You're Not a Figurant
Ch 47 - Does Not Change Decision

Khansa cannot express her feelings. This shock was too much for his newly awakened brain from fainting. His feelings were mixed, between wanting to believe the word or reject it. All along, the thought of Diana being Alex's wife was so entrenched in her brain. The thought of her becoming a second wife was also ingrained. When faced with the fact that all of his thoughts were untrue, waves of emotions began to arrive. Unknowingly tears flowed down her soft cheeks.

"Sshhhhh, don't cry baby..." Alex wiped the tears and held Khansa in his arms. Several times he kissed Khansa's forehead to calm his mind.

"Is D-diana mom-not your wife?? Are you really mom-you're not husband and wife?" khansa asked.

"Yes, baby, that's right. My relationship with Diana was only in-law. He's marrying my brother. My wife is only one, and that's you. You're the only one. There's nothing else."

"Milk, huuuuu..." The explosion of Khansa's cries filled the room. Make some nuclear families look into the room to see what happens.

The family was shocked to see the scene in the room. Khansa and Alex were in bed, hugging and crying. Aaron and Diana sat on the floor. Slowly Aaron guided Diana out of the room, leaving the couple to clear up any misunderstandings.

"Evil you Mas. Why do you make me think like that?! Wicked you, huuuu..."

"Dear, I'm sorry. I didn't think you'd think that. I think you know, that you're the only one..."

"Where might I know? You never said it..." Khansa was crying in Alex's arms. His feelings are mixed. He's been so stupid all along. He assumed that he was only a second wife. Such thinking makes him always stressed and depressed, to almost endanger the life of the baby. Suppose he knew that from the beginning he was the only one, maybe it wouldn't be like this story. Maybe she will be happier to enjoy her pregnancy.

But the fault does not lie entirely in him who wrongly assumes. Alex was wrong. The man was always silent. Never explained anything. Alex's attitude like that makes him always assume badly. Although she is Alex's only wife, it does not guarantee that they will be happy. There's no guarantee Alex won't stress him out with her silence. He has made a decision, and he will not change that decision.

Alex still hugged Khansa tightly. He landed a kiss on his wife's forehead. As if to tune in, showing that Khansa is his.

"The ring's left in the car." Khansa was still in tears, staring at Alex full of question marks. "I brought a big family to that restaurant to re-apply to you, baby. Our marriage began not in accordance with the steps made by couples in general. I want us to be like any other normal couple. Apply first, before marriage..." Alex was silent for a moment, gulping deeply before continuing, "Although without a ring, are you willing to marry me again dear? This is the answer to your request. Marry me again, baby. Don't ask to separate. I really can't live without you." Alex's voice shrieked, while his gaze was fond of. He looked at Khansa with a pleading gaze.

Khansa looked at Alex closely. He had already made a decision, and he had no intention of changing it.

"You're like this because of this kid, aren't you? I told you, even if we split up, I won't keep this kid away from you. I'm your only wife or not is no longer my priority. All I'm prioritizing now is this kid..."

"But I love you so much Khansa... What about my feelings? Don't you think about my feelings?"

"Your words and feelings are just spontaneity. You're like this because I'm carrying your child. You don't really love me..."

Alex shook his head, "That's not true baby... I really love you." Alex's voice was hoarse, he seemed to be able to read Khansa's response in the future. Bad thoughts flashed through his head.

Khansa looked at Alex with a look of disbelief. Since when did this man love her? Ever since they lived together? Alex's eyes don't seem to be lying. The eyes were as if they were saying they really loved him. Khansa wanted to believe her words, but then the memory of losing Alkha dampened her trust.

"I still can't forgive you Mas.I still want us to separate.." Khansa's words made Alex so surprised. He felt a hard blow. It was not his physique that felt pain, but his heart.

Khansa's next words really stunned Alex. With an emotional voice, Khansa took out all her uneg-unegs. Things Alex never thought of before.

"Love is not like that. Have you ever thought about my feelings? Have you ever wondered how my heart is? Have you ever felt my feelings when I was left out? You never thought about it, did you?"

