I LOVE YOU (I LOVE YOU NOT)
The Terror of Marriage 1

Today-I came early in the morning at the terminal three international arrivals of Soekarno hatta Airport. I deliberately came early to this place before the scheduled flight from Sydney landed. I know Mahendra who for the first time came to Indonesia will be hungry - let alone have to continue the journey to Semarang.

This heart beating welcomed his arrival. Moreover, Mahendra's first arrival with the intention to propose myself.

" Hey, Diana,! Shouts someone from a distance.

I turned my face towards the voice. Seen to me a petite woman wearing a half-hijab ran up to me

"you're Yusi, right? You really are my college friend Yusita? I can't believe I saw the young woman in front of me.

The woman smiled, "why? You don't recognize the cave anymore Di? ask her while laughing out loud

"No. It's not. But you wear a hijab like this. Not you before? I did not immediately continue my words. I don't want this young lady to misinterpret my words.

" You mean why am I hijab now? Yusita chimed my doubts with her question.

I nodded my head still in a state of disbelief with what I saw at this moment.

"Yes, Di I have embraced Islam since two years ago. Alhamdulilah. "he said again

Instantly my countenance changed which had been shocked in disbelief to be so happy. I hugged Yusita's tiny body and subconsciously my embrace made her body slightly lifted by me and the petite woman squirms trying to break away.

"Hey, Lu ah. The body of the cave is crushed you made Di!

"Eh yes. Sorry are! I said while releasing my embrace.

"We haven't seen each other in a long time. Hmm. It seems since we graduated college deh." said Yusita

"Yes really."

"How many of your children have been? ask Yusita again." I'm sorry I haven't had time to say a condolence when Edi's sister your husband died, Di"

"I don't have any children from Edi. Forget about that." I replied. There's a reluctance in me to talk about my past marriage."Oh yeah, sometime if I want to invite you don't come."

"Snondang? Wow, finally. Who's your candidate by the way?"

" It's me again waiting for her to come." I replied slightly covering up my embarrassment.

"In, I already knew your story with Edi's brother first. Our friends who until now are still communicating with each other greatly liken the situation. " continued Yusita. The woman then took me back to sit on the chair near us standing. "But we salute your stubbornness, Di"

"Yes, so now I've moved on Yus."

"It's nice to hear it, Di. By the way, get to know dong with a prospective brother-in-law."

"oh sure."greet me happy.

Our talks then continued until the time of arrival of Scoot TR-13 from Sydney which Mahendra boarded landed.

Seen whatsapp message that I sent to Mahendra already listed a check mark two-artinya my message has been received by him.

I'm still waiting for a reply from Mahendra to confirm my welcome later. We spent more than six months yearning for each other through social media.

Soon my message was finally answered by Mahendra.

(I pass the immigration autogate now)

I'm passing autogate immigration now

Reading that - I immediately headed to the front door of arrival so that easily later Mahendra could see and look for me. It wasn't our meeting for the first time - but the thumping feeling was like the first time ikami met - and it stayed the same. At first I didn't really expect that Mahendra's arrival would be welcomed by my family - although in my little heart I did expect the presence of the man I love this time to be really well received by my family like my partner before.

"Remember In-Message of the Late Papa. Look for a life partner who understands the science of religion, who is good, knowledgeable and especially a sincere love for you and your family" said Mother when I conveyed Mahendra's desire to come to Indonesia to propose to me.

It was not easy to convince my mother and brothers about my relationship with Mahendra. Disappointment over the treatment of Edi and his family to me was like a nightmare in our family.

For some reason - this time I am quite confident in my plans and Mahendra to unite our goals in a single marriage bond. Mahendra always believed that He would accept me with all my shortcomings and advantages. Not looking at me from the physical or material advantages I had as I had before with Edi. Mahendra was actually present at the time of my slump and my physical condition was not as perfect as before.

There is no doubt as I have experienced with Edi before.

From a distance, the figure of Mahendra walked closer to the exit. God, the man looked even more handsome and handsome in my eyes. I waved my hand at Mahendra hoping he would see me welcome him.  Mahendra can recognize me immediately and return the wave of my hand.

I wanted to run and throw myself into Mahenda's arms. But hey, this is Diana's public place, my inner shame.

"Assalamualaikum, In. How are you? we swore for a moment we passed.

