Imperfection
Chapter 16

I can't stop smiling so stiffly right now. Even since where his mother Pak Deo who has called me as a prospective daughter-in-law. And it really worked to surprise me. How not? At this time even Mr. Deo's mother was not at all smiling and looking at me with both eyes that look sparkling. And I feel so incapable. Moreover, the relationship that currently me and Mr. Deo are living is just a lie. There is no truth in it at all. Then what if one day Mr. Deo's mother finds out about this truth? What can I tell him later? I even had to put on a fake, stiff smile to answer some of Mr. Deo's endless mother's words praising me, and about how happy he was in the end his only son had a lover after all these years. Mr. Deo's mother even said that he did not mind if Mr. Deo's lover was his own student. And yes, I'm becoming increasingly claustrophobic about it. I can no longer even see how happy Mr. Deo's mother is here right now.

“Son, so when will you be more serious about your relationship?” Suddenly, Mr. Deo's mother asked. And I was the one who immediately choked on the orange juice he had served earlier. I even started coughing because of it. I'm becoming very unfocused right now. And I even started glancing towards Mr. Deo who helped give me some small pats on my back, until I actually finished coughing.

“Em it... i.. our...” I muttered with a very nervous feeling right now there. And stupidly me, I'm not even good at lying at all.

“Mother, we both have only been in a relationship for some time. So we thought, to move on to a more serious level, we still need a lot of time. And we don't want to be too rushed. After all he is also still in college.. The time is still very long.” In the end Mr. Deo immediately said something to answer the question that had been asked by Mr. Deo's mother earlier.

And then after that at least I can breathe with a little relief. Although, it could not at all reduce the lingering feeling in my heart at this moment. After that I could only return with a faint smile. Although I have to take a few small glances towards Mr. Deo who also looks very tense there right now. I understood the meaning of the gazes from his two eyes there. He was also uncomfortable and disinclined by the question his mother had asked me. As for Mr. Deo's mother, he was seen starting to sigh slowly and only responded to Mr. Deo's answer there with a nod of his head that looks very faint there. Like feeling very disappointed. And I realized that. But I can't help anything as serious as that. Of course it won't. Moreover, I do not love Mr. Deo. And marriage should also be based on honesty and loving each other. While the thing that currently has me and Mr. Deo do is absolutely no two elements in it. And it can be said that this is just a status boo.