Between Love and Love
I've long lost my shoulder to lean on.

Tara was silent for a moment, then continued her words.

"I went home to church, and was invited to Anton's house. It just so happens that his parents and brother have known me for a long time because we are one church. But when I went to her house there was Anton's grandmother visiting. He was good at Salma. But, when I was going home he kissed me on the cheek while whispering lest I be a part of his family because our social status was different. It was me who started wanting to depend on Anton and started to open my heart so shut the door of my heart again." Tara answered at length.

" What? On what basis can you not be part of his family? You are beautiful, and you are also a very independent woman and have a good career. And wouldn't it be if you were dating, until marriage is important you and Anton, right?" Salma asked who was still shocked by Tara's words.

" Marriage is not that simple as Salma. It is not just the groom and the woman that are based on love. It also brings two families together. And as you can see, I have no family. I never leaned on the shoulder of a woman named mother. I never indulged in whining to a man called father. When everyone says sincere love from my parents, I never get it. I was dumped I was ignored I didn't want Salma. And in the end I don't believe in love."

" Anton knows about that?"

" Of course I don't know. I know what he's like, so of course things like this I won't tell you. I think what Grandma said was true. I don't deserve to be in his family. And also I will not be in a place that cannot accept myself. I can still be with the others and I will still be happy in my way. "

" You're so great, I salute you Ra. Oh, yes and Clouds, how can you like him what is the reason? "

" I've known him for six months. There is always an attitude from him that amazes me. How to talk, polite and he also obeyed worship. He was always joking when I was in a bad mood. The way he comforts the way he reprimands when I'm wrong. Everything that's on him I like."

" Yes, Clouds is so good I think the woman with him will be lucky later. And, I wish it was lo."

Tara smiled in response to Salma's words. He himself was also confused as to what he would do later. He and the Cloud had different beliefs. It won't be easy for them to unite. Tara will keep her own heart. It will be the person who remains self-aware and will not expect more. Because it is not easy for him to be accepted in the Cloud family later.

"So, I didn't expect much." Tara said with a wistful.

"That's okay, there's gotta be a way if you're a match."

"Yes I know, and all the roads I've been through are too steep and a lot of pebbles. Sometimes tired again this is how life is. There is no eternal happiness and no constant distress. Because God has arranged everything well."

Salma was sad to hear Tara's story. He was embarrassed because all this time still moaning when he had a whole family had a brother in love with everyone and never lacking one anything. One example is that life will be balanced if there is sadness and happiness. There is a time to meet and there is also a time to separate.

In Salatiga.

Clouds and all the families went home after the event was over. The whole family is still gathered at Grandma's house. Now they are in the living room and chatting with each other.

"Well lacking these Clouds and Hafis that have not sold out. By the way when did you guys follow Hasan?" ask Aunt Cloud.

"Where? Know here the same mother and if you dare go straight to her home apply her." Ask the mother and also suggest to immediately propose to the girl whose child means.

"His name I don't know ma'am, how to apply. Oh, yes, Nur must know. I'll ask you later. Coincidentally met at the house of Mbak Nur. Hafis.

" Maybe he's one of the guests there. Or still far away from Nur. Tomorrow try mom's phone to ask her too."

"Well, that's a good idea, ma'am. Hafis wait for the good news, ma'am." This time Hafis hoped that Bisq would soon find out what the name of the girl he saw this morning was.

The clouds and the others simply listened to their chatter without chiming in a single bit. I was tired all day at the wedding.

" Mom, the clouds to the room first. Sleepy to sleep for a while," said Awan asked permission from his mother and he moved from his seat.

"Eh, I'll talk to you for a second."

Forehead Deep crimped cloud. He wondered if his father wanted to talk to him.

"Come, what do you want to say, Dad?" Ask Clouds.

The father stood up and patted the Cloud's shoulders softly the sign he wanted to invite the child to follow him. Without asking, the cloud who already knew the meaning of the father immediately followed in his footsteps from behind.

"Is there anything you want to talk to me about? Is there anything important?" Asked Awan who was impatient to know what his father meant.

"Yes, about our chat on the phone a while back. I want to match you with my best friend's son. God willing the girl is kind and sholehah. If you are ready, your father and mother will be very happy. After all, your age is also enough to make a household." Saying Father.

Degs...

The clouds were unable to speak for a few minutes. His mind was empty instantly and his heart rate was racing faster. There is fear and guilt. Of course it won't be easy for him. How could he refuse his parents' request. While on the other hand there was the name of another woman in his heart. What fate is playing on them? Between love for parents and love for the woman he wants to care for.

Perverted he lowered his head while privileging in his heart. Will he hurt those he loves? Her love for Tara was wrong from the start and she knew it. But is not the feeling that arises from the heart that is difficult to prevent?

"Why are you silent? Do you have another woman you love?" asked the father, he saw the clouds bowed and silence made him wonder.