Beautiful Monster
He's a Monster

"See you later, Ignacia."

Tata waved his hand until the car he ordered drove away from the lobby of the mall. He wanted to take Ignacia to the station, but they would come at different stations and have different departure times. Tata has to go first.

Ignacia also returned the wave of the hand until Tata was no longer seen. Her smile faded after Tata left. Her mood became better than before thanks to Tata. The girl with the pleasant aura managed to make him feel happy again.

It's time for Ignacia to go home. The train will be coming in about an hour. The journey to the station will take twenty minutes if the streets are not crowded. So it is better to come back early so that there is no delay.

The station was as slow as when he came. Easy to get a seat to wait for the train to arrive. Opened a cell phone, saw some calls that someone made while he was still in the mall. Ignacia didn't want to talk to that guy while she was with Tata. Afraid that her face water would be so clearly visible to her friend.

The last call came about an hour ago. That person must have given up and preferred to continue the activity. Or maybe on the way home from a grueling week-long activity. Ignacia could only hope if things went well. At least for today.

Train arrives on schedule. This time Ignacia without using both tickets alone has received another empty seat bonus in front of her. So the position is now four empty seats that ensure the mood is stable until it reaches the city.

Amidst the silence, Ignacia's mind floated away. The old memories returned accompanied by some new songs that he listened to through his bluetooth airpods. Songs from the past and newly released songs of his favorite artist. Ignacia understood its meaning and related it to memory.

"STAYC girls, it's going down"

Ignacia remembered this song.

"By the way, yeah, I need you,"

"Even if it's like a puzzle, it's okay,"

"The scent that reminds me of you is so blue,"

"Only you know what it means,"

Ignacia leaned her head against the back of the carriage seat, closed her eyes and took a deep breath. He slowly let out again to stabilize the emotions. Maybe it's time for the guests to come. His mood became indistinct like a teenager.

"The sweetness of your attitude, your words are sweet,"

"Even the warm sunshine,"

"Sometimes it's cold because I do it,"

"Even if I hold you, I'm so cold,"

"I need courage in the name of love,"

"Yes, I know, yeah, you're a beautiful monster,"

"You hurt me and then you healed me,"

"Yes, I know, yes, you are a beautiful monster,"

"Love is ooh-ooh, love is ooh-ooh,"

Song 'Beautiful Monster

Songs that depict the hidden side of love include the fears and uncertainties that usually occur in teenage love lives. Revealing about someone who is considered the cause of heartache because it has hurt but also can instantly become a medicine because it heals the wounded heart.

"Again, please be a man, yeah uh,"

"My mind is empty,"

"It's not a game, it's not a show,"

"This happy dream I dreamt of myself,"

"It's complicated, you better be ready or not,"

"It's frustrating because you're out of control,"

Why does Ignacia remember Rajendra? The man once hurt her, but then healed the wounded Ignacia. It's always like a strange tug-of-war in a relationship. As Rajendra is busy with his world, Ignacia must search for her own. Then Rajendra comes, pulling Ignacia.

"Pull the groove like a tug of war," muttered Ignacia as she stared at the buildings through which the train passed.

Speaking of which, sitting on the carriage made Ignacia remember something. Rajendra used to say that he wanted to be a pilot when he grew up. But as he got older, he wanted to become a machinist all of a sudden. Ignacia doesn't really understand why she changed her mind, but please do.

In addition, Rajendra has not asked about the ideals of Ignacia since the first relationship. One reason is because Ignacia does not like to talk about it. He thought that discussing ideals could burden him himself.

Because he was confused as to what he wanted to be in the future.

His parents wanted Ignacia to become a teacher, lecturer, or other teaching staff. While Ignacia wanted to be a writer or I don't know, she hadn't thought of anything. All he did was read a novel. Ideals are also like beautiful monsters to Ignacia. Makes him happy to fight, but also makes him hurt.

"Should I follow my parents' wishes? After this I have to look for a major in college."

The graduation exam is getting closer. Graduation day is also getting closer. One month goes like two weeks. Suddenly we arrived at this date.

The city station is still far away. The trip was just over an hour. Only music can accompany her for that long. No one asked him to talk like Ignacia liked. Not like when I left. Some people ask why the bench next to him is empty.

...*****...

"Your brother's on his way home? Call me again, Athira. Your sister hasn't answered your mom's call since. Try calling until it's lifted."

The woman whose legs still felt sore was putting her phone on the nightstand. Watching expectantly for his second son who turned on the phone to fulfill his commands.

"So, I might be tired, Ma. Mama knows for herself that every day she just shuts herself in her room to read novels. Brother gets tired easily because he rarely exercise."

Nevertheless, Athira kept his mother's orders. Her mother's hopeful gaze weighed a little. "But why not pick up the phone?"

Just a long-waiting tone from Athira's phone. Her brother also did not pick up the call as had been planned in advance. Athira shows her screen to her mother, "sister may be crammed in the station and not hear the sound of her phone."

"Your brother definitely can't forgive mom. We promised to go together, "sorry the mother, "what can you do to make up for it?"

"Sister isn't a child, Ma. Brother must have felt fine even though it was not redeemed for anything."

...*****...

Rather than just being silent and doing nothing, Ignacia chose to open the novel she had just obtained. Seeing the signature of her favorite author made a sweet smile appear on her face. Plus he has a photo with Tata that was taken using a photobooth while in the mall.

Ignore all messages and calls by turning on airplane mode. He was on his way home. No one needs to ask because he will arrive soon. Why do people need him all the time?

As happened this afternoon when I was with Tata. Her mother called, her father contacted her, Athira also called. The goal of the vacation is to leave the phone and enjoy the day. Why are people busy calling and bothering them?

