The Untold Story
The Hugs

- B's PoV--

*Bellatrix Room, Suvretta House, Switzerland:2003*

"Wait... Adityas....." I called a man's name for the first time. Aditya instantly stopped his steps and turned back to look at me with a difficult expression for me to describe.

The man seems surprised. But, more precisely maybe he looks like he does not believe. I think it could have been because he heard me calling his name for the first time.

I tried to take a deep breath to prevent my tears from breaking because I could barely stand it. I pegged in my heart that I should not look whiny in front of the man or instead he would think that I had regretted a mistake that I had never actually done.

"You don't have to burden yourself anymore by taking me to see Indra. L'm.... Can bring myself." I took a deep breath back and exhaled it violently. My heart ached when I said it because I honestly didn't want him to leave me alone in this country. But for some reason, now I feel that I am a burden to a man who has said steadily that he intends to let me go.

Aditya gave up on our relationship and therefore I don't want to force him to do anything for my sake. I think he has sacrificed enough all this time and maybe now I will try to pursue him, get his heart, but of course after making sure my feelings for Indra are completely gone.

"I.... Apologizing for everything I've done to you all this time, Aditya. And because of that.... I don't want to burden you anymore" I said as I occasionally pulled snot that started to appear because I was already about to cry.

Aditya looked at me sharply. At that moment, I was worried about what I had just said to her. Did I say the wrong thing?

"It's been this far and you're asking me to leave now. Your happiness is in sight and therefore you want to quickly get rid of me with your diplomatic language?" I really did not expect that my words would be responded to like that. Do I look so bad in his eyes that he always perceives me negatively?

My tears are dripping unstoppable again. My lips and tongue suddenly faded. I really couldn't reply to her words because something was pressing down on my esophagus until it felt tight and choked.

"Listen to me, Bellatrix! I'll keep my promise to......." Aditya's words were interrupted when a hotel maid suddenly approached the two of us while carrying a package in her hand.

"Sorry for disturbing sir and Miss! Are you Miss Bellatrix from room 1345?" The waiter looked at me while making sure the room number was stuck on the door.

"Yes, I am..." I answered while nodding my head as I quickly wiped away the tear from the exit.

"This is your medicines and this is the bill, Miss!" The hotel maid handed me a paper bag of medicines and then a note that read the price I had to pay, in front of Aditya's eyes. The man was pensive as he stared at a package containing the medicine I was receiving.

"Please, wait for a while!" I asked the waitress to take the money to pay the bills and give her tips.

With a limp step, I tried to walk back to pick up the wallet which fortunately was on the chair, which was not far from the door. As quickly as possible, while being a little pushy, I walked over to grab my wallet, took some money, and then stepped back near the door to give money to the hotel maid who had helped me.

"Thank you for your help. You can keep the change" I said, smiling sincerely at the waiter and asking him to save the excess money as a tip for him.

"Thank you, Miss! Get well soon!" The maid lowered her head in gratitude before stepping back to leave me with Aditya. I was still watching the steps of the hotel waiter who was walking away from us, until.....

"You... It hurt?" Aditya came back to me with a question. I just stared at Aditya before then answering the man.

"I'm fine. Don't think about me! Just finish what you wanted sam....." I haven't had time to end my sentence, Aditya has already cut it.

"What's wrong with your leg? Why walk like that?" Aditya moved his body closer to me while I tried to close the door so he wouldn't come in.

"I'm fine. I just need a break" I said as I tried to close the door but Aditya prevented it.

The man held the door. This wounded and powerless me will certainly lose to him. Aditya has now made it into my room. He closed the door and kept walking towards me. Meanwhile, I could only rewind my steps while stumbling to get away from him.

Awakened to the pitch-black conditions of the room, Aditya then looked for the position of the light switch and quickly walked towards the switch to turn it on. My eyes that were still used to the dark suddenly brushed from receiving the light.

"Don't turn on the lights!" I protested to the man even though it was too late. I could only hold my forehead spontaneously because my head was throbbing like it was about to break.

