Beautiful Monster
Steal Time

The semester just started. Tasks, practices, exams, everything will come back until the college period is finished. To avoid unwanted things like being unprepared for the next material and upcoming exams, Danita invites Ignacia to find a study group.

Two people joined. Two women who participated in the drama Ignacia as actors who played with Danita. This was not the first time Ignacia had made friends, but there was still a sense of awkwardness. But this is good. Ignacia already had many friends and was hanging out with good people.

The four plan to study together every weekend. His activities are certainly studying difficult materials and looking for many references. If there is a presentation, they want one group as well. It's not some kind of gang that everywhere will always be foursome. Habya for college.

"Ignacia!" call a friend from the gazebo on the other side of the park, "may I have some juice with a little ice?"

The one who was asked for help nodded. They were resting, Danita offered to buy snacks and juice in the cafeteria. Danita deliberately brought Ignacia so that this friend did not feel awkward without her. Already friends during the drama still haven't kept the three close.

While waiting for the juice order to be completed, Ignacia opened her phone which she had not checked in the morning. His parents had him call if Ignacia would be busy studying, so neither his mana nor his father would disturb and think excessively.

Ignacia opens her lover's roomchat. There are no signs online yet. A few weeks have passed with the news of Rajendra fading away. Ignacia was no longer surprised by everything that happened. Rajendra is busy in college, working, and enjoying his time with rest.

Ignacia should be more patient.

"Ignacia," Danita scolds, passing on two avocado juices belonging to the other two friends. "let's go back to the gazebo." Nothing the two are talking about. Danita is too tired and wants to sleep in the dorm. This week he's been trying to be more diligent like Ignacia. It's not that easy to raise value and be smart.

When eating snacks the four did not talk to each other. Being active in a study group is just fun in the beginning. After that it felt a bit bored because if it were not for the complicated tasks and exams, they would rarely touch books. If so, they might fail.

"Alright, we should get back excited to study and graduate on time" Danita said. He did not like the silence that was too quiet. "What if we go to a new place every month? Maybe into another nice one that's comfortable to study. Being in the gazebo is a bit boring."

Does Danita think she's unproductive because she's in the same place every weekend? It's not just him who thinks so. It was a bit boring when studying in that atmosphere.

"Then we can decide somewhere else after discussing this material," broke up the friend in front of Danita. There is no harm in moving places to learn while for good and really to develop yourself.

At night, Ignacia awaits a message from Rajendra. The man should have gone home from work. There was no online sign in the message room. As a result of waiting too long, Ignacia even accidentally fell asleep with her hand still holding the phone with the screen off.

When he woke up, Ignacia did not get a reply. Maybe Rajendra went to bed as soon as he finished work. It is positive if his lover is exhausted with the tasks he carries with all his heart. But at least read Ignacia's message at break time. Steal time or something.

...Rajendra ⁇ ◝ ⁇ ◜...

^^^How was your day, Rajendra? |^^^

^^^Rest enough |^^

^^^Do not get sick yaa |^^

Ignacia left her phone to get ready to go group study again with her friends. This time they would go out to a place like a study cafe. A friend recommended it to Danita and the others agreed. Ignacia better not be late.

Danita and Ignacia came too early. The other two friends have not arrived. The road is also jammed because of repairs, so they may be late. While waiting, Ignacia and her housemates choose to study first. Being quiet and sitting down will not change anything.

Both phones are disabled so as not to be disturbed even if there is no regulation for it. About fifteen minutes passed from the appointment, in the end the two friends came as well. They apologized because the roads were crowded using public transportation.

...*****...

Danita sat next to Ignacia, both on their way home by afternoon bus. It's time to take a break and prepare for college tomorrow. Danita refrained from asking her friend who kept holding and checking her phone. Danita was too afraid to make Ignacia feel uncomfortable.

Both are silent. Ignacia avoids as much of the chatter that Danita made for a reason as possible. Maybe there was something wrong with his mood. Danita thought that Ignacia was just tired after studying from morning. Maybe Ignacia needs time to replenish her energy.

"See you."

Even in the dormitory, Ignacia was just saying goodbye and went straight into her room. The door closed weakly as if its energy was getting drained. Danita can't do anything. Just staring and observing.

...Rajendra ⁇ ◝ ⁇ ◜...

^^^Today I learned the group again |^^^

^^^I just got home now |^^^

^^^You are still working? |^^^

^^^Stay spirit yes, Rajendra |^^^

...*****...

Ignacia may be able to hold a few days or even a few weeks with Rajendra's careless attitude of not checking his phone at all. But Ignacia's resilience remains its limit. His heart felt very sick and was now suddenly claustrophobic because of something. I don't know what the reason is.

"Am I depressed?" ask him to yourself. His hands still faithfully held tightness in the chest that seemed to be relentless. It's been about a month Rajendra's gone without any news. Sometimes not replying to a message or just reading it like the two are having a fight.

"I'm interrupting her life too much?"

Ignacia dropped her hand to the side. The taste is gone. He looked at the dim ceiling of the room. He feels lonely. Very lonely. Someone he always contacted suddenly seemed to leave without saying goodbye.

Many times Ignacia took a deep breath to calm herself down. He doesn't want to make trouble when away from Rajendra. Ignacia was too afraid of loss. He used to make trouble, not anymore. A tired Rajendra could have left him fed up.

Ignacia is trying to be as busy as Rajendra. Study groups, take part in literary-related competitions, then many tasks that make it impossible to use a mobile phone for too long. But still. Ignacia needs Rajendra to tell her stories.

