I LOVE YOU (I LOVE YOU NOT)
Part II

My eyes look puffy not because of crying but really a tremendous sense of tiredness and my inner burden feels heavy these days. My divorce plan with Edi is certainly very supported by Mr. Beni even my parents are very happy to hear it. Without me telling my parents even-the gut feeling of a parent is never wrong to know her unhappy child.

I try to focus on my work. Submission of my cut that I submitted to the local government office bandung I also accompanied by my divorce lawsuit approval submission to my superiors. As a civil servant of the state - I had to meet some requirements to file a divorce lawsuit against my husband and of course I had to have a good reason for it. Civil servants can only divorce if there is a legitimate reason, namely one party committing adultery or one party being a drunkard, a junkie, and a gambler who is difficult to cure. It feels like the first reason I'm going to break up with Edi.

" Maneh Teh sure rec split Di (are you sure you'll split, Di) ? tanya Teh Rini who became my ward boss in the office where I work.

"His good or tea.(yes tea)" I replied.

"Teeth is sure Edi is into cheating, Di. (Tea is not sure Edi cheated, Di)," asked Teh Rini again in disbelief. "but sigana the Edi tea pecilan and awewe," continued Rini tea again to me

"katingalina with tea.(It seems so, Tea) I replied again

Teh Rini read again my divorce petition after forwarding my cut submission to the staffing department.

In the letter I included the chronology of the incident that night when I found a woman I knew nothing about coming out of my room.

"Honestly Teteh doesn't believe he's like this Di." she said, shaking her head. "and this is how did you get to chat and record their conversation? teh Rini asked curiously after seeing the attachment of the conversation I recorded in the print out paper in my report.

"I deliberately used the tea spy phone app" I replied

"What's that app?

I then showed you the app I installed on my phone - with details I explained how this app works on Rini tea. Occasionally tea rini nodded her head when she heard my explanation.

"Crazy you Di. to such an extent you want to look for evidence." he said with a loud laugh.

"All forced I do Tea because I'm fed up with the lies that Brother Edi has done." I responded.

Even so, my divorce application was not immediately responded to Teh Rini as my superior. This time it was just my cut submission that he agreed to.

"Di-teh love you take a vacation first yes. Who knows with you on leave and away from Edi you can think more clearly.there should be a window of time for you two to think again about your divorce" continued Teh rini advising me.

I can no longer say at length. Actually there is no need for time to think - because the desire for divorce is already firmly established in me.

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Scorching heat is still stinging, even though the sun has been pushed west and the heat feels burning skin. However, it does not make humans in the Lion Country stop their activities. The streets are crowded but the flow of traffic remains smooth illustrating no meaningful density, at one point. During the journey taken from Changi Airport, there is a difference between driving in Indonesia and Singapore. The road in Singapore is actually not too wide - but the traffic flow remains smooth without any significant congestion.

The car that drove us finally arrived at the office of the company owned by Mr. Beni in the Marina bay area - The company driver swiftly opened the door for Mr. Beni - and I immediately went out car and welcome Mr. Beni walk into the office building assisted with a support stick. At the age of Mr. Beni who stepped on seventy years it still looks gallant walking without having to be helped with a buffer.

"Good Afternoon, sir." greet the fat man in a tie suit who was standing in front of the office entrance. It was seen that some people were also standing neatly beside his right left.

Mr. Beni only answered by raising his right hand and a thin smile that he rarely showed to his men.

" Oh yes, Mr. Lee. This is our new employee named Mrs. Diana. He is my confidant other than Vera." said Mr. Beni conveyed a brief introduction about myself to Mr. Lee-the man who welcomed us earlier.

"Welcome Mrs's. Diana. Welcome to join our company." said Mr. Lee warmly welcomed me as a new employee in this company.

Mr. Beni gave me a warning and Vera to immediately conduct supervision to some parts as has been directed by Mr. Beni before we leave for Singapore.

I'm assisted by Mr. staff. Lee headed straight to the personnel room and the regional division to check some of the reports that went to Mr. Beni earlier.  This is very different from my work in the government - but with the guidance of Vera and Mr. Beni I can adjust quickly to the workings of the company and also the workings of Mr. Beni as the owner of the company.

Up to our third day in the Lion Country - all seemed smooth and went as desired.Pak Beni intended to hold a meeting in a special meeting room in the hotel where we stayed with directors and commissioners of the company. Vera deftly planned and prepared all the necessities for the meeting. I'm still relatively new to this - just help Vera to communicate with the hotel in accordance with the settings we want.

