You're Not a Figurant
Ch 51 - I Want to Meet Him

"His eyes follow you, wherever you go. Funny right? He should hate you, but why would he do that? You know the answer Khan? Because the affection he has for you is far greater than the pain you live in

kan,"

Dino was silent for a moment. He saw Khansa's body trembling, like she was holding back a cry. At least Dino knew that Khansa was listening to him. There was a bit of guilt in Dino's heart, for making the pregnant woman cry. But he assured himself that this would have no effect on Khansa's health.

"Little story, he's always watching you. He told me to take care of you. Pay attention to every little detail you do, and report to her. Perhaps you're wondering, why doesn't he have the courage to approach you directly?"

"The answer is fear and insecurity. He was afraid to see the hatred in your eyes. Your words really traumatized her. He's so dilemma. He can't just take you off, yet he doesn't have the courage to get close. In the end he decided to take care of you from afar,"

"His body is far from you, but his heart is always for you. To find out how you're doing, he's hired people to watch your behavior."

"I know his attitude is not normal, but I'm trying to understand it. He tries to express his feelings in his own way,"

"Khansa, have you ever thought why the reunion was held in Surabaya? Why not in J*****, our hometown? The answer is because you are in the city. Have you ever thought why he suddenly became your boss while the field he occupied was very different from your job? The answer is again you."

"She ventured out of her comfort zone to see you in another man's room. He doesn't want to see you belong to another man,"

"Khansa, I said something like this not just to defend her. I know he was wrong too. His treatment of you, his silence and indifference, it's all his fault. But have you ever thought that his character was shaped by circumstances? He's not intentionally acting like that..." Dino fell silent, then took a deep breath before continuing.

"Huh, it seems like I've been talking too much here. It's time I left. My only goal here is one, let you know how he's been feeling all along. I'm not asking you to forgive him, but at least you need to know his position. Reflecting yourself as himself. Maybe by doing that you'll understand it a little bit,"

"Khansa, I am the first one to clap for your happiness. I hope you don't take the foolish decision that will be regretted later," Dino stood up, getting ready to leave. But soon after, he remembered something.

"I don't know if looking at this will change your decision or make it worse. I just wanted to show you a little love for a stupid man. I hope you can feel her feelings." Dino puts Alex's phone next to Khansa's. Staring at Khansa expectantly. Wishing the woman would turn around and look at the contents of the phone. But Khansa remained unmoved, looking unconcerned.

Dino let out a long sigh and closed her eyes tightly.

Oh, at least I tried. The end result is that we leave it to God. Only He is able to turn the hearts of men, Khansa's heart is no exception. May happiness come soon to you, Nguk.

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Khansa stared picture after picture with tears in her eyes. Since ten minutes ago, he had been staring at that seemingly endless picture. The entire gallery contains only his photographs. From her High School to work. Even the picture of Andre proposing to her was there.

It felt like he wanted to be angry, because he felt that his privacy had been violated. But on the other hand, he couldn't do it. This is the form of love from a doubted Yohan Alexander.

Khansa thought Alex might love her or love her because of the baby's presence in her stomach. But when you look at these photos, it is broken instantly. All of these photos show Alex's feelings for her.

"Stupid, stupid, stupid.hiks..." Khansa. His feelings were mixed up not out of whack. Happy and sad to be one.

"Stupid... If you like it, why not say it? Why silence like that? Idiot..." Khansa crying. Tears on his face.

"Stupid... Idiot... Huuu..." Khansa was crying. The glint of the many events flashed in his mind. Things that he thought were futile and a lot of time wastes. Suppose that feeling was expressed long ago, it probably wouldn't be like this story of their journey. They will not go through all this drama of misunderstanding and will live happily.

["If there is no misunderstanding, how can I make your story?", said ErKa 😌]

Khansa slid her face between her hands. She cried sobbing, regretting every stupid word of hers. Regretting his every attitude. He regretted...

KLEK (Voice of the door being opened suddenly)

"Basic fool. When his wife is in need of attention even follow the sick. You stupid kid! Can't be expected!" Mama suddenly went into Khansa's room while nagging. Mom followed behind him while patting his back gently.

"Already Deck. The sick child must be treated, not even diomelin like this..."

"Well, how do you not say ma'am? His wife is sick, needs a lot of rest and attention from him. But instead of accompanying his wife, he followed her sick. This drama?"

"Who's sick Ma?" Khansa opened her mouth. His feelings became unpleasant. I don't know why she felt that the sick one was Alex, but Mama also had other boys.

Hearing Khansa's question, Mama immediately focused her attention on her daughter-in-law, "Oh dear, why are your eyes red? Are you crying?" Mama approached Khansa and removed the traces of tears on her cheeks. "Ah stupid boy. He must've made you cry. It really is not expected! Just keep getting sick, if you need not just heal!!"

"Sir, don't talk like that. Watch out for angels passing by." said Mother worried, looked very objected to the words that were thrown from the lips Mama.

"I'm kesel Mbak. Lookatthis. That fool made his wife cry like this." Mama hugged Khansa warmly, trying to comfort her, "Sshhh, baby, don't cry anymore. Don't think about that fool again. He doesn't deserve your attention. Let him be sick..."

"Ma, Alex is sick?!" Khansa pulled her body out of her mother-in-law's arms quickly. He held both sides of Mama's body, looking at Mama with a questioning gaze as well as urgent.

"Ma?? D-he's sick?" Khansa was already unable to hold back her voice that was about to break out from crying. His eyes began to glaze over.

Mama stroked Khansa's hair gently, "Yes, that sick fool dear. But it has nothing to do with us..."

"Where is he?!" Suddenly Khansa moved, trying to stand up abruptly. His face was filled with confusion. Mama was shocked to see the sudden movement of Khansa. He immediately restrained Khansa's body, so as not to go anywhere.

"Where are you, baby? You still have to bedrest..."

"I want to see him Ma. D-Where is Ma? Where?!! Aaaakhhh..." Khansa could not hold back her tears. The water fell back like a broken water dam. He cried with compassion. Tears full of regret, sadness and worry.

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Happy Reading 😪

NB: Sumveh does not intend to hang genk, I sleep badly 😪 My eyes can not be literate anymore to tick. Enough of this first yes, sorrykeun 🙏