You're Not a Figurant
[POV Alex] Ch 9 - Persuading you to Marry me

I pretended to take Khansa to the hospital. I'm sure this way will be easier to get him to confess. Even if Khansa doesn't confess, I'll just carry her and take her to the examination room. I love to feel Khansa in my door. He warms up and smells his scent. It seems like this is going to be my new hobby.

I stopped the car right in front of a hospital. Khansa is starting to look restless. Her movements looked nervous when she asked my purpose in bringing her there, making me even more convinced a thousand percent that the fetus was mine!!

I looked back at Khansa. My heart is beating fast. I was so nervous and agitated when I got close to that woman. Feelings of insecurity and fear of rejection haunt me. But I tried to cover it all up by being calm, and it seemed like I managed to do it.

"Un-for what to come here?" khansa asked in a nervous voice.

"To make sure that he's mine. But without any tests I knew he was mine." I said calmly. I stared fixedly at Khansa. Trying to be calm and normalize my heartbeats, when I say. "So Khansa, when are we getting married?" only God knows how nervous I am when I say those words.

Khansa was surprised to hear my words. Maybe he thinks I'm a crazy guy, but I don't care about it. All I want is to make Khansa mine.

"I asked when we're getting married? Given your growing belly, we should get married as soon as possible..." I can't hold myself back anymore. I approached Khansa and gently touched her distended stomach. Khansa seemed to be very surprised by my treatment. He took his body away from me.

"Don't touch me!" Khansa brushed my hand away quickly. Khansa's refusal certainly made my heart ache, but I can understand it.

I know Khansa won't make this easy. For that I forced him out of the car. It seems I have to use another way to persuade him. When Khansa refused to come down, I carried her and carried her through the parking lot. Maybe in such a way it would make Khansa confess faster. Like I thought, Khansa started screaming. That woman was more embarrassed than having to shy away from my questions. I started to press Khansa to answer my questions. Finally the woman agreed to answer my question.

I took her back to the car, then I sat her down comfortably. I started asking him one question I wanted to hear from his mouth. Though I'm sure that answer will be in line with what I predicted.

"He's mine. Right so?"

"Hem." Khansa's one answer, which was nothing more than a deheman, seemed to make me the happiest man. I want to run to the streets and scream. Telling the whole world that Khansa is pregnant with my son. I'm going to be a father!! But of course I'm holding back. I don't want Khansa to see me as a barbarian.

I stared fixedly at Khansa. I wanted to grab her in a hug, reward her with a kiss and thank her for being willing to conceive my son. I have to hold back. Wait until the rightful Khansa becomes mine, then I will be able to touch her at will.

In my shadow, I'll declare love to Khansa then she'll return my feelings. We started to have relationships. After a while has passed, I will propose to Khansa. I would propose to her in a romantic setting, witnessed by our closest family and friends. But it seems that the plan cannot be realized. All plans are falling apart. Khansa is already pregnant. My family is in misfortune, while I have not yet met Khansa's parents. I'll skip that romantic proposal. I was chasing time.

"Then, when are we getting married?" the question came back from my mouth. Khansa was surprised to hear my question. He took a deep breath before answering.

"I don't want to marry you."

DEG

"I can't marry you, because I don't love you."

DEG

Suddenly I feel the world starting to pias. That speech was too painful to hear. My heart aches like it's pierced by a thorn. My chest hurts too much. My eyes are getting hot. The disappointment that hit me was too strong. I held the wheel firmly, preventing myself from crying and begging Khansa to love me.

I know Khansa doesn't love me. But hearing that statement coming out of his mouth really made me unable to get up again. It was as if I had lost before this battle began.

I catch my breath, trying to relax my body. I should be able to think clearly and thicken my face in the current condition. I can't get too carried away. Although I know Khansa doesn't love me, but I have to keep that woman mine. Whatever I do to have it, even in a cowardly way.

Suddenly I remembered Dino's report a few months ago. Khansa's parents did not know that Khansa had resigned from her job and left Surabaya. That means Khansa also hid her pregnancy from her family. Bingo!! I have found his weakness!! If I can't force Khansa to marry me, then only her parents can. Briliant idea. I want to commend my current intelligent brain.

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On the road we debated a few things. I forced Khansa to tell her where she lived. The woman insisted not to tell him. On a whim I took Khansa to one of the nearby hotels. As expected, Khansa's face immediately turned frightened. I want to laugh when I see her behavior. Does he think I'm gonna rape him? Khansa is really funny.

In the end the woman told me her boarding address. I smiled triumphantly. I have a lot of things to do. I have told Winda to come to Malang immediately. I'll have Winda look after Khansa, while I'm going to the town of J**** to meet with Khansa's parents. I had to move quickly before that woman disappeared from my life again.

Along the way to Kosan, I saw Khansa starving. I stopped the car in front of the street vendors. Khansa ordered some food. I'm amazed to see it.

"Don't eat too much, your stomach will hurt" I said because I was too worried about the large portion of food.

"If I eat less, my stomach will hurt." Khansa answered while spooning food into her mouth. My heart aches to hear the answer. Has he been like this for a few months? Did my baby bother him? Did this pregnancy really make it difficult?

Guilt was back in my chest. Suppose I find Khansa sooner, maybe this woman won't be too long pregnant in solitude. I am a useless man!! I feel so guilty.

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