THE WOMAN (END)
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How far can a human survive without love?

Everything that happens opened this earth is not by the will of love?

Then why are we so arrogant?

No matter what that feeling is?

Honestly, I don't want to love or be loved by anyone. The fear and deep trauma of being hurt was enough for me.

But, why?

So I easily give up?

am I easily in love?

People say, "Love can make smart people stupid, and vice versa."

Is it possible that I'm being hit by that spell???

As if forgetting the pain and tears that once stopped.

As if ignoring the suffering I would receive someday, if I had to love her.

I'm clearly aware.

If Ms. Rahayu doesn't, it'll be easy to accept me as Sandy's boyfriend.

And I'm sure there will be a lot of steep roads ahead waiting for us.

But I don't want to give up on the situation. I want to try just once to be a weed. Ignoring every pebble and sharp thorns.

Is this really love?

I'm afraid this isn't love, though,

Then why do I miss?

There will be no miss if we just consider him an ordinary person.

•••

I sit next to him now.I occasionally glance at him.

And why now my heart is beating so hard.

"It's night. Shouldn't Sandy come home!" selorohku.

"You riled me up on tea? after I nolongin' you at the stop?" the protest did not accept.

"Well, did Sandy want anything else?" I looked at him cynically.

"Actually since last afternoon, I haven't had dinner yet, and now I'm hungry!" Mas Sandy rubbed her stomach lethargic.

I looked at him unsure.

"Mas Sandy's serious?" my search.

"If it's about the stomach, I can't lie about tea!" he looked at me expectantly.

"Yes Sandy wait here, let me make you some food!" pamittu.

I walked into the kitchen. Hopefully there are still 'Layak' food for me to serve Sandy. I opened the fridge. There were only a few vegetables, eggs and boiled noodles. Unfortunately I had not had time to shop yesterday. Because he was so busy working.

"No food, right?" He was standing in the kitchen doorway.

I looked up and smiled wryly at him.

"Sandy's mom wants instant noodles?" many doubt. I'm sure people don't seem to know how boiled noodles taste with a mixture of eggs and chili in this cold weather.

"Well, make me two packs!" he pulled up his chair and sat down in front of the dining table.

I cringed in shock.

I thought he would reject it and say, If eating Instant Noodles is not healthy. Especially if Doctor Hasan finds out about this, he will definitely nag me.

"Why doesn't Eyebrow tea go shopping? buy a lot of groceries for you two?" tanyakanya.

"Mas Sandy thought, we got a lot of money?" mummify slowly.

"Why? what kind of tea does my salary give? is that less? why didn't Eyebrow tea say?!" cerocos

"The money that mas Sandy gave me has not been touched.after all, we are used to mediocre life.I do not want to spoil Andi with money. And again Andi's needs in the future will be even greater, so I have to save my money well. I have no place to depend on mas. other than resting on my own two feet" I assured him.

Mas Sandy looked at me closely, whether she understood or not with my explanation just now.

"During this time, you must have been very hard on tea!" pepas lirih.

Sandy's face immediately turned sad, as if she regretted something and hid it from me.

"I think after this, I won't have any more trouble." I looked at him sure.

I make sure he feels that his presence is precious now.

We stared at each other for a long time, which is probably what we're going to do now. Mas Sandy returned my gaze with a very charming smile.It made me feel at home to linger looking at her.

I refocused on washing the vegetables I was going to cook while waiting for the eggs I was boiling.

While he was cutting vegetables, Mas Sandy approached.

"Need help?" he asked with a rather heavy voice.

"No need for a mas. Sandy is sitting down! in a minute, the noodles are ready!" My elak while focusing on the noodles I boiled just now.

Suddenly, Sandy wrapped her hands on my side. I was surprised, but I finally got control. The young man then comfortably propped his head up on my left shoulder. What a thing I never imagined before, he's going to be this brave right now.

"I'm very sleepy but also very hungry!" mumbled listlessly.

"Sandy's mom don't go to bed. Soon the boiled noodles are ripe!" tukasku smiled faintly while turning off the stove.

"It's as comfortable as this hugging you tea.I don't even want to let go of you now!" whispered again.

"Mas Sandy if this keeps up. How can I cook!" my protest.

The young man broke his embrace and then kissed the tip of my head that was only limited to his neck casually.

My body took a moment.

The sudden kiss was beyond everything. And I never got it from anyone, not even my late husband.

There were warm tears poking out in my eyes.

"Why? is that less?" the god whispered in my ear.

I closed my face for a moment.

"Hey? don't be shy!" Sandy pulled my hands slowly.

"Why are you crying tea?" he was shocked, and his face turned panicked.

Only this time I could feel loved by someone even by a man younger than me. A man I never thought would be so serious about treating me well. there was a little taste of haru spreading in my chest.

"Mas Sandy don't be so sweet with me!" my arms look at him not like.

"Why? does Eyebrow Tea like it? I'm sorry about that!" his face was now worried.

"Not that. I'm just too scared mas-," I looked at her worriedly.

"Fear if I'm toying with Eyebrow tea? afraid if I hurt the Eyebrow tea and disappear? by God I would die if I had to!" sandy swore an oath, raising one hand.

"Mas!" I pulled his hand quickly.

Hearing his vow of death made me feel so scared.

"Then can I do it as often as possible now?!" sandy kissed my forehead as fast as lightning, then ran and sat down at the dinner table.

"Mas sandiiii....!" I'm upset.

•••

At 9 pm after dinner, we chose to watch TV. there was no special TV show, but we enjoyed it a lot.

But I am very sleepy now.even unconsciously I let mas Sandy continue to tell stories and chat.

My eyes are no longer able to hold.I feel one hand mas Sandy embrace me tightly, making my head lean comfortably on his chest.

And I'm wading tonight with a very beautiful dream for the first time.

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