"Do you know how confused I was when I was pregnant with Alkha? I'm alone Mas. There was no one beside me. I can't tell my family or friends. You're all I expected, but you're not. You're lost without news."

"When I began to organize my life, the news of your marriage came. Can you imagine how I feel? Destroyed Mas... But I'm holding it all back, for Alkha's sake. For this baby. I promise in my heart I will live only for her. I won't care about you anymore."

"When I started to succeed, you came back. What did you mean by arrival? Didn't you throw me away? Why come again? Is it your purpose to hurt me intentionally?" Khansa could not withstand the falling waters without being held back. Whether he got the power from where, he took out all the uneg-uneg that had only been entrenched in his heart.

"You're asking why I think I'm just a second wife? You never explained your status. You married me only in series. Which woman isn't thinking in that direction? All women need certainty, including me. Do you think with my silence that I accept and approve all your treatment? No. Mas..."

"You said you loved me? That's not love. Love is not like that. Love will not hurt. But you always hurt me with your attitude..."

"I'm asking now, why didn't you call me at all while in Singapore? Why ignore my chat and phone? Why can communicate with Vinda but not with me? Is that what you call love? Have you ever thought about my feelings? I was so confused. I'm afraid anything's happened to you. But just to tell you you can't. What is love?"

"Sa-honey.." Alex's voice began to break. Tears began to pour on his face. He's sorry. His body began to tremble. All this time his thinking was wrong. He thought monitoring Khansa's condition and knowing all his activities would be enough. He never thought that Khansa needed the same thing. Khansa needs to know the news, too.

"You said you loved me? You need to learn how to love. Loving it will not hurt. You'll always keep my feelings, make sure I'm okay. But you're not like that. You're selfish. You always set me up. Make sure I always obey your orders, while you never explain your attitudes."

"This is not good. Not good for our relationship. I have always been the one who feels pain. I love you so much Mas. Even this feeling outweighed my love for myself. But no matter how much I feel about you, it will not exceed my love for this baby. Loving you makes me almost lose it. It's very unfair to him. I have been a bad mother. I'm so ashamed of myself..."

"To make amends, I promised to give my life for her. I don't want to make the same mistake. For that, I'm so grateful for your feelings. Even though I wasn't sure if the feeling was true or not, I was grateful for letting me listen to the words I wanted to hear so much. But my decision is still final. I want us to keep separating, Mas..."

Like getting a slap so hard, Alex flinched from his sad feelings. Spontaneously his body immediately hugged Khansa and began to grope,

"No!! I don't want to!! I don't want to!!" Alex grabbed Khansa's body and hugged her tightly. The man was crying.

"I don't want to. Please, don't stayin' me yank. I die. I'm gonna die. No, don't stay with me. I promise!! I promise to introspect! I'll do anything, baby. Whatever I'll do! I promise, I promise. Don't leave me. I don't want to!! I don't want to!!" Alex clasped Khansa's waist. The sound of desperate cries filled the room. A slashing sound that will make sad people who hear it.

"Don't, don't stay with me yeah, yeah, yeah... Yes baby yes, don't stay me. I'll accept all your punishment, but don't leave me. I die!! I'll die if you stay yank, please..." Alex's face was filled with tears. He seduced, seduced, persuaded Khansa in various ways. He kissed Khansa's hand, kissed Khansa's stomach. Tears flowed down his face. Her eyes were red, her hair was disheveled. His eyes looked desperate. He was not a proud, arrogant, fierce, genius and resolute Yohan Alexander in the eyes of his subordinates. He was just a wrong man in loving his wife. His love is so great, yet the way to love him is so wrong.

"Alkhas... Alkha... Maafin. Papa really doesn't know... Maafin Papa's... Don't stay in Papa.. Pleases.. Don't stay with Papa, yeah, yeah..." Alex kisses khansa's stomach in a row. His hand clasped Khansa's waist tightly. Not willing to let go of his wife.

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