You're Not a Figurant
[POV Alex] Ch 30 - Anger in the Chest

My body trembled, holding back the anger that was engulfing. Curemat the paper, as if it was scrimping the sender. My chest's hot. There was a blaze of anger I wanted to let go. Emotions so high in the head. I want to finish him right now!!

I can already guess who the ring giver is!! He is the bed*bah br*ngsek!! The selfless ex-Khansa!!

This dark feeling exceeded the sense when seeing Aaron and Diana together. Suppose that b*bee was in front of me, maybe I wouldn't be able to control my emotions!! I really want to beat him up right now!!

How dare that man give my Khansaku a ring?! How dare he wish Khansa would come back to him?! How dare he take Khansa from me?!

Khansa will never go anywhere!! He will stay by my side!! Being mine! No one can take Khansa away from me!! Br*chl!!

I try to catch my breath and my emotions soaring high. Take a deep breath, exhale slowly. The way Diana taught me when logic was no longer my guess.

This room makes me stuffy. I need some fresh air to cool my boiling brain. I opened the connecting door to the balcony, and stood there sipping a strong cigarette.

Mind wandering. I'm really mad at the br*hsek, but the most basic question I want to ask is, why does Khansa still keep the ring from her ex? Does that woman still have feelings for him? Is Khansa still hoping to get back to him? Does Khansa still love him?!

"****!!" Thinking about it made my heart hurt. My chest is in pain. My vision began to blur. Signs of fluid that indicate weakness. I hate myself being weak like this!!

What do I have to do with Khansa to accept me? Want to repay my love? Did my attitude all along, the unification of our body and the presence of Alkha not affect his feelings? Is that how he feels for br*hsek?!

I stayed on the balcony thinking. I'm in conclusion, I'm still going to put Khansa by my side, no matter how she feels about the br*ngsek. I know this thought is very selfish. But I can't just let go of Khansa. Want that woman's feelings for anyone, who deserves to be next to Khansa is just me. The only one who has the right to make her happy is me. Not anyone else!!

Others may think I am a tyrant husband, selfish and willing to win by myself. But when it comes to Khansa, I'm willing to be that kind of person. Yes, I'm that bad!!

I threw the seventh butcher into the trash and went back to the room. Before approaching Khansa, I went into the bathroom and cleaned myself up. I wish the smell of cigarette smoke would disappear from my body. After that, I lay down on my wife's side.

Khansa fell asleep very soundly. His face looks very calm. There was no frown of uneasiness on his face.

How many times have I looked at her face when I fell asleep like this? I was never satisfied or bored to do it. Staring at him while he was asleep became a habit that I could not lose. I can show my weakness, my fear, my cowardice, without Khansa knowing it. This time too.

"Do you still love her? Do you still wish you were back with him? Do I and Alkha really mean nothing to you? But honey... Forgive selfishness. No matter how much you feel for her, I still can't let you go..." I clasped Khansa's body into my chest. Hugged her and kissed her forehead.

"Eeemmmmm..." Khansa moved uneasily, seeming to dislike her disturbed sleep. I peeked back at her forehead while patting her back, trying to calm down. Slowly, Khansa's breathing again sounded regular, a sign that the woman was back to sleep.

I took Khansa's phone and opened it. Check every history of incoming outgoing calls, chats, contact lists, galleries, even applications. Trying to figure out their relationship. But I didn't find it. Khansa didn't keep the number. Little hope grows in the chest. At least they don't communicate anymore. But I cannot be complacent. I still have to show my position as the true owner of Khansa!

It seems that the plan for a visit to the branches of the working area of Jatim should be accelerated, especially the Surabaya branch. I can't stay quiet like this.

If Khansa decides to keep the ring, then I will return it. I need to draw a clear line about my position. In order for br*ngsek-br*hsek not to know himself is aware of his position. I don't need Khansa's permission to do that, because I'm the real owner of Khansa!!

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"Yes. There are some things I need to take care of. Get ready quickly." Khansa looked pouted. Maybe he wasn't as satisfied in that city as I promised before.

I'm packing my little things. Then help Khansa pack her things. It was early morning when we decided to check out of the hotel.

I called the family driver and told him to take us to the branches in Jatim. Actually my visit was quite a lot, but due to the ring incident, I decided to trim some branches leaving only two branches that I would visit.

Along the way, I held Khansa while kissing her. The woman fell back asleep. Seeing him in my arms like this made me even more convinced that he was mine.

I took the ring out of my pants pocket. Staring at the red velvet box. Then, I grabbed Khansa's hand and walked down her fingers. Khansa's hands looked plain. There was no jewelry she wore. I should have filled her fingers with wedding rings. But due to the hasty marriage, I did not think of such a small thing.

"I'm sorry, honey, I'm so insensitive. From here, I'll fill all your fingers with rings from me. Thank you for never wearing a ring from him. I assumed that you were still happy to live with me. I hope that in the future the three of us will be happier." I came back with those fingers. I wish Khansa could feel my feelings.

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That branch visit will be my last assignment as a GH. But it seems to be closing imperfectly. After visiting the Prob*linggo branch, I decided to go directly to Surabaya.

The closer I got to that branch, my emotions became increasingly unstable. The presence of a ring in the pocket of pants feels very stuck.

There's nothing I need to inspect at the Surabaya branch. The growth of that branch on the business side is better than the other branches. My departure this time was purely to meet the br*ngsek. The sooner I return the ring, the better.

"It's up to Den."

"Thank you sir." I looked at Khansa. Pat her arm gently. "Let's go in." I said in pleasantries.

"No... I'm just here..." Thank goodness Khansa didn't come. At least Khansa won't see what I'm going to do.

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Q&A :

Nitijen : ErKa, how hanging is it?? Up a lot dong. Cepet finish POV Alex. I'm curious about Khansa who fainted 😣

Aqoh: Hehe, sorry if you like hanging the chapter. Only able to update 1k if gini working day. So every 1k words, I fly. Alex POV problem huh? Yes, you want to be sped out. Pray for a good mood. Aja this week POV Alexnya end, continue the novel also end deh, hahahaha 😂😂😂.

If the mood is good, the idea is smooth, maybe.. this may be yes..just a possibility, maybe the middle of next month this novel will expire 😂.

So capsus is not important, accept salary 😚🤗