"Vaalaikumsalam. Good. thank you." I replied.

"Greetings, Mister Mahendra." said Yusita on the sidelines of my conversation with Mahendra.

Mahendra seemed confused by Yusita's greeting. Mahendra's eyes then glanced at me as if asking who the petite woman next to me was.

"Your sister?

"Oh, This is my friend Yusita. We meet just now. She is from lombok.

(Oh, this is my friend Yusita. We just met.he's from Lombok)

Yusita directly nudged my body while whispering, "Kelen Di. I think your taste like Chow Yun fat turns out to be your taste Syahrukh khan." he said.

I laughed out loud at Yusita's words.

After talking for a while Yusita was not long goodbye and we continued our journey to Semarang City by train.

At night we arrived at Semarang City Station.

My family was already gathered at the Yuk Devi residence.Hal unusual anyway - Mas Pugi husband Yuk Devi was also present there. mas pugi who is one of the top officials in SOEs is very rarely able to gather with family especially considering the more busy spent in the capital.

"Welcome to our family, mister ...?" (welcome to our family, sir.?)

"Mahendra's. My name' Muhammad Mahendra from Pakistan," (Mahendra. My name is Muhammad Mahendra from Pakistan)

The conversation continued with the discussion between Mas Pugi, Me and Mahendra. It just so happened that among my family we were alone who could speak English fluently.

After conveying his good intention to ask me to my family-Mahendra then took out a parcel from the brown backpack that since his arrival has always been in Mahendra's hand.

" I brought these gifts for Diana's family." (this gift is for the Diana family.) she said as she placed several gift boxes on our living room table.

I glanced at my mother and my brothers. They looked surprised by Mahendra's gift. Of course I already knew what was in those boxes because Mahendra had told me before his arrival to Indonesia.

Some women's watches with a fairly famous brand, some men's shirts and not to forget the chocolate and candy for my nephews that Mahendra brought.

Mahendra's friendliness and better manners than indigenous men made my family fall in love with the man. Without a doubt she gave her blessing to both of us.

Mahendra's tired-looking face turned bright and vibrant.

Yes, we will decide our wedding day after Mahendra's family and my family meet in Jakarta later.

my sisters pulled my arms and we entered Mother's room adjacent to the living room.

"Crazy At. It turns out that your choice is so cute" Yuk Devi teased me

"yes Iah.Kalo do not think of the children of the Cave also want times. "cock yuk Derna while laughing giggling. " The cave said what. Die likes you from the beginning we met in Sydney Di. "

"So how is this. You agree, right? My toot.

" yes. Yes." answered my two sisters simultaneously.

"The cave also agrees" said Darma, my youngest brother who suddenly joined the room.

"What about Mom? I ask again to Mother who is fun to accompany her grandchildren who are struggling souvenirs from Mahendra earlier

" mom is okay." replied Mom relaxed..

I hugged my mother and whispered

" thank you Mother. My mother's blessing and sodara-sodara is a prayer for me. "I said gladly.

Time doesn't feel too late at night. Surely Mahendra was very tired tonight - Mas Pugi who was immediately familiar with Mahendra and drove my lover to the hotel that I had booked before. The location of the hotel is not far from their home.

I who can no longer hold this happiness as usual always reveal everything I experience and feel on my social media.

"thank you God you have given me the best man my family has ever approved of being my companion" I wrote

Just a few seconds my message was attached to my facebook status already entered some comments that responded.

Adam: congratulations ma'am

Lina: come along happy mom read it. Happy always mom.

Laila : ama the Bule becomes sist??? Barakallah yes

Ron: congratulations my niece

And more and more comments that came in are also happy and pray for me.

I left my phone on my mom's dresser and then I washed my sweaty body after a long trip and changed my clothes.

This time all I wanted to do was sleep next to Mom and hug her. But suddenly a whatsapp message came into my phone.

I glanced at the screen of the phone that was on. Ah, a number I don't know at all.

Curious-I also opened the incoming whatsapp message.

(you can never be happy. We will make your life more miserable. Remember it Diana!!!

So surprised I read the contents of a message that pitched such a threat. I tried calling the whatsapp number. But many times I tried many times my call was rejected.

But who is this guy. How could he say such a cruel thing to me. What sins did I commit to her that she wanted so badly to see me suffer?