I Don'T Want To Be Cinderella #1
12. Confessions

Confessions

Ancol at night presents a very beautiful scenery with decorative lights from skyscrapers and cold air that blows gives a different feel and tranquility for residents of the Capital who want to be separated from the fatigue of activities all day.

Especially now that we are sitting in one of the restaurants on the beach. The cold night breeze, the temaran lights, the pounding waves, and the romantic songs of the live band add to the romantic impression, but unfortunately at this time my mind and heart are very complicated to not enjoy it so much.

“I said we should talk.”

“We can talk.”

“Here?”

“Yes, is something wrong?”

I was breathing out hearing her question.

“No, it's just that I think the Boss will take me to a more private place so we can talk calmly, he said, not a public place where a lot of people and maybe one of them will recognize Bos.”

I stared inside the restaurant building, which looked crowded by the laughter of some people in their fifties. It looks like the central indoor area was rented for an event.

The boss was silent for a moment.

“Do you want us to talk in my apartment?”

“A-apartment?” I can't believe I heard it.

“Iya, we can go now.”

“No! We'll talk here.”

The boss was seen holding his laughter. Damnit damnit! He just teased me. Fortunately the waiter came with a drink order to divert the boss so slightly that he could not see my face flushed with embarrassment.

“Yakin don't want to eat?”

“No, thanks.” To be honest eating seafood which is the mainstay food here is very tempting, but for now I do not know what will be able to swallow food.

“So what to talk about?”

I sipped taro coffee jelly, the drink I ordered right now hoping that the milk from the purple drink could give me a little peace.

“What Boss has talked to parents, Boss, about the continuation of matchmaking?”

“Already.”

“And the result?”

He fell silent, took out a cigarette and started to ignite it. “No answer yet,” answer after exhaling cigarette smoke.

I was silent for a while, then nodded after being convinced of what decision I would make despite a slight hesitation, but hearing the answer was enough to allow me to think logically again.

“We better strengthen our relationship. Just as a superior and subordinate only, and only limited to friends,” I said frankly, directly on the subject.

The silent boss looked at me for a moment, before finally sipping his blue ocean. He still looks relaxed as usual. It seems that his years of experience in talking to business opponents made him have the ability to regulate emotions, because I never once saw him lose control of his emotions, he always seemed calm under any circumstances.

“What is my status? I can't do anything to change that. I was born with it.”

“No, not that.” He slightly frowned. “If only because of the status of the Boss who is a son of the conglomerate maybe at this time I will be very determined to establish a relationship, even at the risk of having to face the family of the Boss who will not approve of us. But I don't want to regret, at least I will try for this relationship although eventually maybe we can't be together.” The boss was silent looking at me looking surprised at my honesty about wanting to be in a relationship with him. “But everything is different when it comes to other women.”

The boss furrowed his brows as I revealed the main reason why I couldn't get into a relationship with him.

“And after the night of last birthday it seems we know where you are going.”

“Na ..” I raised my hand asking her to allow me to continue my words.

“I know how good the Boss is, and how the Boss respects both parents, and that's why I love Bos.” The boss stared at me. “Ya, in addition to other factors of course, but it let enough of me only know.”

I can see the Boss smiling a little at me, making me gulp my drink back.

“And that's my main reason why we shouldn't be together, because there are already other women, and I don't want to be third.”

“You were never the third person, Na.”

“Iya, I will only be the third person, acknowledged or not that is my current position.” The boss stared at me. “I came after the Boss was introduced to him, and I'm sure that even though yesterday's party was the second time you met, but you must have been in touch by message or phone.”

“But I was never the first to contact him.”

“Despite it all, you are still in touch, especially before there was no rejection from you about this matchmaking.” The boss fell silent again, it seemed like he was beginning to realize the blur from my words. “And even if now the Boss is against the matchmaking, the parents of the Boss do not necessarily grant it, and it does not seem to be granted, so .. we seem to already know the end of all.”

The boss was still silent looking at me, he came back to smoke a cigarette and exhaled white smoke slowly before finally saying, he finally said,

“Do you know that at the party yesterday there was no news about my relationship with him?”

I remembered my conversation with Siska who felt strange because there was no news about Caraka Continent accompanying her prospective fiance to a party held luxury in the hotel owned by the Wibisana family.

“That's another condition I've asked my parents. Although they initially refused because they knew the positive effect that would be caused by the publication of our relationship for the company, but they had to choose me to go with him without news, or I did not go at all.”

The boss turned off the cigarette butts on the ashtray, sipped the drink and resumed his words.

“As you said that if it was spread in the mass media and everyone knew it, it would be even harder for me to back down because it would be the same as if I had agreed to this engagement, so as much as I can avoid publication. And my parents realized something was wrong with my actions.”

He was silent for a moment, his eyes looking at me seriously.

“They asked me what my reason was.” I don't know why suddenly my heart was beating fast waiting for the next sentence he would say. “And I told them.” Back there was a pause there made me even more impatient with curiosity. “I tell them that I like someone, and I'm serious about liking him .. That someone is you, Kirana Az-Zahra.”

The deg!

My heart that was crazy now seemed to stop beating for a few seconds before returning with even crazier beats. This is the first time I have heard his confession, set in a romantic atmosphere and a background song from a live band that is now singing All of me from John Legend, everything is almost perfect except our circumstances which do not allow me to say ‘iya’ at this time.

“Give me a chance to re-assure my parents to cancel this matchmaking plan,” said the Boss with eyes still staring at me softly, but I can also see the seriousness there. “After that, I will take you to introduce them.”

A thousand doubts and fears still plagued me, but this might just be the last chance I had to fight for it. And ... I don't want to regret, which is why after strengthening my resolve I nodded making him smile.

“I can't give you a long time.”

“I'll talk to my parents soon.”

“If it doesn't work .. let me know, so at least I know when to back off and forget about you.” The boss took my eyes for a while before he finally nodded.

Unexpectedly he clasped my right hand, then kissed it gently, his eyes looked at my eyes yes still surprised by his actions, with a smile he said,

"Thank you for give me a chance ... I promise that I'll love you in every step of mine."

(Thank you for giving me a chance .. I promise I will love you every step of the way).

Aaaaah ... Caraka Continent, stop making my heart beat like this, and how could I not fall for the charm of the Prince if treated like this. Immunku was finally K.O heard his statement .. well this time I will prepare a super strong immune heartbreak.

It turns out that when it comes to feelings, all the logic that had been my shield was finally destroyed .. true said Agnes Monika, this love has no logic! Or am I just a stupid human being, like the word There Band? Ah I don't know, certainly not until later Rosa sing along alone, it could be critical if the Oca Tea singing follow-up starts from hard, but ends with me crying .. no no! I hope Umbrella Shadeh ends this story with a commitment. Hahaha .. stop fantasizing Kirana Az Zahra, because the King still seems to have not moved on from Dewa 19 with ‘Siti Nurbaya’.

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