I Found Love With You
80. Forgetting

“Endra, you are working very well. Look at your health as well. I see now you're getting thinner. You are in Indonesia no more than one month in 1 year. You've been like this for four years. What are you looking for, A? Find what kind of money? Make a lot of money if you no longer have a home to go home.” Indriani was worried to see Kagendra's condition now because almost all of his time he devoted to work.

Kagendra was eating his first full meal after just a few days at the office, at the airport, on the plane and even on set. After several months of struggling with various affairs, today Kagendra set foot back in the country after five months of focusing on his work in Thailand.

“Bu, let Aa eat quietly first. Just today Aa ate rice.” Kagendra refused to respond to what her mother said.

Indriani sighed heavily. It was out of reason to advise his stubborn eldest son. Actually Indriani understood what Kagendra did. He was sure if what was done by his son as a form of impingement from loneliness and heartbreak.

“A Endra, do you know that I'm lonely at home? Alena is now a permanent lecturer at the University in Bandung. Abah you with an age that is not young anymore are still busy working. Don't you pity to see that old brother who has to work every day?” asked Indriani with a look of compassion.

“It's not too old to be the boss in the company. There are still many bosses who are much older than Abah but still remain strong to become the supreme leader in their company. Don't underestimate Abah's power.”

It seems Indriani's tactics to force Kagendra to take power in the family-owned company did not work.

“Actually I hope that Aa can take over the role of Abah in the office. You don't pity the mother that no one accompanies? You will know for yourself that your sister rarely comes home because she is busy with her work. No more accompanying Mom to go shopping.” said Indriani sulking.

“Ah, that's your reason. Can't you go shopping with your friends? I usually go with them. Can't I take Aunt Maya or Aunt Rini? Usually you guys always walk three, right?”

“It's mah different dong A. I would also like if the shopping was accompanied by my own husband.”

“By newlyweds just everywhere should be accompanied.” Kagendra scoffs at Indriani's spoiled attitude.

“Eh, make no mistake. Old couples should still nurture and flush love so that love does not die.” said Indriani philosophized.

“Do not talk about love with Aa.” said Kagendra coldly.

“You have never felt true love. Abah is her true love Mother and vice versa, Mother is her true love Abah.”

“Makanya Aa does not believe in true love. It's all just bullshit. Mom and Abah are just lucky to get the right pair.”

“Don't talk like that, A. Everyone has their own true love. Now Aa and Iyah are being given a test. I'm sure you'll pass and pass the exam given. You just have to be patient with this test. Don't despair of continuing to pursue true love Aa.”

“Sentence, Mom. For now, Aa just wants to focus on the company and Aa's work. Maybe later if Aa company is stable, Aa can help in the family company.”

“When?” ask Indriani impatiently.

“Aa still got a lot to learn, Mom. It is not feasible if you have to hold the highest leadership position in the company. Aa was worried that the seniors there could not accept if Aa got the highest position in the company.”

“Omong empty. Aa spoke like that because Aa did not want to replace Abah. I think Aa is very capable to be the highest leader in our family company. Remember A, there are Sadiyah family shares in our company. If you don't replace Abah, who else?”

“Let's talk about it, Mom. Aa also had to discuss first with Abah. If Abah and Aki already consider Aa worthy to replace Abah, maybe they have hastened to give the position to Aa. But the fact they never spoke anything to Aa.”

“Maybe Aki and Abah are reluctant to talk about it with Aa because Aa has always shied away from them since the incident.”

“Already, Mom. Do not keep talking about the past. Mom talked about love and her. You know that Aa's still trying so hard to forget her? Don't spoil Aa's efforts to forget the woman.”

“Aa sure that Aa wants to forget Iyah? Until now you still love and miss Iyah right? You're not mentally challenged, are you?”

“Sentence, Mom. It has been almost 6 years Aa tried to find him but there was no result. Looks like Aa is just giving up. Maybe now he has got his happiness, alone or with another man.”

“Do not carelessly talk, A. Aa has not been mental and there has been no divorce papers. Iyah can not marry again.”

“Yes may not be married, Mom. But she may already have a boyfriend. If indeed he was happy with another man, Aa would divorce him.”

Kagendra was silent at the words of her mother.

“Now Mom wants to ask. Aa still love Iyah?”

“Sentence, Mom. Now Aa is not talking about love. For Aa love is something pseudo.

I'll know that Aa has been abandoned by the woman that Aa once loved twice Mom. Looks like this heart can no longer tolerate it.”

“Don't say that, A. If you are still a match, there must be a way out.”

“Now Aa is not sure of her own heart. Does it still love Sadiyah or is it lost? Yang

definitely for now, Aa does not want to mess around about love.”

“Then what was in the gossip news? Aa don't dodge! Mother watched a gossip show that reported that Aa was close to the famous model.” Indriani's tirade.

“The name is also a gossip show, Mom. It's just a rumor too. Aa stressed once again that for now, Aa does not want to mess around about love or women. To Aa, the female is a strange and confusing creature.”

“Don't say like, A. Your mother is a woman, so is your sister.”

“Who said that Mom and Alena are men?" kagendra ketus. "Because of the behavior of Mother, Alena and the woman, Aa can tell that you are strange and confusing creatures. Say will always be together but leave, say dear but hurt her partner, say love but go.” Kagendra did not want to mention Sadiyah's name clearly because he was worried about his own heart if Sadiyah's name came out of his mouth.

“Dad left because Aa hurt him.” said Indriani reminded of the mistake Kagendra made on Sadiyah.

“But he misunderstood, Mom. It was as if he left without listening to the explanation from Aa first.”

“Makanya, quickly find him and tell him the real events. I'm sure Iyah will forgive Aa.”

“It looks like it's too late, Mom. It's been almost six years. Maybe the taste in our hearts has changed.”

“Don't give up, A.” Indriani clasped Kagendra's hands tightly.

“Entai, Bu.”

“He's worth fighting for.”

“Aa want to go home, Mom, take a break first. Tomorrow Aa will go to Cianjur to review the filming location of the latest commercial. Aa also plans to make a film based on the storyline of the ad that Aa's team is working on now.”

“Aa you just came home from Thailand and tomorrow you want to go out of town again. Kagendra Kamandaka's

Nataprawira, your body also has the right to rest. Pity also Rudi if you continue to have to accompany you. You can collapse together.”

Kagendra understands that mother has called him by his full name means that mother does not mess with his words but he also can not let his body and mind rest because he knows very well if not much is done and think about it, he will think back to Sadiyah.

“Aa and Rudi can rest in the car, Mom. There is a company driver who brought his car.” elak Kagendra.

“As of you only.” Lirih Indriani stared at the tired back of Kagendra who was walking out of the front door of his house. He really hoped that his eldest son would soon get his happiness. Indriani knew very well that the happiness of his son was with Sadiyah but Kagendra always covered his longing for Sadiyah by being indifferent.

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to be continued....