The Father Boy
ALA11'S CHAT. Hadi's point of view
"I'm not a good man, Bang," he said with sadness.
"Why aren't you a good man? What have you done?" Chandra knew the ugliness that Hadi meant, only he wanted to know clearly from Hadi's own mouth.
Hadi shook his head, he felt his disgrace was not worth telling. He thought about switching the conversation, but he was curious about his cousin's brother's relationship because Izza was so clingy with Chandra.
"Why are you dating Izza?" Hadi's question was thrown, making Chandra think that Hadi wants to compare his own and her romantic relationship.
Chandra follows Hadi's plot, as he wishes Hadi to open his mouth without coercion from him. At least, he wanted the figure of Hari being open to anyone back again.
"Kiss, shopping. Brother LDR, so yes communication is intense. If there is no topic of discussion through communication, it will even be a fight." Chandra is deliberately open, so that Hadi also does the same thing.
Hadi fell silent, he remembered his romance with Sekar. He felt, that he could very much take care of himself and keep his lover marwah. Merely, he was faint and it was difficult to accept the faint shadow that he remembered a little.
"Kiss how, Bang?"
Chandra laughed immediately. "Then is Brother, Di. Why indeed? Tell me, of the way it continues. Your brother's way and yours must be different. Because Izza must be obedient, especially if Abang nekankan and persuaded. Only if he does not want to, yes Brother is not persuaded. Except, the ego can't be held back and knows the limits."
"It's so cold, Bang. I'm the only one who is uncomfortable, at first there was no intention of me being the same as him. When I took him on vacation to Singapore, it was just a corner-pojokin aja, I haven't really had a relationship with him."
Hadi's slight confession left Chandra in shock. In an instant, he had another assumption about Hadi.
"Where do you know him from? Not how much Brother, but Brother is less regular if you become the same as him."
Hadi took his breath. "That's the son of his brother's wife Ardi's check pack, Bang. Mak check Aini knowsin, likes corner-pojokin. I have no intention of going out. My plan, I'm graduating, I'm going to Ceysa. There was nothing I had ever dated before, I realized I was a man and I knew the nature of men, I was afraid of being ruined. Nothing yet, I'm wrecked." Hadi was carried away by their chatter, he did not realize that he had accidentally said it.
Chandra is like getting a bright spot. He assumed, if Hadi often do the relationship. So, he could not just release Sekar.
"Eummmm-s…. Often times?" Chandra moved to fetch the glass bottled mineral water, which was next to an ashtray on a table near the sofa that Hadi was sitting on.
"No, Bang. Hence…. I'm dizzy myself. I was wrong, I felt guilty. I'm afraid my little sister Gwen has her karma."
Chandra turned to his sister. Hadi admitted that he did not do it often, most likely if Hadi did with Ceysa without realizing that it was Ceysa.
"You sure it's Sekar?" Chandra sat down next to Hadi. He watched Hadi's face that was bowed lethargic.
"Who else is it?" Hadi turned towards Chandra, then he bowed back.
"Look at you, how many times have you done it?" Chandra wants to round up his certainty.
"One time, but not just once."
Hadi's confession, as Ceysa said. Chandra's more convinced, if Hadi's wrong.
"Abang has clarity that you do not expect, can you ask you to come home to Abang after Lebaran?" Chandra is confused to explain, but there is no solid evidence.
"By, Bang. I'll set the schedule, Bang. You see, I have a semester shift this close. What's there?" Hadi turned to look at his cousin.
"I'll make sure I come later to ask for my blessing." Hadi thought that it was about Chandra's blessing for his relationship with Sekar.
"You should come alone, Di. Anyway, why the hell do you have to be like this? Why is lost contact with us?" Chandra had thought that it was pressure from Sekar.
"I know myself, Bang." Hadi massaged his own temple.
"I know Ceysa's waiting for me. He has been successful in education, not just one degree he got. I've been like this, I can't have to be with her, I have responsibilities to other women. So, I think I'm the way to get Ceysa used to it without me by keeping my distance from her. I just keep my distance from him, but I keep trying to be normal with him. I just want to, let Ceysa not hope for me. If we keep going first, Ceysa's gonna be hurt more if she finds out I'm not finally marrying her." With a casual chatter and a calm and open Chandra upbringing, Hadi finally opened his voice and let out all the burdens in his mind that he himself had.
"But Brother thinks you should marry him." Chandra's words immediately astonished Hadi.
"Do I have to marry Ceysa?" Hadi looked confused.
"Anyways you should come to Brother in Singapore. How long will you have to wait for your arrival?" Chandra needs certainty, so he doesn't take too long to solve Ceysa's problems.
"Three months at most, Bang. After that, the semester transition. I adapted first, just as understand the class. I'll take a day off to get there. Because I must have jet lag if I go abroad so, fitting ever to Brazil I've not been cured of jet lag a month." Hadi reflected on his own experience.
"Yes Brazil is clearly far away, the time difference is many. If Singapore is close, it means that it is still Asia. It must be jet lag, brother's brother slept a lot." Chandra also feels he has a lot of rest after his flight.
"Don't sleep a lot every day if there are no demands busy." Hadi glanced at his cousin's sister cynically, making Chandra immediately laugh freely.
"Not for three months, Di." Chandra patted Hadi's shoulder.
"Two months, Bang." Hadi felt that his older cousin had a very important interest in him.
"Okay, you wait, okay? If you make a promise, brother really won't help you in the future." Chandra just threatened to lie.
"Ready, Bang. I'm trying. I if I am, I'll try."
Chandra nodded, and he knew how a Hadi was.
"Tomorrow, brother, ask you to take Ceysa for a walk. Can it? Transfer brother." It was not just that he wanted to make his sister happy. But, he wanted Ceysa and Hadi to have a chat.
"Any angry thing? I told you how I am." Hadi worries that Ceysa hopes for more, then she blames Chandra for making her sister wish for her more. But he told himself about the problem.
"No, take it to the coffee shop or where. A relaxing place to talk. You must know Ceysa's favorite place. Borrow Dad's car, if your ash car is used by your family." Chandra knows that Hadi's family only has one car.
"Ready, Bang. I chat now Ceysanya, so she can set the time." Hadi knows, Ceysa is a person who does not like to be invited to travel without a plan.
"Soky. It's nothing, he must miss your old figure. You're his closest friend, he must want stories about all his fatigue." Chandra patted Hadi's shoulder back, who was struggling with his phone.
"Bang, but Ceysanya said…..
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