Between Love and Love
A letter to Anton.

The soul mate is in the hands of God but all of that must be fought also in order to be able to match. In fighting!

-**Anton*** -

Yes, God protect Tara wherever she is. Happy he is in every roar of his steps. Yes, God." The cloud could not continue his prayer. He can no longer speak. Her tears spilled continuously without excuse.

The cold white ceramic floor bears witness to how a man roared in heartfelt mourning for a woman he loved. Inwardly unceasingly said a prayer for the woman. How his heart holds back love from appearing, how he should take it off without a little struggle.

Elsewhere a man clutched tightly onto a piece of paper he had just received from Salma. As with the Clouds, he also felt the pain of love. Just a few minutes ago he read word by word a letter from Tara. Her tears just came out reading the letter.

Dear Anton

Hi, nice guy I've known. Thank you for being part of my life story. Sorry, I often make you hurt. I really didn't mean it that way. I will miss Sunday morning when we go to church together sitting in the back row. I will miss those moments. Please open your heart to another woman. It's not you who's not good for me, but I'm not worthy of you. Be happy with someone better than me. Because we are only just good friends, even though there is a desire to be together there. Thank you, good friend. Knowing you is a happy thing.

Who always loved you Tara.

It's too old-fashioned to send a letter to someone. But not for Tara. He wrote word by word on a piece of paper. He pours the little taste he once had on Anton. Had hoped but should be broken because of social status. In the end we can only be together but not together.

"A great place to be together? Does that mean Tara also ever had more feelings from friends? There must be something wrong with this." Anton said to himself. I guess what happened to Tara.

At first they met all fine. The longer the closer because they are one church and often seen together events. Didn't people say love is used to it? And Tara was getting used to it. As he slowly opened the tightly shut door of his heart. Hope that wants to be together began to climb high in the drop again because of a caste. Yes, the rich with the rich, and the poor can not also be with the rich? In love he said the important thing of the heart. But, in reality, everything is only seen from the eyes, the ears seem deaf and the heart cannot judge a sincere feeling.

Anton immediately walked out of the room to fetch some drinking water. Her steps came to a halt as she heard the mother's conversation with her grandmother on the phone. He was still there listening to his mother.

"That's a good woman. Will really like him. No matter his social status and even he's an orphan who doesn't know his origin I don't care ma. Anton also likes Tara. It's only fitting that he avoids us this year, all because of mama. Look at him from the eyes and value him from the heart ma. Don't look at her past, isn't Tara not wrong in this. I didn't think with my mom's thoughts. I don't care if you agree or not. All I want is the happiness of my son and I want" Anton's mom didn't go on.

" So, Tara is so because of grandma?" tanya Anton cut off the mother's conversation. He walked closer to his mother.

Mama Anton looked back following the direction of the voice. Then say ." You hear all that, Anton?"

"Anton borrowed my mom's phone for a while" he said.

"You want what you? Don't fuck with you!" ask the mother and also commemorate Anton.

Her mother was afraid that she would be angry with her grandmother.

"Believe Anton ma, won't be angry." Anton said with a soft word.

With hesitation the mother handed the flat object to the son.

"Mr, thank you. Thanks to my grandmother the woman I love did not want to open her heart to me even after dropping by a year of my struggle she did not let a single tear. Not she who is too hard-hearted, but from the beginning she prevents her love from appearing because of the actions of the grandmother. The soul mate is in the hands of God, but if not in the fight will not be a match. Didn't grandma ever say that. And I don't seem to be a match for Tara. It's all thanks to grandma" Anton ended his phone with the grandmother . He returned the phone to his mother.

" Anton, what do you mean you say that, son?" ask the mother.

" Tara has resigned from the office. And he went somewhere we don't know. He wants to go back to the orphanage in Surabaya. But Merry's been looking for information from his brother that there he wasn't there. And the orphanage doesn't know where Tara is. They only occasionally get in touch by phone and receive money from Tara to help with the orphanage. The woman I love goes ma, and stupidly I don't know her feelings are the same as mine. And in the end he opened his heart to another man and ended up having to get hurt as well. She's a good woman ma, she's good she deserves to be happy" Anton said with his head bowed.

The mother hugged Anton. He knew how his son felt at this moment. The child struggles for about a year to win Tara's heart. Not bear any fruit.

"Mama help persuade Tara. Don't mind your grandmother's words. We'll find out where Tara is. Later mama told papa to help find. A lot of business friends who can definitely help Tara's existence." Said the mother.

"No need ma, Tara already loves another man."

"Why are you like this. One year's effort must disappear. If you guys are gonna be together." Mama Anton continues to encourage the son not to give up.

"Ma, can't that heart be forced? I've lost my timing ma."