving you..'

It felt warm as Mikola's tiny body hugged me, maybe she understood my wish. Could there be our inner bond left.

'Thank you, son... Sorry, Mama.'

"Dok, Mikola is tired. Can he rest?." Edward's voice spoke to the Doctor.

"Alright, Sister. We'll try to talk again, I hope there's good progress."

Edward lifted the tiny body that hit my body. It turned out that he not only hugged me, but fell asleep on top of me. If there's a chance, son. Mama's gonna put you to bed in a hug, Mama.

'Please don't take it away, Mikola. He's my hope right now, his voice, his touch. Make my heart warm.' I wanted to shout forbid Edward to take Mikola, but it's free. Don't make a sound, move my lips even I can't.

'Lord, may I continue to be selfish. Let my children live happily, even if not with me!. Can you give me a chance to make amends for the mistake that separated Father and his biological son? Can I give Reza the title 'Papa?.'