The Untold Story
Sticky
- B's PoV--
*Raffles Hospital, Singapore: 2003*
Sleeping in bed with Aditya at the Hospital on the morning of that day in fact implies a different feeling in my heart. I spent hundreds of minutes just lying next to the man awake, staring at him who had fallen asleep.
Yeah, it's almost morning. It seems like I can't close my eyes when the sun is ready to show this time. Unlike him who still needs a lot of time to rest and recover.
At first Aditya fell asleep on my back. However, when drowsiness restrained his consciousness, his body accidentally turned to face me, until I, who did not close my eyes, got a chance to look at his face.
Adityas... Ah, why in his sleep this time, he looks many times more handsome than usual? Or am I the only one who just realized that he is this handsome?
His facial lines are firm, his nose is sharp, and his lips s*ksi. Not to mention his tall stature firmly with his chest lined up accompanied by a flat stomach, as if showing how perfect he was as a man.
Moreover, his character is mysterious, unpredictable. At times, he can be so cold, yet at other times, he really shows genuine concern especially in the crucial moments. All that should make Aditya included in the criteria of my dream man.
If at that time I had not found someone who was able to make my heart long, maybe I would have chosen Aditya to tether all the love I had. However, right now, despite something different that I felt towards her, which even made me have a chance to guess, what was the name of that feeling? Have I started to love her? I am quite aware that there is still the name of Indra that is so dominant in controlling this soul.
That's why I asked him last night. That's why I asked, does he love me? Because if that happened, I would have hurt him.
"Eeerrgh...." I saw Aditya suddenly growling while frowning. I don't know what he is going through in the subconscious there, until the look on his face shows such an expression.
Along with that uneasiness, I could feel that Aditya's hand had accidentally come into contact with my body several times. Maybe he was looking for a comfortable position. However, as soon as the hand came into contact with my skin just a little bit, a few seconds later he would flinch, open his eyes for a moment, and pull his hand back.
At this point, I realized that Aditya was actually always trying to control himself. He never once tried to take the opportunity to touch me. From the first time we slept in the same bed and even up to this second, Aditya never touched me without permission.
Given how all this time he tried to keep his distance to make me comfortable, giving up his rights as a husband, to decide to let me go in order to make me happy with the man I love, a trace of sadness and guilt suddenly appeared and teased me back. That feeling was now even greater to me when I realized that after all he had done, I had made him lie weakly on this bed.
"Eeerrgh......" I saw Aditya again showing a restless expression in his sleep.
What is he really feeling now? Why is his face like that? Maybe he was having a nightmare?
I who could not bear to see the look of anxiety then touch my hand on the forehead and temple Aditya. I gently intended to wipe the wrinkles so that he could fall asleep again.
But... Just as I put my fingers on his forehead, the man suddenly opened his eyes and flinched back.
"Shhh.....Sssh...Shhhh...." I tried to calm him down.
"Sleep! It's too early." I said softly as I continued to wipe his forehead. Slowly the man got used to my touch.
Aditya closed his eyes again. It didn't take long, he lost consciousness again. A smooth snoring has now been heard coming out of his lips as these wiggly fingers unceasingly work to make him as comfortable as possible.
"Shhh.....Sssh...Shhhh...." I kept wiping it nonstop so that it fell more and more asleep.
Aditya's face now implies peace. The wrinkles that had arisen because of the anxiety were no longer there.
I then pulled my touch when I realized that the man was back in his sleep. My eyes looked back at his whole face.
And I don't know which wind is affecting me..... I, who realized that the man had fallen asleep, suddenly put my arm on his body. With full awareness, I close my body and lean my head near his chest and close my eyes.
With this close position I could feel Aditya's heartbeat. It is like the sound of a steady, soothing metronome.
I could feel Aditya moving back because my body suddenly came into contact and clung tightly to his body. As fast as lightning, I tried to put him back to sleep.
"Shm... Ssh.. Shhhh....." I rubbed his body again until he fell asleep again.
At first I just wanted to embrace it for a moment while returning to say a sincere apology and thank you for everything. However, the intoxicating masculine scent from Aditya's body turned out to be able to shift my consciousness from its place.
I'm asleep. I don't even know since when I followed him into dreamland. That morning was honestly the first morning I fell asleep hugging my husband.
Oh, husband! May I call it that after everything I did to her?
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🎵🎶🎵🎶
I still think about you
I still dream about you
I still want you and need you by my side
I'm still mad about you
You're still the one
I blinked my eyes when I realized that a song was echoing through my eardrum. A song that without excuse disturbed my moments of deep sleep.
I feel like I haven't had quality sleep in too long. And when I just got it again, the distraction came again even in the form of the melodious voice of an American male singer.
"Eeehhh...." Slowly my eyes opened. At the same time, I who did not seem willing to leave my sleep again hugged something that had been attached to my body.
"B...... You awake yet? Or do you want to sleep again?" I heard the soft voice of someone whispering in my ear.
I didn't answer. I just confirmed the position of my head, confirmed the position of my body, and then tightened my arms to something that felt so comfortable, before preparing to fall asleep again.
🎵🎶🎵🎶
I still think about you
I still dream about you
I still want you and need you by my side
I'm still mad about you
You're still the one
The song sounded again. I frowned and then had to bring myself to my senses to see where the source of the sound was so that I could stop the melodious sound that was really disturbing.
Just now I opened my eyes wide to look for that voice, at the same time I immediately saw a man looking at me with a look of restless face. The man looked like he was holding something back.
"You......" I was shocked and immediately got out of my sleep.
Crazy one!!! Where will I put my face after this? I forgot that I hugged him tightly before going to bed and now he finds me....
Aaaarr!!!!
"B... Sorry, disturbed your sleep but there's been a call on my phone since then and I can't turn off the ringtone because of your chest...." I was shocked to hear his words.
"Eh, I mean you've been squeezing my arm ever since." Aditya quickly corrected his words.
He then stomped his arm which might have become numb because of my attempts to distract. Even so I had heard everything and I was aware of my position when I woke up earlier.
Holy hooch! Holy hooch! Holy hooch!
I must be blushing my cheeks now. What have I done? She must've...... Aaaarrrggghhh!!
"Yes, B! This morning Franky came and I told him to buy you a set of change clothes. Half an hour ago he came with my order and just left fifteen minutes ago. That, it's all over the nightstand under the TV. Take a shower to make it fresh!" Aditya said again to neutralize the atmosphere while pointing to a white paper bag with a famous clothing brand decorating both sides and there is another paper bag with a smaller size that says clothing brands inward.
"I'm sorry, I'm troubling everyone. Then I-I'll take a shower soon." I stepped up to pick up the paper bag-paper bag and rushed towards the bathroom feeling groggy.
Ah, at least there's a reason for me to disappear from Aditya's sight for a while. But before I went into the bathroom, I remembered that it seemed that the man had not had a doctor's visit since he woke up.
"W-hasn't the doctor arrived to check on you yet?" I asked while clutching my grocery bag.
"It was early this morning, but I asked for a time delay because you slept so soundly and I couldn't possibly wake you up and let him see....." Aditya paused his words.
"See what?" I panicked for a moment. While Aditya, the man just bit his lips while thinking of answering my question.
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