Happy Ending's
Chapter 39: Denying Feelings

When Anthony arrived, I left them both. I don't want to disturb the two friends together. Anna must have missed and wanted to tell Antonius a lot. I try to shake off jealousy. From far away, the woman was smiling and her face was blushing. Let it be, from now on I will share my happiness with her and care more for Anna. Because we are both women.

I went to the bathroom to wash my face. My face felt sticky and pale because the makeup I was wearing faded from crying too much. 

After I finished the bathroom I went to the back garden of the hospital and it turned out that Anna's father was there. "Om ..," I said as I decided to sit next to him. "Anna is conscious. Don't you want to come in?" askaku start the conversation. The man wearing the white and black checkered shirt shook his head. "Om ashamed of Anna" she replied. His voice was hoarse like one who was holding back his tears. "When Anna was a child until college, I thought I had given my best. Turns wrong. He has become a failed parent. We thought money would buy happiness, but it turned out the opposite. Om ruined Anna's life and robbed her of her happiness." The crying was no longer able to hold. I hugged her. His heart must not be less broken like Anna. As a parent, how not to get sick and angry knowing her child was raped. I thought, was Antonius also disappointed and angry at what happened to his best friend? 

"Om, let's go inside. It's cold outside and the wind will catch on." We also walked in tandem. Kugandeng the body that began to linger. Anthony was still sitting next to Anna when we came. "You feeling better, Ann?" He just smiled. But I could see from the look in her eyes, Anna felt safe now.

Anthony hugged and apologized to Anna's father and for the first time I saw him cry. I left the room and chose to sit outside.

"What are you doing, Key?" Anthony sat next to me. His eyes are still red. 

"none. Is Anna better now?"

"Yes. He's better. Do you still hate Anna?" 

"No." I'm shaking. "That's my wife." And we hugged each other. 

"James was taken to the police station and is now in custody. Are you sad?"

"Come Antonius. He's been so kind to me and the Clouds. Can I meet him?"

"Better don't, Key. He is not someone you have known all along. He has a side you don't know about. And he's the one who raped Anna." A patek? I let go of Antonius' embrace. Half can't believe hearing what he's saying. How could James do that? All this time he was a patient and loving man. He loved the clouds. How could James be Patek?

"Do you not believe me, Key?" I just kept quiet. I wish what I heard was a mistake or my troubled partner.

"I don't blame you for not believing." Antony hugged me and something urged to fall out of his eyes. Has it been all this time? What was done to me, his love for Awan, his responsibility, was it just a mere mask to cover up his mistakes? I have to go to James and ask him directly.

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"James, how are you?" I started the conversation after a while we were silent and immersed in each other's thoughts. The man in front of me looked thinner and the circles in his eyes were clearly visible.

"I'm good, Key. How's yours?" The man answered and took my hand. I was stupid when I knew he was not good. His face was battered.

"Did Stevan know you were here, Key?" I'm shaking. I know Stevan banned me, but I can't just ignore James. I owe him a lot, after all. Moreover, he was papa Awan. 

"James, did you really rape Anna? And what's with your face?" The man just smiled. 

"James, answer me."

"Are you going to believe me, Key?" The man's view was not as usual. James looked serious and didn't want to joke.

"If you're honest, I'll definitely trust you.

"Why, James. Wh why? Explain it so I can understand. Then Patek, who is James? Look, I brought Anna's diary. It says Patek raped her. And Antonius says you're Patek. I don't understand, James. I don't understand!"

"Nova ... Keyla .. calm yourself!" 

"How can I calm down if you're in jail? What do I have to answer if Cloud asks you?! Don't you know how crazy I am about this?!" 

"Keyla, do you believe me?" I'm silent. I don't know who to trust. Anna and her diary or James. But clearly the police found James' test results positive for the drug. Anna was found in the ravine. Which is right? I really can't understand and I don't want to trust anyone.

Ummm! Suddenly there was the sound of people rushing towards us. Two big tall men in suits. One of her hair is drizzly, and the other is like an eastern Indonesian with her distinctive hair. Curly and slightly stuck to the head. "Pa's." James stood up and let the man sit down. There are only two chairs in the waiting room with one table. I also stood up and invited the other man to sit down. But he refused, "It's okay, Mom. I'll just stand up." Even though his body was very big, I could not believe his voice was so soft and authoritative. 

"Why is your face so battered?" James looked down when his father started talking. "Male, Pah."

"The guy's mouth benjol? Your muscles are big but you lose when you fight. Next time wear a skirt!" I looked down like James. His voice was very loud and firm. Unlike James whose way of speaking tends to be soft.

"Calm you. Lawyers and detectives have taken care of it. The cops aren't fucking dick! This is how it can't be!" The man got up and walked out of the waiting room. 

"James, is that your papa?" He just smiled.

"Are you scared?" James chuckles. 

"How can you laugh under these circumstances?"

"Do you want me to cry, Key? I'd be embarrassed if the Clouds saw it. Go home, Key. Stay away Anna. I don't want anything to happen to you." 

"But, James ...." Not yet able to continue my sentence, the man had turned around and escorted a policeman to his cell again. I came out of the waiting room and there was someone waiting for me there. Father, James.

****

"Do you believe James raped Anna?" ask James' father. We were at a restaurant close to the police station.

"Not to answer. You must have doubted. It's okay because James has been a delinquent since childhood," he continued again with a smooth voice typical of a father when talking to his favorite daughter. It's not clear when he talks to his son.

"James used to do it. Anna and James were teenagers. It is also due to the influence of drugs. The little guy doesn't know what he's doing. I know I've been in the hospital handcuffed. He underwent rehabilitation until he was completely healed. His mother also told him to put him in a mental hospital to get therapy. It was Om who made his soul torn apart. He saw something bad that he did to his mother. That's why he became like that. After he was completely healed, he sent him to his mother in Italy. And now, he's stuck again in the bars." The man told me while laughing. Apparently, James's good looks were obtained from his father. Her face looks sweet even though she is old. He also has a warm heart like my father.

"What does therapy do?"

"Yes. After divorce from his mother James and James more damaged, then he realized that om has a sexual disorder. You do not want to have to be treated and healed. Om also wants to live a normal life like everyone else."

"Do you still doubt James? Think about it, if he's a maniac with a sexual disorder, why didn't he ever touch you in Canada? Are you one home? If he's a wearer, why don't you know? Aren't you guys very close?! Think carefully. Cover ears. Close your eyes. Think with your mind and feel with your heart. Because the truth you will never find in the crowd" he said again before he went and got into a luxury black car. I closed my eyes, took a slow breath and let it out. I tried to put the puzzle in my head.