Between Love and Love
I want to go home

"Papa also hopes like that, papa wants everything just engineered. You know very well how papa loves him, but the statement from the sheet of paper is a real fact, you know, shasa's disease is now at the final stadium"

Shasa who was still behind the door, closed his own mouth, and shook his head after hearing the words of the antoni doctor, he lashed out at his chest which felt tight! all over her body trembled, she tried to step back, but her legs felt so heavy, tears flowed instantly Without realizing it

"Shasa's disease is now incurable, there's nothing we can do for her, she can only wait for a miracle to come to her! to give him a little chance to live for a few days" explained the antoni doctor in a heavy voice

"No, no, Rendi kept shaking her head

"Pa, why does it have to be Shasa, why did this happen to her?" Rendi who could not accept the reality cried bitterly, hugging her papa

"Pa, Rendi loves and loves him so much, Rendi is not willing if she has to leave my life, Rendi never imagined it"

"Papa knew that, and he loved her very much! He's like my own son, but how else does fate tell him, we can't do anything"

Doctor Antoni let go of Rendi's embrace and saw the face of his son who was so pitiful, as if he did not have the spirit of life again when he heard the adoration of his heart, now just waiting for a miracle that can keep him alive

"Don't be like this, don't ever show your sad face to the shasa, that's what he's always been afraid of all this time! makes you feel sad for it" said doctor Antoni while removing his son's tears

Shasa slowly dragged her heavy legs, she tried her hardest to leave the place! With broken feelings, it could no longer quibble from the sadness that had completely enveloped it!

he who had been very skilled in hiding his feelings was now unable to do that anymore, his cries immediately broke just because he did not want to make doctors Antoni and Rendi know his whereabouts, he said, he kept his mouth shut while trying to leave the place where he was standing

"Miss Shasa, what's wrong with you?" A nurse working at Antoni's clinic approached him when he saw him limping and crying

"Is there anything I can help you with?

Shasa shook his head and did not answer the nurse's question

"Do I need to tell Dr. Antoni?" The question from the nurse, made Shasa quickly reach her hand, holding her

"No, no, no," Shasa quickly shook her head

"don't tell Antoni, whoever it is don't tell them if I'm here, please don't tell anyone" Shasa, who was crying, bowed in front of the nurse, pleading

"Miss what are you doing, don't be like this," the nurse immediately made Shasa to stand up straight again

" well I promise I won't tell anyone about your arrival today' the nurse complies with Shasa's request, because she also knows Shasa very well, how is his relationship with doctor Antoni and his son doctor Rendi

Seeing Shasa struggling to walk, the nurse grabbed Shasa by the arm and helped him walk out of the clinic, until Leo, who saw him, was shocked by his employer's condition

"Miss, Miss Shasa what happened? Why are you crying? Who made you like this? Did they do anything bad to you?" Leo with his questions, rushes to get inside the clinic, but Shasa quickly stops him. Shasa Holding Leo's arm about to walk into the clinic

"I want to go home, please take me home," Shasa's crying voice sounded

Leo turned around and saw the sad face of Shasa, he finally complied and opened the car door for Shasa

Not separated from his problems with Raka, now he lamented his fate that was so unfortunate.

"Lord, what sins have I committed? From childhood until now, I've always been patient to deal with the illness you gave me, but now you want to take me so quickly. Do I not deserve to live happily in this world?" He said inwardly blaming his cruel destiny on her which always made her suffer

***

Raka sat on the park bench leaning back, her face moody and visibly annoyed, she continuously sighed, feeling annoyed at herself and feeling guilty towards Shasa

For a long time he sat alone on the bench, to the point that he didn't realize it was dark. The night is approaching! lights on each side of the road were lit

"Young man," suddenly someone reprimanded him to make Raka who was drifting in her daydreams dumbfounded

"You seem to be in trouble! Is there anything I can help you with?" Said an old man standing in front of him and looking at him

"Haa. no, there's nothing thank you!" Raka shook her head, which had now come to a realization! He stood up from his seat and looked around him to find that a bright day had passed and it was now dark.

Raka looked at the old man who had bowed to stand in front of her, and Raka smiled as she lowered her head to the old man.

The old man smiled back at him

"Young man, you are not good at hiding your feelings, on your face is very clear if you have a problem, what is it? You look so sad!" The old man said again

Raka shook her head again

"There's nothing!" The answer with a smile

"I'm sorry I bothered you, but this is where I live! It was already night, and it was time for me to rest" the old man stepped his legs that felt hard to move and with the Pelang he tried to sit on the bench! and after that opened the package of food boxes in his hand

The old man raised his head to look at Raka who was looking at him, he again wrapped the box he had opened

"Do you want to eat?" Asked the old man while thrusting the lunchbox at Raka

"Unbelieving," said Raka, refusing the old man's gift with a smile, and looking pity at the Old man who was now in front of him

The old man put his food box back on the bench and opened it again, smiling to take a bite and eat it

"Old man, you live here?" Raka asked the old man who had eaten the food

The old man simply nodded his head and continued to chew the food he had in his mouth

"Where is your family? Why let you sleep here? There's a lot of mosquitoes and cold, what else is raining! it will not make you rest comfortably" Raka who paid attention to him, made the old man stop to eat