You're Not a Figurant
[POV Alex] Ch 38 - Meet Rival
All because OF HIM!! The br*hsek!! Khansa still loves him!! Khansa is not at all happy living with me for still loving her!! Not even a second!!
I thought Khansa was starting to accept me. He never refused my touch. He always obeyed. Never denied what I asked. Always be sweet. But all of his attitudes were insincere. Khansa did it by force. In his heart was still that man!! While I'm not in it.
"Huuu... Khansas... Be ill... Be ill... BUUKK... BUUKK... BUUUUKKIS... Y-when are you gonna learn to love me? Why do you still remember it? Wh-why still love her?"
"Khanza... My heart really hurts... Why is it so hard to accept me? Wh-what are the advantages I don't have? I-I'm gonna fix it... I'm gonna fix it... Please darling... Loved me... BUUKK... BUUKK... BUUUUK..." The pain in the chest does not go away. Like a fool, I cry on the side of the road. I don't even care about the world around me. I'm just a weak man who's too focused on this heartache.
I don't know how long I've been crying. I don't know the time. I woke up when the driver put me in the car and gave me water. I drank that water. A stream of coldness filled my hot and claustrophobic chest. It was as if splashing cold water in the middle of my heart that was burning hot.
I took a deep breath, held it for a moment then exhaled. I did this several times until my feelings improved.
I calmed down and began to think from all sides, both from Khansa and the man. Khansa still loves the man, and vice versa. My greatest desire is to make Khansa happy, but I am not willing if that happiness is given by other men. This very selfish me can't take it off. Khansa and Alkha are mine. I will not let anyone have them both, not least that br*hgsek!!
My selfish feelings won. I ended up in the decision to never let go of Khansa, no matter how she felt about me, I would still be the one to be by her side.
"Go to the airport."
"Good Sir."
I had to meet the man and affirm my attitude. Although Khansa feels for her, but I will never let go of Khansa to anyone. Khansa is mine. Only I deserve to be by his side. Just me!!
I've made my decision. Khansa asked to separate? Then my answer is NO!! If I am unable to persuade him, then I will involve others to persuade him that is his family. Before I meet his family, I will meet the man first, confirming my decision.
I called Winda, "Winda, please get me my things."
"Sorry Sir?"
"I'm going to Surabaya. Get my things at home. If he asks, tell him I'm going to Singapore. He'll understand."
"Good Sir."
"I'm waiting at the airport."
"Good Sir."
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Meeting Andre, for most people would probably be judged as a foolish and overly hasty decision. But not with me. I must make it clear to the man that I will never let go of Khansa, no matter how she feels about me.
As soon as I set foot in Surabaya, I immediately contacted the man.
"I'm Yohan Alexander. Meet me at No*ch. Now." Now."
"I'm sorry?" sounds confused. I was too lazy to explain. I closed the call and told the driver to go where I meant.
I chose a private room and waited there. Half an hour later my phone went back.
"Yes?"
"Meet me in room 203."
"Good Sir."
Five minutes later, there was a knock in my room. "Yes in." I said.
The door opened slowly. I saw the man standing there. As usual, he looks good. I cursed myself. Why should Khansa love such a near-perfect man? If that night hadn't happened and Khansa didn't have Alkha, it's possible that this time Khansa's husband was not me, but that man. Just imagining it makes me angry.
My feelings are mixed up seeing it. Anger, hate, envy and jealousy become one. I was so jealous and envious. Why can Khansa love this man but not love me? What exactly does this man have that I don't have?
"Please sit down."
"Good Sir." Andre approached and sat in front of me politely. His face looks confused. But I caught a speck of dislike on his face. Maybe he thinks of me as his rival? If it's like that, great. Because I feel the same feeling.
"Don't be too formal. I didn't call you here for work. It's purely a personal matter." We looked at each other. Trying to judge and weigh each other's thoughts.
"If you may know, what personal matter caused you to call me? As I recall there is no personal business between us."
I looked at Andre. A moment of hesitation came approaching. What if the man was determined and forced to take Khansa from my side?
I don't need to doubt. When that happens, I just need to keep Khansa by my side, no matter what.
I looked at his face tightly. Wanted to see every look on his face when I triggered my words.
"His heart is still for you. He still loves you,"
"Sorry?" andre's face was confused.
"I said it like this doesn't mean I'm going to take it off for you. I just want to make one thing clear. No matter how she feels right now, I will never let go of her for anyone. Anyone!!"
We looked at each other. A confused and surprised look of the face adorned the man.
"In the meantime, I need some time to digest this conversation. I've been thinking, but I still don't understand. What do you mean by that word? Who loves me? I really don't understand the direction of our conversation."
Andre's words made my emotions rise again. This man really did not understand or pretended not to understand?! Does he just want to see me look stupid?! Does he want me to affirm with my own mouth that Khansa still loves him?! Want to make me a useless man?!
"You won't make this easy. I'll repeat my words. Listen and observe carefully. My wife, she still loves you!! But I'm asserting you!! No matter how I feel, I will never let go of it to anyone. Including you! Understand?!"
I stood up and kicked the table. I lost control of my emotions. The man will definitely look at me like an insecure man so scared to lose his wife. I'm terrified of losing Khansa, but that doesn't mean I'm going to hand Khansa over to anyone who loves her. Want to have Khansa? Then step on my corpse!!
The man looked at me with surprised eyes. His mouth was open, as if he could not believe what he was hearing. A mouthful of amused face flashed across his face, then...
"Pff!! Ahahaha!! Ahahaha!!" That guy is laughing at me!!
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