The Father Boy
ALA120S. Inner phrase
"Go to college first, brother." Hadi said goodbye to Izza at half-seven this morning.
"Oh yeah, thank you?" Izza smiled kindly.
"You don't have a bag, a book?" tanyaku later.
"In the locker all, Bang. Every day also I leave the person alone, most carry a bag for a laptop if there is a task." He paused his steps for a moment, then proceeded to step out of the room.
We just finished breakfast together, with Hadi of course. Unfortunately, the time was not given breakfast. He's been with me keeping Izza here all night.
"When can I go home, Bang?" Izza dropped his phone for a moment.
"Yes if it's healed. When's healing?" I smiled at him.
How do you encourage him?
"Can I be healed?" From his question, it was as if his life spirit had run out.
"You know, five out of six women have fibroids. The increase in size took a long time, Za. What were you thinking, till this date?" I'm chin-backed with elbows resting on the edge of the safe.
It was as white as her skin, but after marriage she became this thin.
"The process hurts, I'm not sure about the process."
Which process is painful? I accompanied her from the beginning, but had no idea which process was painful.
"Patience, let's keep you healthy for us. Let's not worry about any more complaints from the fibroids, let you taste good in the future. Let it later if pregnant did not feel bad because of the fibroid problem." I looked at him inside.
"Since I know, that fibroids can go down to a child. I don't want to get pregnant, Bang. I don't want your son to suffer, because I passed the fibroids on to them."
I can't speak anymore.
"You need a psychologist, Za. Maybe you have a big problem and don't want to tell me the same story." Not that I gave up on her, but I didn't have the best choice of words to calm her heart down.
My patience is as thin as a tissue. I tried to give her an understanding, but she destroyed her own mind. It seemed, in vain to talk a lot but he remained mature with his own thoughts.
"So I'm considered crazy too?" Her tears were dripping down instantly.
Geez, is that how it feels to face the strongest kind of man on earth?
Basic, woman!
"What do you want me to do, Za? I have given understanding to you, I have given understanding to you, I have given enlightenment and spirit to you. But in fact, you have thoughts everywhere. What do I really have to do? Try to tell me, how good am I supposed to be? You yourself think that your illness is so severe. You yourself have imagined, that you will give birth to unhealthy offspring." I feel frustrated facing myself.
"Don't worry, you're easy to talk about because you don't know what it's like to be me." He's ashended.
"You said it yourself, he said you didn't feel the symptoms strongly. What's the matter, Za? Your illness isn't categorized as a serious illness, but you're dying first." I'm not very good at picking words, but I want him to understand what I mean.
Understand, Za. I just want you to be okay and the best for you. I don't want you to be hit by an accident and bad, especially until his life is lost. I can't make you happy yet, so take good care of your life.
His cry broke even more, he grabbed my hand and he clasped it in his chest.
"I don't think you're crazy, but if you think that I can't take care of your problems. Yes, I have the initiative, to tell a psychologist. Let you plong, let you not have any junk, let your peptic ulcer not recur. Your fibroids don't make you wonder, but your stomach ulcers and lack of blood make you this weak. What cause??? Mind, stress, you're self-serving. I'm your husband, I'm your life partner, why are you keeping your own eggs? My parents, Izza, what's the matter. I can only answer, yes I don't know. Shame on me, when they say the husband does not know his wife's problems. Why don't you just be honest? Why did it have to come to this? Less-reduce the burden of your mind, your mind makes you to kek gini loh. You have to be happy, I free money, you just buy what you want. I'm not barring you from buying this, I'm not forbidding you from doing anything while it's positive." My other hand rubbed his cheek.
"Sorry, Bang." She's still crying.
I don't know what he's crying about.
"No need to apologize. From now on, brighten your mind, your heart. No need to think about your illness, we try our best for yourself. Don't make me sad, Za. I want you to stay healthy, Za."
He nodded faintly a few times. I hope, nodding is a sign that he really understands and understands what I mean.
"Excuse me…."
I immediately pulled my hand.
"Yes, please." I smiled at the nurse.
"Bu Izza, rinsed first huh? May be helped, Father." The nurse closed the door, then went straight to the bathroom. Maybe he'll get some water, or something.
"Come, Za." I took care of my wife with the nurse.
He was deft and not disgusted, perhaps it was his usual duty. Izza also changed other clothes, unfortunately it is known that he was coming back the moon.
Confused I'm here, because when the MRI examination Izza just finished coming the moon. To this day, there is not a week from the day of the month.
While Izza was cleaning up, I talked to the nurse a lot. I told her Izza had just finished an MRI and was coming back. He understood, then he said he would tell the doctor who handled Izza.
Just won Izza, Izza is now moody again. Fortunately, during the day there was Brother Key and Brother Jasmine coming. Izza's smile and laughter, calm me down. They were chatting and laughing together.
Until Brother Jasmine approached me who was sitting on the sofa, enjoying the snacks they brought. Fortunately, Kaleel was not taken. So I can relax, when they are laughing together.
"When Vano's trial, you weren't there?"
I can do anything, other than nod. Because indeed I did not come, at that time Izza accompanied the first USG check who was thought to be pregnant.
"You know Ahyu?"
Confused I answered it.
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