Luckily Tata did not mind and did not blame the rather curbing Ignacia family in the name of worry.

...*****...

The train stops at Ignacia city station. Novel's closed. It's been a chapter. Nineteen more. His excitement had to be cut because once the train stopped, he had to be busy looking for a public vehicle that could take him home. Lazy if you have to contact his father to be picked up.

There he may be scolded for turning off the phone.

Ignacia tidied up her belongings, stuffed into the sling bag she was carrying. Check everything properly then stand towards the exit. There are still a few seconds until the passengers are allowed to get off. There were some people in the car. Ignacia could not interrupt.

Better just get out. There was time to go down though last.

Ignacia stared at the loose shoelaces. The plan will be justified after getting off the train. Waiting for the few people in front of him was not so long. Ignacia kept her head down to make sure she wasn't on the wrong footing, as well as to make sure no one stepped on her shoelaces.

Just getting off the train, someone was already blocking Ignacia's way. Someone was standing right in front of him. I don't know why this guy's shoes look so familiar. Ignacia slowly raised her gaze, her eyes rightly looking at someone she had known for many years.

The busy man came.

"Why don't you turn on the phone? I sent you a message, and you didn't check it. I called, but your phone's off. You made khawarir people. You worry me, Ignacia!"

His tone turned high with sharp eyes. His face was red with anger. A few seconds later, his eyes changed?

Is Ignacia asleep in the car and dreaming? Ignacia should wake up soon.

"I was worried," repeated the person before him and immediately hugged Ignacia who was sculpting.

Rajendra's dekapan feels very real. Signs of Ignacia do not dream in a car. Ignacia left her head on the chest of Rajendra's field, feeling the warmth she missed. Ignacia misses her lover.

"Congratulations, you managed to travel alone. How's the book signing? You finally managed to meet your favorite writer. Author Cream, right? You must be so happy."

Ignacia smiled, Rajendra knows the name of his favorite author.

Slowly Ignacia returned Rajendra's embrace. "Who told you my favorite author's name? I've never discussed Miss Cream with you."

"I remember the title of the book you bought with me that day and found the author's name. How was your day, Ignacia? What fun? What were you doing?"

"I have to tell you everything? With this position?" Yeah, I mean, come on, where maybe Ignacia will tell you about the position of those who are still hugging. Where the views of the people on the two were not so friendly either.

"I was asked to bring you here. My mom was worried. How about talking over dinner? I'll take you home later." Hugs loosening. Ignacia could see Rajendra's face very clearly.

"Aren't you tired? You just got home."

"My energy came back after hugging you."

StayC's song is correct. She is a beautiful monster.

...*****...

Ignacia told me about her mother who was farthest from Rafka last night. The matter of imbalance met with Tata until finally the two became friends. Even they were like old friends who had finally met again. Rajendra was quite surprised when Ignacia talked about Tata.

All he knew was that Ignacia had only been talking to Nesya. Where ever Ignacia talk to other people so awkward he. But now he was even friends with the person he had just met.

"Nesya told me if you went alone. It scares me and worries. You were supposed to go with your mama, but things changed suddenly. I called, but why didn't you pick it up?"

Ignacia is getting a scolding now?

"I'm with Tata."

"That's no excuse, Ignacia. People at home are worried about you. No one wants you to go alone, no one wants you to turn off the phone."

"Yes, I'm sorry," Ignacia looked down, staring at her food unappetizingly, "I just want to enjoy the day with my new friend. I want to feel the holidays. You and Nesya are busy, so I can only go alone."

Rajendra stared fixedly, his hands moving to stroke Ignacia's long mane. "We're just worried because you've never traveled alone. The world is too cruel, we worry. We don't mean to disrupt your vacation."

"Yes, I understand."

"Sorry to get you stuck with me. My mom is troubling you today. You should just say if you're tired after a whole week of activities. My mother will understand and give up."

Ignacia felt bad for bothering her lover because of her mother. Ignacia is disappointed with the people who couldn't go with her to the book signing event and Rajendra is on her list. But her mother got Rajendra stuck with her.

Rajendra shook his head as he took his hand back from the top of Ignacia's head, "I'm glad to be able to help you. I also want to make sure you get home well. You didn't tell me you were going alone."

"I don't want to bother you."

"Sending the news isn't disturbing, Ignacia. What if Nesya didn't talk to me just now if you went alone? I probably never would have known. You're my lover, I should know you better than anyone."

"If you want to know more about me, stop being busy and start playing with me again, Rajendra. There's always MPK business dealing with me."

"I'm no longer the MPK's chairman, Ignacia. Now, the status I have is only that of a student and your lover."

Ignacia could not help but smile as soon as she heard Rajendra's last words. This guy is very conscious of what he says. The two of them smiled at each other and finally chuckled together.

"I like the latter status" muttered Ignacia.

"I like it too" Rajendra followed along.

Go back to eating, finish it and go home. Rajendra needs rest, Ignacia too. Both are tired after doing activities. Rajendra has to replenish the energy for real. Then Ignacia needs to sleep after reading.

On the bike, Ignacia can only hug Rajendra's body. The smell of his body really makes Ignacia opiate. There is little desire for the way homenua further until it can be longer with Rajendra. But unfortunately in the blink of an eye, Ignacia had already arrived in front of his house.

"Hurry in and rest. I'll call you when I get home. Sleep well, Ignacia."

Ignacia nodded, silently giving a kiss on Rajendra's cheek without saying anything. It's better to leave quickly because Rajendra smiles at his behavior. Ah the sweet smile Ignacia always liked.

"Can't I get a monster that can only heal without causing heartache? I think Rajendra is too pretty to be a monster, "Ignacia's inner self.