Imperfection
Chapter 9

Today, at least I should be able to look fine. Least. I looked at my reflection right in the mirror and complained a little, when I realized that my eye bags were so swollen and my eyes were blushing. I shouldn't have cried all night. Otherwise, it would be the same as showing them if I had just cried. And I don't like this at all. This all indirectly makes me look very weak. And damn. I don't want that to happen later. I immediately put on powder and tried to cover it up. Once ready, then I immediately came out of the room and saw if Kak Rendi was currently even waiting for me.

We went together, as we usually do. And on the way, I was thinking, if only Ryan and Tina really had a relationship. Is that not called treason? My point is Tina even knows if I like Ryan. And. it instantly made me rivaled. But I shook my head in a quick motion. Trying to get that thought out there. I shouldn't have thought that way about my two best friends. Maybe they both didn't want to talk to me. And just want to spend time alone. Ryan and I used to do that a lot. So, I don't think it's a problem anymore.

“I need to get into class right now. I don't want to be late.” I said to Kak Rendi when we both just arrived inside the campus.

“Good. Don't forget to call Ryan if you want to go home. Okay?” said Kak Rendi there who immediately made me speechless.

“Looks... today I want to go home alone, Brother.” I replied even though I was filled with a very doubtful feeling right now.

Brother Rendi himself immediately turned his head quickly towards me, with disbelief in both of his eyes right now. “Eh, but why? You usually go home with Ryan, right? Why not now? What was? You bickering? Or is there a problem?” asked Rendi with a streak there.

I rounded my eyes, and at once I stuttered a little there. And I immediately shook my head in a very quick motion. “No. No. gabe. There is no problem between me and Ryan. Em, it's just, today I do have other business, so I thought, I can go home by myself later. that's not a problem, right?” kataku.

Kak Rendi instantly nodded her head in a slow motion. Seemed very unsure of the answer I just said to him. And I feel very guilty, because lately I've been lying to him a lot. Which has not been my feature at all this time. “Alright, then. If there is any problem, you should tell the big brother. Okay?” the door seriously.

And I just nodded my head, and then I got out of the car and ran into the campus, into the classroom. I found Tina smiling broadly at me. And I don't know why I feel it's a mocking smile. Maybe I was overthinking him and Ryan now, so I didn't even smile back there and decided to sit in the other chair. I want to stay away.

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I stared at the beautiful view on campus through the balcony, the seventh floor of my faculty. I was there thirty minutes ago. Which should also be my time to go home soon. But I didn't do that. I just sat there and fell silent, looking at the view presented from that height. I feel calm and relaxed there. Moreover, with a gust of wind that hit me several times.

“I thought, I shouldn't really stay away from them. It's just that they've covered something from me. And I feel betrayed. Why did they do that to me?” I muttered to myself, and did not care at all.

“Lili?”

“Gosh!”

I was surprised by the sudden voice that was right near me right now. And I immediately raised my head, and it appeared that Pa Deo was there. And I find it very strange, because Mr. Deo himself seems to be following me wherever I go. But I try to relax. And I didn't even try to stand up from my current sitting position.

“Pak Deo? Father here?” I asked. Whispering to myself if I should still look polite right now.

I shook my head and looked back at that scene right now. “No. This is my first time here. Before, I had never been.”

From the end of my eyes, I could see Mr. Deo who was starting to sit right near me right now. “Same then.” He muttered while taking a look at the scenery that was there.

“Pak, can I ask?” This I've never even thought of. But considering the age of Mr. Deo who is not too far from the age of Kak Rendi, I think, I can ask things to him there right now.

“Of course, may. After all, I'm not too fierce or annoying, am I?”

I paused for a moment and stared at the soothing smiling direction. “What father has ever fallen in love?”

Mr. Deo looked surprised. “Enter..”.

“Does it hurt? If you see the person you love instead, love your own best friend?” I asked with both eyes looking bright.

“Of course. It will hurt a lot.”

“I feel it now.”

I averted my eyes. And that's when I realized I was crying. “Don't cry, Lili. I'm sure there will be others who can love you too. You don't have to stick to one person who can't even understand how you feel about themselves.”

“I would love not to cry. But I can't help it. I also want to prove that I am worthy of love.”.

“You deserve.. It's just that you haven't met the right person.”.

We both fell silent. And I stopped crying. “Lili, if you want. I can help you.” Mr. Deo muttered there.

I'm staring. “Help how Mr?”

“Be my girlfriend.”