There are some things that Ignacia cannot tell other than Rajendra and even Ignacia does not want anyone else to know about it other than Rajendra. He said the man Ignacia trusted and that he understood him better than anyone.

The long-haired girl sat by her bed, waiting for her message to be read.

...Rajendra ⁇ ◝ ⁇ ◜...

^^^ Do you have time? |^^^

^^^There is something I want to tell you |^^^

Shouldn't Rajendra be at the boarding house and getting ready for bed? Why didn't he open his phone at all? Ignacia knows Rajendra has no reason to open the phone as often as Ignacia. Rajendra's parents didn't demand as much news as her lover did.

Ignacia may have to give up again today. Rajendra will not show up. Just like a few nights ago. Just now Ignacia was about to return her phone to the nightstand, a message she was waiting for came.

...Rajendra ⁇ ◝ ⁇ ◜...

| Sorry I have a lot of work

| What do you want to tell me?

Ignacia's spirit is back. In girls type a lot of things about what she experiences when studying groups. For a moment this girl forgot that she should have let Rajendra rest. Because after telling the story, Rajendra responds passively and then permits to go to sleep. As if responding to Ignacia's message was a meaningless formality.

Ignacia asks if Rajendra can accompany her for tonight alone. Unfortunately not the positive answer Ignacia got. Rajendra is now too tired, he wants to rest because he has to go back to running tomorrow. Especially with his position who also works part-time.

As much as Ignacia tried not to mix up the feelings of sadness and pain that he felt. The lower part of his stomach was very painful, the first day of his month had arrived. Ignacia wanted to complain about how much it hurt, but Rajendra had already gone to bed.

Ignacia will not blame her lover. Connected to the adult, Ignacia should not demand anything just for herself. Ignacia should have thought about how tired Rajendra was. The man is young, deserving of all the time he needs to travel the world.

While Ignacia continued to steel herself, something clear and cold descended slowly from her closed bead. Ignacia did not want to know this pain of abandonment or the result of severe contractions in the walls of her uterus. Clearly, both of them were too sick and made him limp.

The girl sobbed. Try to hold the voice so that it is not heard by others. But his attempt failed. Everything is too bad to hold. Why should Ignacia cover up all her unpleasant feelings alone? Why should she feel pain just because she feels alone?

Someone barged in because of the sound of crying in Ignacia. The person immediately hugged the girl he found sitting by the bed while hugging herself. Ignacia doesn't know why she left the door unlocked. Clearly, Ignacia was lucky that someone would hug her and tell her that everything would be fine, Ignacia could cry all over.

Danita stroked Ignacia's long mane gently, patting her friend's back to strengthen. It has been a month Danita noticed the condition of her friend's bad heart. Danita was too afraid of ruining something Ignacia was feeling. But for tonight Danita can't take it anymore. Nesha, who knew Ignacia better.

The glasses girl brought him a drink, trying to calm Ignacia down. Seeing Ignacia as if enduring the pain of the moon, the two also knew why Ignacia's emotions could explode. Hormonal conditions are rising and falling. Anyone or anything that makes Ignacia cry so hard is cruel.

That night Ignacia did not explain anything, neither did her two friends talk much. The two even stayed until Ignacia felt better. Ignacia's emotions were completely muddled. She kept crying without knowing when to stop. He seems to have a lot of it.

...*****...

After a few days, Ignacia began to control herself. His hormones are back in balance and he's going to start acting the same way Rajendra did. He was determined to cut down on cell phones as much as possible other than to contact his parents, especially the mother.

Ignacia found other things besides being busy for academics. The long-haired girl spent a lot of time reading interesting books from the campus library and even borrowed them to read in the dormitory. His head was only filled with books like the past when he felt alone.

The books of Athira had long since been read. One day Ignacia will read it again if her emotions return unstable. Ignacia who opened the message from Rajendra had him soak all day. Apparently this is how it feels when no longer interested in getting news from a lover.

"That connection shouldn't make you feel alone, Ignacia. Shouldn't you be looking for someone who needs you too? If you beg Rajendra for time, that man might start to get tired of you."

Ignacia remembered Bahri's call the night before. Danita told me about Ignacia and Bahri finally contacted his old friend to make sure. Bahri never knew if Ignacia could cry that long. And as a good friend, Bahri doesn't want Ignacia to get hurt.

What does Bahri mean if he has to find someone who also needs him? Is Bahri giving advice for Ignacia to leave Rajendra who is not busy what? That's not what Ignacia wants.

Ignacia will try to always be there in times when Rajendra needs support and help in his tough college days. Ignacia will not play fire backstage Rajendra under any circumstances. Ignacia had already given all her heart to the man.

Who knows behind Rajendra's busyness, Ignacia will later reap the victory. Maybe then Rajendra will realize Ignacia's whereabouts and return to her like the past right? Ignacia will wait for those moments.

"Feeling alone and ignored is as painful as physical pain, Ignacia. You should know the limits of your body's ability to withstand pain. Don't be too stupid just because of a man!"

Ignacia wanted to know why Bahri was so angry. Ignacia never felt that Rajendra was a bad man. Does Bahri feel like Rajendra is like Bagas? Ignacia has always been with Rajendra.

The fact that the two have almost reached the sixth year of the relationship also shows that Rajendra is not a man who likes to play games, right?

"Serious men won't confuse you about his feelings, Ignacia. Once you doubt, you should ask again if Rajendra is really serious about you and not just hanging on to you."

Bahri is just too much, right?