I LOVE YOU (I LOVE YOU NOT)
Will you Marry me

Today at Mother's Birthday - As a Child of course I want to give a special surprise to My Mother.  The hard work of my side job I deliberately collected to buy a diamond necklace.

I remember very well my mother had to give up her beloved necklace which was Papa's gift to finance Bang Derta's operation which at that time suffered a head injury while playing skateboarding.

Although Papaku is a high class civil servant and gets first class health insurance from the government, Papa wants his family to get the best service when his son or wife is sick.

Already a year ago my mother settled in my oldest sister's house in Semarang. I realized I couldn't give my best to make my mother happy let alone spend more time with my work than with my mother.

This time I did not tell my mother or brother that I would come to Semarang City - I came secretly for a surprise that I had planned for a long time.

I secretly opened the door of my brother's house which was rarely locked during the day. I saw all the empty rooms - and I went straight to my mother's room. Yet- I accidentally heard the sound of a conversation between my Mother and my Sister from inside the room. Curiously, I eavesdropped on my mother and sister's conversation.

" his man is kind and gentle, Mom. Snacking," the voice of my older sister Devi seemed to be explaining to my mother.

"Yes. Mother agrees anyway. Kasian if Diana's been alone too long. Especially now he is alone in Palembang." said my mother.

Hey, what is this. It turned out that I was the topic of conversation between Brother and My mother. Without thinking twice I immediately opened my mother's room door. Seen my brother Devi and Mother were surprised to see my sudden arrival was not as usual.

"when did you come? why didn't you have any news before." asked my brother.

I walked over to my mother and hugged her. " Happy birthday ma'am." I whispered in his ear.

"thank you my son." answered the mother as she gently kissed both sides of my cheeks.

Without being stale I took out a small box wrapped beautifully in thin blue tile from my small bag. " Mom is a gift to Mom." I continued, giving the box to my mother.

"What is this," asked Mother

"Mom open first."

mother opened the wrapping boxes one by one so carefully, her face looks happy and honestly my own happiness to see my mother smile after a long time the smile was invisible.

Mom instantly fell silent after seeing the contents inside the box. A diamond-eyed gold ring neatly stored inside The ring I accidentally ordered was very similar to the ring Papa gave to Mom.

"In, it's too expensive." she said. "what are you spending your money on with this."

"It's okay, dear Mother. Your son has never given anything of value to you. Thank God I have more fortune, Mom. Don't worry, '" I replied again.

I know Mom really likes luxury jewelry even though she doesn't want to trouble her husband and son for that pleasure. Mother who was born from a father who was of Chinese blood and also a businessman in the Bangka archipelago was accustomed to a life that was all-round. Besides being a wife of an official in the province, Ibu has a typical clothing boutique from my grandfather's area and also a beauty salon that used to be famous in the city of Pempek. Unfortunately since my father died, I no longer have time to manage the business.

I pinned the diamond ring to my mother's ring finger. Looks glazed eyes from the face of the mother at that time.

" Mom, this ring is not as beautiful as papa's gift. But this could at least remind Mom how Papa and We love Mom so much."

My mother can no longer stem her cries that were held back. Mother immediately hugged me - kissed my forehead again gently. "thank you my son. I don't need anything like this. Seeing you guys successful-love each other-among brothers Mother was happy."

"But I'd be happier if I saw this child remarry" Yuk Devi said to me, patting me on the shoulder.

"Isssh."

"Mother pity you were alone for so long in Palembang. Especially since I've been living with your Yuk Devi." said Mother

"yes, Di. If you want me to have a friend who is also a doctor he is a widower. happens to be tonight in our house there will be a study of the Quran and that person will also be present in the study." yuk Devi continued to me.

" But Mom-I already have Mahendra,"

I didn't immediately answer Mom's question. But I'm sure Me and Mahendra will get married one day. I don't want anyone else but Mahendra.

"Remember Di-you were married to Edi because it was your choice even though Papa and Mother were against your relationship" said Yuk Devi reminded me of the history of my marriage. "This time try to follow your will first."

"Does Mahendra until now have given certainty where your relationship will go? ask Mom again.

"Not yet" I replied briefly. "But Ma'am. Fool, life, and death are God's destiny, Mom"

Honestly, the atmosphere that should be happy to celebrate the birth of Mother turned tense because it discussed my marriage. Mahendra and I have never discussed our marriage more seriously, but I'm pretty sure we have a common goal in this relationship.

I still think about everything my mother said. But I can't decide what will happen next between me and Mahendra. As a woman I can only wait for a man I love to propose to me.

Suddenly the ringing of my phone rang. The typical voice call from Mahendra of course.

Soon I separated myself from my mother and sister.

"Assalamualaikum Di." said Mahendra from across the street.

"Getishalight."

"Are you alreaady in Semarang? (are you in Semarang?

"Yes, honey."

" How's mom. and what about the gift? ("How are you. And what about the prize?)

"Mom's fine. (good mother) I replied a little uninspired

"But, why do you sound not happy today? ("but, why do you sound unhappy today?)

I also told him about the conversation between Me, Mother and my brother Devi. I don't know what Mahendra will say with my story. But I just want to express my current unrest and unrest.

After hearing my talk-Mahendra suddenly heard a big laugh.

"Then tell Your Mom. I will come to propose" ("Then tell your mother. I'll come to propose")

"Come on Honey. Don't make fun with this (Come on, don't joke)

" No. At. I am not joking. I want you as my wife. I already make plan for both of us" ("No. At. I'm not kidding. I want you as my wife. I've made plans for both of us") Mahendra's voice then turned serious.

I was silent with Mahendra's reply . Really I don't know what to do but I'm so happy to hear it.

"Di, Will You Marry Me" he asked later

Want me to jump up into the clouds with those words. I wanted to hug my lover as my happy expression - but she was so far away from me.

"Di... At... Are you there? "

Immediately I realized when I heard Mahendra calling me. For a moment I woke up from my cradle and...

" Yes I will" I replied next.