Between Love and Love
I was afraid to start a relationship.

...Not that I don't want to accept you. But I am the one who has nothing to be proud of. I don't deserve you and I'm afraid to start a relationship....

Still angry, right? Answer her hem doang."

"Udah need not be discussed."

"OKAY. What if after coming home from church we go somewhere?" Take Tara.

Anton turned to Tara while saying "Tumben ngajak go first, usually invited never want. Where are you going?"

"Em, I don't know where I'm confused too. Eat at the stump while reading online novels only in the noveltoon application . Oh, yes I have a good new reading about life after marriage entitled With You Again pity the female protagonist like me is a kara who struggled so, exclaimed the story." It was clearly Tara who passionately told her a favorite novel.

" Where did you think you were going."

Tara was silent while holding her chin. He thought about where to go with Anton.

Anton's car stopped in front of a church. He gets out of the car and opens the door for Tara. Anyone who saw it would have thought they were lovers. But the truth is not like that.

"Thank you" Tara said with a smile. He opened the seat belt and went down.

"Don't keep smiling, I can love you more."

"God, what the fuck is love? I don't know what food that is?" Tara pretended not to understand what Anton said and turned around to ask.

"You can try it a little bit! Must be ntar's hooked." Pinta Anton's.

"Big no." Reject Tara firmly.

Unwilling to argue with Tara again, Anton immediately walks away leaving Tara still standing next to his car. It's not that he doesn't care about Tara. Sometimes Anton is tired of persuading the woman who is with him. When the lips say want to release but in reality the heart is still adrift and the feeling he feels to Tara deepens. The nature and attitude of Tara was able to make Anton difficult to eliminate his feelings to the woman from Surabaya.

Even Anton tried several times to open his heart to other women but, in fact, it was not easy. He still wants Tara. They are both hard. One of his hearts had fallen and could not leave. One has not been able to open the heart because of the wounds and disappointment in the past.

People say time can heal wounds and everything will be fine. But the truth is Tara is not. He is afraid of building relationships, he is afraid of disappointment he is afraid of all things. According to no one who is truly sincere and good other than God that is the thought of Tara.

"Anton, wait! Why are you leaving me?" Tara protests, she runs a little to chase Anton.

Because the one called did not stop or look at all Tara called again with a little shout "Vinsensius Anton Hermawan wait!"

Anton stopped even though he did not look back. If his full name had been mentioned like this he was sure Tara was angry. He was still in place while waiting for his lady.

"Anton, you're walking fast. I wear haigh heels so it's hard to walk fast. You want my leg scratched?" Complain Tara.

"There's nothing." Tara answered tightly. Then he walked quickly leaving Anton still in place.

Tara and Anton sat in the back row. Usually young people will sit in the back row like them.

Tara closed her eyes and folded her hands in front of her chest while praying.

"Lord, the man next to me is good. I really can't open my heart. Let him be happy with another woman." Tara said in her heart.

"The woman beside me, I love her so much from the heart and the whole soul. Lord, if I may ask I want to spend the rest of my life with him, building a family and I will devote my love and affection to him. Yes, a whole and loving family in it. Suffice his suffering first, not again in tomorrow and the next days." Anton. He prayed for all the good for the woman he loved.

Time can change everything. But, everything takes time. Like Tara's heart, her trust in man is thin, like a piece of tissue. There is no love other than the love of God. Tara just can't yet, it takes her even longer to feel the love of Anton.

" Where are we going?" ask Anton.

The man is still focused on his drive. He did not look at Tara one bit.

Tara stopped her surfing activities on her social media. He looked at Anton while saying. "We go to the mall, what?"

"Okay, we're going to the mall."

Tara let out a rough breath. He felt Anton was still angry with him. Because not usually the man looks indifferent to Tara.

"Still angry, huh?" Tara asked with a sigh.

"Relga." Answer Anton.

"Go home, don't go to the mall." Tara spoke in a slightly taut tone.

Anton stopped his car. The man is silent and his eyes are still focused. Looks like something he's thinking.

"Why stop suddenly?"

"Ngga anything. Tara, why can't you open your heart to me? Strangely, I could not open my heart to other women. Every prayer I pray, always hoping you can see my true love. Confused what to do to get your frozen heart to melt." Anton spoke without looking at Tara.

" Look at me! It's good and has everything. But look at the woman next to you like gini, I have nothing to be proud of. You live strong because of the affection of parents. I am strong because of the wounds. Do you know why the reason I met Mama you always hug? I miss a mother's embrace. My days are always strong and full of smiles. I always cry in the dark of the night. Not that I don't accept fate, but I want to start a relationship of fear. I'm afraid of getting hurt I'm afraid of being dumped I'm afraid of being disappointed I fear all things. I fear all Anton, "Tara lowered her head after speaking out loud and clear circles had escaped from both corners of her beautiful eyes.

No more words from Anton. The man grabbed Tara's slender body. There is regret in this man. All because of her always asking how to melt Tara's frozen heart. Why is it so hard to open your heart. Anton forgets that no one can change a person's heart except the one who has it.

Yes, love cannot be forced. It is not the less persistent warrior but the once wounded heart that has been frozen is hard to melt.