You're Not a Figurant
[POV Alex] Ch 22 - How to get you next to me

I try to hold back the heightened emotions. Inhaling deeply, disposing of this heat wave. When it comes to Khansa, I have to think about it with a cold head. I can't go wrong. Khansa is not my subordinate, which I can treat at will.

I got out of bed and started to put my clothes back on. I had to make a little distance, in order to think clearly. When I was close to Khansa, my feelings were too sensitive and easily hurt.

"I'll get some food. Wait here." I said as I went downstairs.

Along the way, my brain was unceasingly thinking. I'm trying to dive into Khansa's feelings. Little by little I began to understand his feelings.

Maybe because he doesn't love me yet, he doesn't need me that much. We just met. It takes time to build all the bonds in your heart. Our bodies are united, but our hearts are not like that. I have to understand it. What Khansa needs right now is not me, but family and friends who have always been there for her. Perhaps by bringing her back close to the family, Khansa will no longer be lonely.

I finally decided one thing. I'll make Khansa close to her loved ones.

I went upstairs with a tray full of food. I saw the woman still curled up under the blanket with her body behind me. Guilt has come back to me. Being carried away by emotions, I unconsciously snapped at him. Khansa's feelings must have been hurt.

I put the tray on the table and shuffled closer to him. Smell at his open back. "Wear clothes first, then eat."

Khansa obeyed my orders. He turned his body and started to sit down. His face was down, sadness still seemed to linger on his face. I picked up the negligee shirt and started helping to pair it up. Peeping his forehead at a glance and stroking his cheeks. Khansa still won't look at me.

I took the food and started to feed it. Khansa is still obedient. He's willing to take every bribe I give. Sometimes I kiss the back of my hand and caress his head. Hoping by doing so her feelings will be fine.

It's so sorry, baby. Got to get married and get pregnant with my son, the man you don't love. Trapped forever with me. I'm selfish, I can't let you go. Patience with me. Open your heart and learn to love me. I will do anything to make you happy.

"Are you so lonely?" my question was answered with a nod of the head by him. I started to offer him some options, like bringing his former men here, because I knew Khansa was very familiar with him. But Khansa refused again. Then I turned to his family. I will bring all his family here, hoping that by doing so, Khansa will never be lonely again. Persuading him to stay ready to be beside me. However, Khansa again rejected all the options I gave her. It re-emerged my emotions again. Unknowingly I returned to her.

"You know what Khansa is?!! I can't let you go! Do you understand what I want?!"My high tone of voice shocked Khansa. Tears flooded his face. I wanted to kill myself for making her cry like that.

"I-i... I just met Diana..." Khansa's voice was trembling.

Diana?? What does Diana have to do with all this? Is Khansa looking for a reason to come out with me? As far as connecting people who have nothing to do at all? No matter how many excuses he uttered, I would never let go.

That night we argued with each other. The debate ended with Khansa's cries becoming more and more. I grabbed her body, trying to calm her down. Khansa beat my body to channel her frustration. From her lips were thrown hurtful words, yet I ignored them.

As Khansa said, I am evil and selfish. Khansa even re-emphasized her hateful tone towards me. But I'm not flinching. Shamelessly I clenched and kissed her forehead. Slowly the cry of Khansa turned into a sobbing. His powerful-feeling punch gradually weakened. I rubbed his back, trying to calm him down. The talk eventually stopped. His breathing began to be regular. Khansa fell asleep with tears still flowing.

Sadness, disappointment, hurt and guilt. That's the feeling I feel. I'm selfish, I don't want to take it off. I was so sure that eventually Khansa would accept me. All I need is time.

"I'm sorry, honey... Patience with me... Stay by my side. Don't leave me..." I put her body back in my arms.

That night I couldn't sleep. My brain's spinning. Thinking of various ways to keep Khansa by my side. Until morning I could not find a way.

***

"Yes?"

"Sorry sir, if I interrupt..."

"Yes, you are disturbing. What's up, Bay? It's still morning."

"I'm really sorry, sir. But I can't help but tell you this."

"What news?"

"I and a team of researchers managed to find a tool to convert particles into nanoscale size. We don't have to buy from the carousel anymore. With this tool will make it easier for us to develop products..."

"Have you guys tested it?"

"We are still in the testing phase. If you don't mind, would you like to visit our lab?"

Name's Bayu. He was my junior at college. I appointed him to hold my company engaged in IT. In addition to genius in his field he also has the soul of entrepreneurship.

I haven't visited my company in a long time. I only receive reports every day. Lucky I have competent people. Without my intervention they can move on their own. Although the profit generated is not in accordance with the target I want to achieve, but at least the company can still stand firmly.

"Yes. Today I will visit all branches. Prepare everything perfectly. I don't want to waste my time. Understood?"

"Good Sir. I will tell the other leader. Thank you Sir. Again, I apologize..." I closed the call and turned to Khansa. The woman was still soundly asleep. The tears still appeared on her cheeks. I caressed her cheek. Trying to get rid of the marks. I grabbed his body last night. Trying to convey with my gestures that I love her.

I kissed her and got out of bed. Today I have to review every single one of my companies. Because it is too focused on family matters, it makes me not think about the sustainability of the company, even though the fate of thousands of employees is in my hands.

I shower and clean myself. After that I went to the dressing room. Put on your work suit and start getting ready. Half an hour later, I was ready. I went back to the room. I saw Khansa still sleeping behind me.

"Darling, wakeup. I'm leaving..." I gave a kiss on her forehead and lips, but Khansa remained unmoved. It seems he is still soundly asleep.

I pulled out the blanket and covered her whole body. "Yes, sleep well, cup..." Satisfied to kiss her, I decided to go to work.

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