"Ohya Di-if tonight you want to walk around the city please because tomorrow we have prepared for a flight to Hong Kong," said Pak Beni to me.

"But what about the meeting tonight sir. Am I not required to attend? tanyaku later.

"It's okay. Enough Vera to accompany me. You are new to Singapore, so enjoy this opportunity "next with a smile.

Actually this is not my first time to this country - a few years ago when I was still studying my master's degree I had the opportunity to visit this country with some of my campus students who have the same research to the center singapore Government. At that time we joined with our mentors who were researchers at the Research Study Center of Gadjah Mada University. But of course, my visit at that time was not to enjoy the tourist attractions in this country - just a visit to some offices that have been scheduled for us to visit.

After all the preparations for the meeting felt as desired Pak Beni. I went back to my room - while Vera still followed Beni sir to prepare the meeting materials that Beni sir will deliver later.

When I arrived in my room I immediately laid my body on a very soft bed. It is very different from the mattress in my house in Bandung that maybe the spring wire has been damaged so that it makes a frictional sound every time I lie on it. These few days it feels tiring - and it feels like I want to close my eyes before the dawn of Magrib sound.Work is tiring but I feel happy living it.

Suddenly I heard whatsapp messages coming in on my phone.

Beeping...Beeping...Beeping...

the voice sounded a few times

The tone of the incoming message is specifically differentiated. The incoming messages or calls from both my parents of course I made with a special tone. While the message or phone from the Edi family I made with a Bip tone once.

Although a bit lazy to read the message - but still I took my phone and read the contents of the incoming message earlier.

(Teh-Mamah is in the hospital)

The incoming message turned out to be from erni, my husband's sister. But - I haven't had time to reply to that message - it's been in another message from Erni.

(Steh can send money to help Mamah?)

My forehead frowned at the sound of the message. Again in their minds when contacting me was just money and money.

(Why not ask your brother? I don't have any money and ever since your brother yelled I've been no obligation I've helped you guys)

I answered later in pretty good language.

(But all of this is because of Tet. Mom thought and got sick!)

continue Erni's message again.

Deg, suddenly my emotions increased reading Erni's last message earlier. Do they never feel at all that what they have done to me all this time is a veiled extortion in the name of the marriage bond. Are they with their other daughters-in-law - treated the same as me? my mind is muttering in annoyance.

I didn't reply to Erni's message again. Then-I purposely blocked his phone number and the whole Edi family. I no longer want to mess around with their problems - I'm just waiting for our divorce process to finish.

My mood suddenly changed after getting a message from Erni earlier. I tried to calm myself and close my eyes and forced to take a nap. I wish all this would pass after I open my eyes again.

Azan's voice from my phone sounded loud enough to wake me up from the sound. I rushed to the bathroom - washing myself from the sweat attached to my body during the day of activity and then I bewudhu to hasten my prayers.

Finish Prayer - of course I still take the time to check the meeting room later. It doesn't feel good to let Vera work alone - although there are some company staff who always help her with her duties.

"Are there a hundred percent of preparations, Miss Vera? ask me to Vera who was already in that place

"Yes, already. Thank goodness everything has been prepared for the hotel." said Vera answered my question. "Loh you haven't gone out on. The office driver is ready in the lobby" he continued.

"alright. After praying isha I plan to come out." I said. After saying goodbye - I left Vera in the room with some staff still waiting there.

Without having to wait a while after doing Isha-I prayer immediately headed to the hotel lobby to meet the company driver who was assigned vera to accompany me around the city of Singapore. Actually the night view in this city is the same as the big city in Jakarta. Lights adorn Singapore's iconic streets and buildings. Actually from the balcony of the hotel where we stayed I was able to enjoy the night atmosphere of the city of Singapore. Marina Bay Sands building looks so beautiful from a distance and on the other side is seen the OCBC Skyway tower which is very amazing seen at night.

My destination this time was just to get around on a cruise on the Singapore River. Actually the time given to me tonight is not limited - but I think enjoying the night view saves me time to see some of the famous tourist attractions there and some buildings that are passed by the Singapore river.

The Singapore River is right in the middle of Singapore. It is like that in Jakarta it was Ciliwung time. But the conditions are a little different. Singapore River is very clean and on the right left there are hangout spots for cool hangouts, namely Clarke Quay and Boat Quay. No need to wait for the old queue to ride to Cruise - I can already sit on the seat on the edge so that I can easily enjoy the view while enjoying the dinner served during the trip from onboard.

Really-it feels good that I feel tonight can momentarily release the burden of my mind will complexity in my household with Edi.