The Father Boy
ALA180S. Looks to stay good
"Abang, I don't want my parents to know." He said, holding me.
What was on my mind after hearing this? That is, about him wanting to continue his further adultery.
"You need that, ask your parents to marry you to a good man, not a man like this." I let go of her embrace, then straightened my gaze at Hema.
I didn't mean body shaming, not because Hema was skinny. But, because he admitted himself that he was a user of illegal goods. He also admitted that he is now in the rehabilitation stage and has not been separated.
"Hema's not real, she's clean and healthy."
I don't know how well Flower selects men, but in my eyes still Hema is not the best choice. If he was a good man, he would not touch illegal goods and would not have had illicit relations today.
"So what's in your brain, how could you want it? What do you feel, Bunga?! You're dating, not really. You love him, you're not sure either. But as beautiful as this, you want to be with her without a clear relationship. Don't make yourself any more cheesy, Bunga." How should I convey that the Flower is not hurt?
"We don't have a relationship, Bang. But we were interested in each other, I was honest with you at the beginning. He's not as bad as the looks you see in him, he's more than the man you think he is."
How dare Flowers praise Hema in front of me. Oh, I know. I know the formula of the world about men, that thin people will have an interesting form of goods. I don't know what his genes are and what his explanations are, but a man's waist circumference affects once the shape of his legacy weapon.
"You like the trunk, you're guessed." I accused him of being cruel.
I want to curse my own mouth, unfortunately Flowers even grinned horses. My disappointment is growing, because my accusations are true.
"Udahlah, Bang. I'd be ashamed of myself, if guessed all that." Flowers rub my back.
"While no fooling around, parents you should know this. Brother won't cover something this big, just to save you. If you are ashamed of your own sins, you will feel very lucky. But today, you seek self-defense for a sin you consciously committed." The sinner who fears his sin is missed by heaven, rather than the proud one who is proud of his depraved conduct.
He had thoughts there, but he wanted to disguise his sin. If his intentions change because his God alone can deny, let alone just promise to humans.
"Keep what now? Want to bribe you with money? Or, want to love your brother the lure of your body? It can't!" I put my index finger right in front of her face and put a closer distance between our faces.
"Yaaa, that's not it. That is, we obrolin together. Let Hema come to the old man, in a good way. Parents don't need to know we're like that, Bang. We're playing camouflage, if you agree." His face was frustrated with heavy breathing.
"Keep behind the old man, you'll still do that, right???"
"Yaaa no, Bang. Duh, Brother." The flowers are ready as if they are crying. His lips were tight, with eyes that looked agitated.
"You're itchy, Bunga! Brother persuaded, Abang lure, Abang invite, Izza never want and Abang respect his decision. Brother likes the way he behaves, although there is a natural upset because that is how humans are. But I like the way he behaves and rejects the invitation, it's cool, he has value, he has dignity and he's dignified. Why can't you, Dek? You're a descendant of a good family, you raised great people, why is this? Why lose to orphans and only nyicipin mother upbringing?" I want him to understand that he is luckier than others but cannot carry himself well.
"Bag forgets that our parents are masters of adultery, sinners and even evil humans. Givan's father, rape case, drugs, brave with parents and even he had children outside of marriage. Not much different from Ken's father, he has a similar case that is not exaggerated because his profession protects him. Continue to expect us to be descendants who have high dignity and value? Good brother, raised by parents. Sister Izza mending, her mother's upbringing is still felt. How am I, Bang? Who is educated, because since long ago only money came in? Month, not the usual month. Did anyone just tell you to eat? Eat please, I don't eat they don't know. Zakat fitrah, lebaran dress. I don't have my own initiative, they won't take care of me. Where when Ken's father was out of love attention, because the time was caught sick just because of trivial things rarely eat. I'm used to anything with myself and my own decisions, I'm uncomfortable with parental attention. I mean, I don't want the attention that keeps being terrorized from voice calls or video calls. But take care of me! Organize my life, make sure how I am! And now I have to grow up with high value and a strong dignity? Hey, Bang! The important thing is that parents don't know how bad I am, they'll be proud of themselves for assuming their upbringing is successful and lacking in order to terrorize their children from voice calls or phone calls," flowers mixed with emotions.
I pushed his forehead, he crossed the line. "You got HIV, you lost yourself, STUPID! You want to make your parents proud, in a way that looks good in front of them, when you are so damaged. It's you alone who will lose, not the parents and not anyone else. Then the way you think, yes it's your responsibility to live your own life. From today on, you won't care and won't know how you are anymore. You are still brother Brother, you are still brother Brother, Brother will pretend you are okay and you have no problems outside. You're free to express, you're free to do, because what you know at home is you're a good boy." However, still I will report everything to his parents.
But sure, that last thing I won't tell him. Let him be confused, when his parents reprimand him. I'll pretend I don't know, with the report that the account forwarded to her parents.
If that's the way it is, I'll keep it my way. In a sense, he was also uncomfortable for me to be better. Let it be, let it be with its wishes that continue like that. I will continue to let myself report all the information I know with my own eyes, without Flower knowing.
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