"What's wrong with your face? Why is it so pale?" Aditya brought himself closer to me and touched his two palms on my cheek.

"You have a fever?" He touched his palms again to his forehead. I immediately shook his hand.

"I'm fine. Go!" I tried to speak softly to her while smiling. Every second of the night, I kept my heart up to not sound weak to her.

Really, I would get even more hurt as he showed his attention just out of pity and responsibility. I don't need any of that.

Aditya quickly took the medicine pack from my hand. I wanted to take it again, but I knew my condition was not possible to take it back. In the end, I could only continue my limited steps to lay myself on the bed and close my eyes. I wish he could read my body language and would go to give me some time off.

"What is this ointment for?" Aditya asked again.

He tried to approach me who chose to sleep on his back. I was still silent as I closed my eyes as the tears flowed back.

"Go! I'm fine...." I said to her with sobs that I could no longer control.

"Which one was hurt?" Aditya asked in a soft voice for the first time after a day of showering me with hurtful sentences.

I tried to keep my mouth shut so that my sobs would be muffled. I held my tears until my body shook. Hearing the man change his intonation, the pain in my heart just became more and more so.

"B...." He called me again, trying to turn my body to face him.

"Why is it hot like this?" I still shed tears and looked away. I would cry even more if I looked at her face right now.

"Go! Please please! I'm it's okay. I don't want to bother you." I wanted to tilt my body back, but Aditya held me back.

"That's on your chest? Why like a blister?" Aditya caught something. This kimono actually cannot cover the wound on my chest completely.

Really am! I don't want to be pitied. The change in attitude made me uncomfortable. I put the kimono back together when Aditya's hand was trying to hold it. The man brushed off my hand and gently touched his hand on the wound behind the kimono I was wearing.

"Gosh, B! Who's that......." Aditya held back his words as if he already knew the answer to the question he just wanted to ask.

"Take this just..... Karma" I said, looking deeply into his eyes. The man frowned again.

"Maybe this is a rebuke so that I.... Stop hurting others..." My tears were dripping more and more as I repeated what he had said in the pool area back then.

Yeah, he made me feel bad when I heard his words last afternoon. I hurt him so much that what he said was the truth. Shouldn't I be offended? Why am I getting carried away?

"B........" Aditya looks at me pitya. I swear to God I hate the way I look at me.

"Go! I want to be alone. Please please.... Aditya!" It seems like the man can finally understand me. He no longer held back when I was about to turn my body around again.

I tried to close my eyes again, while my tears were still flowing. I cried not because of physical pain but because of his sudden change in attitude.

If only.... If only he had believed in me earlier... If only he had asked what really happened.... Suppose that.....

I cried without a sound. Even so the vibration of my body because of the sobs that were held back I could not cover. I curled up while hugging my own body which again shivered with cold suddenly. My body temperature seems to be increasing.

Aditya did not speak anymore, but he also did not move from his place. Maybe right now he's just looking at me that looks awful.

A few seconds later, I could feel my bed swaying. I thought maybe the man would leave my room now, but not long after, I felt a burly hand hugging my waist. The owner of the hand was lying down and whispering something to me.

"Maya hurt you first......" Aditya kissed my head gently. My crying again exploded because of his statement.

"You encouraged him to defend himself....." He added his words and kissed me again.

"You did not expect that the act of pushing it would be so fatal that you intended...." I quickly cut Aditya's words.

"I pushed him but he held my hand." I slowly tried to explain to Aditya.

"May hold my hand until perhaps he sees your coming and....." I suddenly undo the intention to explain everything that has happened. Oh, it's all over!

"Continue B!" Aditya is still waiting.

"Easy! It's no use anymore. It's all done." I was still lying on my back while wiping away the tears that seemed to be unable to stop dripping.

"Maybe I.... Worth accepting everything......" Just as I closed my mouth, Aditya quickly responded by shaking his head.

"I'm sorry, B!" The man tightened his embrace.

"I'm sorry...." Say again.

I didn't answer and just cried louder. I cried in the arms of the man I now love. The man who was endlessly apologizing while peeping my head in the frame was an embrace of regret.

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