Giving Birth to My Brother
71. Wants to Love

"I want to be able to love you, El," Ariel said in response to Elin's question. He rubbed Elin's cheek gently. "You know, our love is off limits."

Elin nodded slowly. He landed his head on Ariel's open chest and held the man close. Well, after all they might be parting soon, thought Elin.

"Sister played a very good role to pretend to love me" whispered Elin.

Ariel pulled her head away and raised Elin's chin so they could look up. "I'm sorry."

"No need. I asked you to pretend to love me for 5 months, right? Now .... there are still 4 months left," Elin said with a smile.

Ariel smiled. Her heart ached seeing the smile on Elin's face so innocent. He had really hurt Elin's sincere love for her. In fact, Elin willingly lent her womb to save her seed.

Ariel rubbed Elin's stomach and said, "He's bobo?"

Elin nodded. "Udah, really big hen. I think we should be bobo too, brother."

"Yes, I went to the toilet and took a shower" Ariel said as she walked out of Elin's blanket. He rubbed Elin's cheek and kissed her cheek. "I'm sleeping here, relax."

Elin smiled faintly. He can only guess that Ariel deliberately took a bath after their hot struggle so that tomorrow morning when he met Sinta, he did not look just finished shampooing. Maybe, he never asked. However, Elin had already memorized how Ariel's behavior always guarded Sinta's heart.

Ariel returned to Elin's bed when the girl was already sleepy. Until Ariel pulled her into the embrace, Elin still closed her eyes. Ariel rubbed Elin's back, but she couldn't get to sleep.

If she could turn back the clock, she wouldn't have made Elin the woman she chose to give birth to. That regret continued to fill Ariel's heart, especially the longer she felt that Elin loved her more. In fact, if the baby is born later he does not know how he drove Elin from his life.

Is it selfish for him to have Elin at once? Ariel nodded slowly. She still has Sinta who loves her too. Sinta has lost her womb, Sinta needs her. It can't be like this. He will have to choose between his two wives one day.

***

The next day, when Elin woke up Ariel was still asleep. He was so tired that he didn't wake up to eat something in the middle of the night. I usually look for something in the kitchen. She patted Ariel's cheek gently to get her husband up.

"Sister, it's early in the morning" said Elin as Ariel wriggled softly.

Ariel did not answer Elin's words, but Ariel tightened her arms to Elin's body. "You know, I always dreamed I could hug you like this first."

"What?" asked Elin in shock. He blinked because Ariel was talking like he was messing around. Perhaps Ariel was still half asleep because her eyes were still closed and her breathing was so soft. "Sister! I'm awake."

Ariel frowned now, she opened her eyes lazily and then smiled faintly when she saw my face Elin in front of her.

"What did my brother say?" asked Elin curiously. Ariel's words have managed to make his heart abnormal.

"What's? What am I talking about?" ariel was confused. He scratched his unscratchy head. "Dream times. I'm not sober."

"Seriously?" ask Elin.

Ariel nodded. Was he delirious or said something that made Elin hurt? "Am I talking bad?"

Elin shook her head slowly. Maybe true, Ariel just spoke unconsciously, thought Elin. "I want to shower and pray. Brother out."

"Standard off. Adzan just right," said Ariel.

"Udah adhan, not new adhan," said Elin reminded.

Ariel nodded with a smile. "OKAY. Yes, I woke up first. I'm gonna get ready for work. I'll be here again."

"Bathletes, use water aja. It's cold."

Elin just smiled. He let Ariel leave the room every morning like this after Ariel spent the night in his room. He felt a bit sad, but he was also grateful that Ariel had always been kind to him. Ariel completely complied with her desire to pretend to love her.

As usual, Elin took a morning shower and dressed up a little after the dawn prayers. She examined the script she had typed since the beginning of her pregnancy. He did not know where the manuscript would be he brought which clearly he still wanted to work.

Ariel went into her room again in a suit like the morning before. He approached Elin who was focusing in front of his laptop.

"Morning," said Ariel.

Elin laughed a little. Though they had only split up a few 1 hour ago, but Ariel always showed up and showed off a longing for her.

"August, Brother!" Elin let Ariel hug herself from behind as she was still sitting. "Want breakfast now?"

"Stay, still missing" said Ariel.

"What the hell," said Elin while standing up. "I'm this laper. I don't eat anymore."

"Oh yeah? You're very well asleep," said Ariel.

Elin nodded. "So, I think it's a good bob."

"Yes dong." Ariel moved forward to kiss Elin's lips. He was addicted to Elin's lips. Just a day did not smell it felt anything less, so he never missed a morning moment like this to be alone for a moment with Elin.

"Have you missed?" elin asked as Ariel let go of the kiss.

"Udah, but I want to kiss our baby first" Ariel said. He knelt down in front of Elin and placed his ear on Elin's slightly puffed stomach. "August, Son. Are you a laper, right? We have breakfast again. You are healthy in there. Growing up well, my son."

Elin rubbed Ariel's head slowly as the man kissed her stomach. He laughed because he felt a little amused by Ariel's actions.

"Now we're actually having breakfast" Ariel said. He took Elin's hand so they could come down together.

On the first floor, Sinta was preparing toast for Ariel and Elin. He was quite used to Ariel and Elin's mornings, so he didn't protest much anymore now. Moreover, Ariel always said that he did it just to make bonding with the baby in the stomach of Elin.

Sinta looked at Ariel who was going down the stairs with Elin. He took a deep breath and sat down first at the dinner table. Ariel came closer and kissed her cheek as usual.

"Morning, Honey. You cook a lot?" ask Ariel.

"No, Mas. Just a toast is like a block of eggs. Do you want to use eggs what jam?" ask Sinta in a soft voice. He sees Elin vanishing in the kitchen because usually Elin will make juice for herself or make milk pregnant women.

"A peanut, honey. I can polish myself. You want one too?" ask Ariel.

"Byeah" replied Sinta. He noticed Ariel putting peanut butter on his toast. Sinta smiled faintly as Ariel gave her some attention this morning. "Mas, later in the afternoon you buy ...."

"Aah!"

Sinta's words were interrupted because Elin suddenly screamed in the kitchen. Ariel even immediately stood up to see what happened.

"Elin, what's wrong with you?"