Imperfection
Chapter 13

I just got out of the classroom. This is my second and final course for today. And of course, I walk alone. Just like I said, if only this time, I even walked alone. Because Tina really seemed to be avoiding me. Although I could see his face as if he wanted to say something to me, even though he himself could not do it at all. And I don't know what the reason is.

“Lili!”

I paused for a moment, when I realized that the only one who was calling me there was Ryan. I did not immediately turn my head, and continue my second step there right now. I don't want to talk to him about anything.

“Lili wait!! Lilies!!”

He screamed and that made some people turn their heads right at me and Ryan, who was probably following me right behind me. Until suddenly Ryan stopped the steps of my legs by grasping my arm.

“What the hell is it?!” I asked with a deep pain on my forehead right now.

Ryan seemed to be breathing. “I want to talk to you.” He answered in haste.

“What's wrong? I must immediately go to the lecturer's room to see Mr. Deo.” I replied with an uneasy feeling right now.

It really doesn't feel comfortable. And I even started to let go of the grip of her hand that was in my arm right now. “Come with me for a minute. I can't say all those things here later. I beg of you, Lili.” He explained with a tone of voice that sounded very clear there right now.

I breathe out slowly. “Good. We can talk.” I replied with a murmur and walked ahead of him and headed right towards the central library. And Ryan who is walking follows right beside me right now is also there right now.

Before long, we arrived at the central library. It did not look crowded, and almost deserted the outside. I decided to sit on the benches outside the library. And also Ryan who was sitting right in front of me. I noticed her face that looked very restless and also tense right now. Although I have absolutely no idea what is happening to him right now. And it also looks very strange to myself.

“Lili... I want you to sever your relationship with Mr. Deo.” His instantaneous reply made me round my eyes.

“What do you mean by saying that, Ryan?! Are you aware of what you just said?” I asked in an angry tone of voice but as much as possible I should hold it.

“Because I know that you don't really love her. You never loved Mr. Deo. Then why are you still in a relationship with him. Why Lili? Did Mr Deo force yourself to this?” He asked presumptuously.

I'm speechless. How could he have realized that? No. gabe. No. gabe. As much as possible I should cover this up. “I love Mr. Deo. And we both love each other. What's your problem if we're in a relationship? After all, all the lecturers even knew and also did not even hesitate to support the relationship that we both live now. And remember this well Ryan, no one forced me to have a relationship with Mr. Deo. I voluntarily lived it. Because this is what I want actually.”

Ryan looked surprised and even started to shake his head a few times over there right now. “You've changed, Lili. It's not even like the Lilies I knew before. What's wrong with you? At first you just kept avoiding me and Tina. Then suddenly you announce that you and Mr. Deo are in a relationship. What are you hiding exactly? Why are you turning so cold like this now? Has Mr Deo really turned you into this?”

“I have no idea about you, Ryan. You're saying that I'm the one who dodges and hides something? You're wrong big time. I never avoided you or Tina. But it's you two who seem to be avoiding me. You two are even hiding a lot from me. Then you blame me for my relationship with Mr Deo? You are so naive. You guys even went together and didn't say anything to me.”

“Lili.. me and Tina, we did go together to discuss something. And.”

“And you decided to keep it hidden from me.”

I cut off Ryan's words as if he was stuttering and confused to say what else is there right now. I quickly got up from my seat and looked at him. “Now it's too late. If you two decide that, then I can also decide on something that I want to do as well. Then don't interfere with my relationship with Mr. Deo. And take care of your relationship with Tina, if that's what you both wanted from the beginning.”

So after that, I decided to go away from the central library. And left Ryan who was still silent with the look of his two surprised eyes. I myself was not at all sad, but I felt very relieved by what I had just said there. Which in the end I can say all of that directly to Ryan.