I Don'T Want To Be Cinderella #1
36. Shoulder to cry on

Shoulder to cry on

I tried to look like nothing happened again, although still my heart was hot considering the incident in the cafeteria this afternoon. Shanti, Olive, Dika and the other friends who knew what was happening tried to comfort me. I am truly grateful to have them beside me, but today I just want to be alone in silence. That's what made me go straight to the rooftop after my work hours were over.

Peaceful silence .. Befriend the wind and twilight, I try to find peace. I knew from the beginning of deciding to get into a relationship with Caraka that it wouldn't be easy. There will be a lot of green flies that interfere with the sound of the discord.

But I don't care about that as long as Caraka stays beside me, gives me strength, and becomes a shoulder for me to cry (a suggestion for me to cry) when I need it, also as long as his family does not dispute our relationship, then I will not mind the green flies that interfere. I just need to pat them to keep them quiet, or maybe I need to spray them with pesticides. The done! All completed.

But they dared to scrape a wound that was almost healed, and considered what I experienced was nothing but a joke to them.

“AAARRRGGGHHH!!”

From now on I really want to scream in front of their faces, but as much as possible I hold it, as a result as if something is stuck in here. Now it feels a little prong because I've been screaming out everything.

Yes, I can still help it if those green flies are just bothering me, even when they're scraping at my wounds. I might get angry like that, but after giving a little pat and a little shout to let out anger, then it's all done. But the story is different if the flies dare to insult Caraka, my friends and family, especially Mamah and Oka. The people I love and respect the most in this world, don't expect them to receive only claps or pesticide sprays. Nah! I'll make sure they're completely burned.

“Astagfirullahaladzim!”

I gasped in surprise when suddenly someone hugged me from behind, who was even giggling amusedly while tightening his arms and resting his chin on my shoulder.

“Why yell?”

“What sounds up below?”

Did I scream so loud that I could be heard in the Boardroom?

“I just got here when I heard you scream.”

“Oh, thank goodness I thought my screams sounded until your room”

“Your shout is not that loud until it sounds down.”

I chuckled at his words.

“Need shoulder to cry on?” (Need a shoulder to cry on?)

I've crossed him, he's always there for me. and his shoulder is always available for me to lean on. he is the real prince for me (he's the real prince for me).

“No, but I need a hug.” (No, but I need a hug).

Caraka smiled then turned my body and hugged me tightly.

Aaah .. a hug that really feels very comfortable. The fragrance of soothing perfume, the embrace that gives peace, makes the resentment and anger that had been stored in the chest slowly begin to disappear.

“Sorry I'm late, and there was no one beside you earlier.”

I stretched out a hug to look at her who was looking at me with a face full of regret.

“How do you know?”

“Yesi told me.”

“Bu Yesi? But there was no Bu Yesi in the canteen.”

“Yesi saw you out of the canteen in a hurry and when she went inside, the atmosphere felt different so she tried to figure out what had happened ... I'm really sorry that you had to go through it alone.”

His face was completely engulfed in deep guilt, making me feel warm.

“Do not worry, if only face green flies like them, it's just a small problem for me.” I smiled and then hugged her back. “I've expected a lot of green flies that will disrupt our relationship, so I've prepared for that. So don't worry about me too much.”

She hugged me back tightly .. ah, Kang coffee this one is the most can make me feel peaceful and comfortable.

“Yesi already taught them a lesson, don't worry.”

I knew when Missi had intervened then they would not dwell. Bu Yesi is not only a secretary of trust Caraka, but he is also a senior secretary who has the authority to manage all the secretary of directors and commissioners.

“Kang ..”

“Hehehe ... What do you want? If you've already called Kang, there's usually a want.”

“Hahaha.”

I let go of the hug and looked at her smiling, her hands tidying my hair before she looked back at me.

“I think ... I really have to get out of here.”

He was silent looking at me. Okay, I'll explain it quickly before the beloved calling spell loses its efficacy.

“I need a new atmosphere and place where no one will remind me of the incident, until I can stand up again and become myself again before I can confidently stand beside you.”

He still stared at me, then leaned against the perimeter grill

“Have you got another job call? Until you get out of here.”

“Not yet,” I replied in desperation.

Almost a month after I got permission to find another job, and I don't know how many applications I sent, but until now no one called me even just to do interviews. For a moment I forgot that the job-seeking world was indeed very cruel.

At a time when thousands of unemployed job hunting jobs, many companies are bankrupt and doing a massive PHK. When there are many fresh graduates who are eager to find work experience, most companies are more concerned with experienced prospective employees. At a time when many job seekers who have experienced, the company refused with the reason of maximum age as a condition. That is the paradox of the world of work.

“Am I doing business?”

“What effort do you have?”

“Well that's it, what is it? Business whose capital is not too big.”

“I know.”

I looked at Caraka who was now standing on her side facing me.

“What?”

I looked at Caraka who looked serious looking at me.

“You only need a little capital, do not even need capital, but the profit is very large.”

“Serious?”

This is what I need! In accordance with economic principles, with the smallest capital to get the greatest profit.

“Serious.” Caraka nodded confidently making me change my standing position to face him and looked at him with expectant sparkling eyes.

“What?”

She was silent, her eyes looking at me seriously made me look back at her.

“Married me.”

The deg!

I glanced at him who was still looking at me. In the afternoon breeze, the orange sky was lined with a procession of birds returning to the nest, and a handsome man was standing before me. Impersonated me.

Which woman will not be happy to get a proposal from a loved one, as well as me. And I almost just said “Ya!” when I regained my senses, I could still not stand beside him with confidence. No, I have to turn myself into a person worthy of standing next to him, who will give him strength and will not make the trust given by the Mahesa family wasted. Being someone who can make the green flies silenced, without having to pat them.

“You do not need a penny of capital, just be yourself and the benefits you will get are in addition to a very handsome husband, also all the assets that belong to him will be yours. Isn't that in accordance with economic principles?”

I laughed when I heard him describe his own version of economic principles.

“I want to say, Yes.”

“Just say yes.”

I smiled and then held her two hands together.

“Not now. My confidence has not returned completely, so how could I stand beside you with my head bowed. I want to stand beside you confidently, giving you strength.”

I gave a little pause before returning to say,

“For so long you who have always been there for me, supported me, accepted me for who I am, gave me strength and became the place I lean upon. Always there for you, supporting you, being a strength for you and .. I wanna be your shoulder to cry on (i want to be the back where you cry).”

I smiled at him who smiled back.

“So .. will you wait for me, until that time comes, until my confidence grows again, and I can raise my head again? And it may be that I will propose to you first.”

Caraka smiled then pulled me into the embrace.

“Later ... I will reapply you, just prepare your heart to answer .. yes.”

I smiled while hugging him tightly. As soon as ... I promise, as soon as possible I will say .. yes .. until that time comes, stay here waiting for me.

*****

Shoulder to cry on

By Tommy Page

Side by side with you till the end

Accompany until the end of time

I’ll always be the one to firmly hold your hand

I will always hold your hand

No matter what is said or done

No matter what people say

Our love will always continue

Our love will always last

Every one needs a shoulder to cry on

Everyone needs a shoulder to back up

Every one needs a friend to release

Everyone needs a friend who can be trusted

When the whole world is gone

When the whole world is gone

You won’t be alone ‘cause I’ be there

You're not alone because I'm always there

Note :

Let us bow our heads for a moment, praying that the Nanggala 402 submarine can be found and all ABKs can return to their families in good health wal'afiat.