Imperfection
Chapter 20

“I will try to find out, Lily..at least, there must be something that the woman wants,” said Mr. Galang who tried to convince me since. I just fell silent, and tried to understand all of this. Silvi was allowed to go home, due to her condition that did not allow her to take classes today. And I, still stuck with Mr. Galang in his room.

“Galang. Silvi has no enemies, even she is too innocent to have any enemies out there.” I replied as I felt her embrace grow tighter. And I enjoyed it.

“I will try to ask my friend for help, he is an expert in conducting investigations. At least, we have a solution for this, okay?!” I nodded my head slowly. Mr. Galang began to slowly rub my hair.

And I know that it still doesn't feel the same. I feel incomplete. Although there was Mr. Galang and also Brother Refi, I still felt a big gaping hole inside me. Magdums. I closed my eyes and breathed. Yes, that incomplete sense came from Magdum, I don't know how to reach him anymore. But, just maybe, I can meet him at his house. I held my body until I escaped from Mr. Galang's embrace. He looked at me with a frown on his forehead. “What's Lily?” he asked, and I looked at him.

“I... want to go home..” I replied while repeatedly blinking, and biting my lower lip. Gosh darn. I'm not good at lying. He looked at me deeply, and I knew he didn't believe me, but I didn't know what else to do.

“Alright.. You also need to rest. Don't forget Lily, if anything scares you, at least call me, okay?! I don't want anything bad to happen to you,” he said as he stood up and held my hand to stand beside him. I nodded my head slowly. “I'll take you to the parking lot. Come..” We walked together to the motorcycle park. And all that time, both my eyes went around looking for Magdum. But no, he doesn't exist. Could he be at home, and not getting into college. It's all because of me. If only, I explained everything from the beginning, it was possible that he would not feel so much heartache to me.

“Do not speed Lily..” said Mr. Galang who woke me from daydreaming. And I smiled at him. It's a bit disgusting to be able to kiss her left cheek, and make me blush instantly, as she replies to it simultaneously on my left cheek. I bit my lower lip slowly, and lowered my head. Clasping his shirt to hide my embarrassment. He chuckled, and rubbed my hair.

“I go home first..” I said softly, releasing my grip on his shirt. And ride my motorcycle. I heard him mutter – hearts, and I just nodded. I waved my hand at him, and it immediately passed from there.

My main goal right now is to meet Magdum, whether he is where he is at the moment. He's broken, and I know it. I am the main cause. I'm going to go to the cafe, where Magdum, Silvi and I go often. And I hope I can find it there. At least, to be able to try to re-establish our friendship. Arriving there, I immediately parked my motorcycle and entered the cafe in the hills of Malang. Travel around for a moment, and spread the view, but again – again I only found nihilan there. I came out of the cafe, and found Tito was leaning against the cafe wall, he was one of Magdum's best friends on his Youtube – account. And he realized my presence.

“Tito... Fortunately I found you here..” I said as I walked up to him. There was at least a speck of hope to be able to meet Magdum at this moment.

“I want to know, did you meet Magdum today?” I asked impatiently.

“Magdum? I haven't seen him since two or three days ago,” he replied which made me sigh tired and lose my spirit instantly. “But maybe he's at his house. As far as I know, he often helps his family, doesn't he?! Just try to find him there..” he continued which made me smile a little.

“OK, thank you yes... I'm first.” I quickly passed, and rode my motorcycle at moderate speed. If I don't find it there, then, I'll be home soon, and allow time to be able to solve the problems that are now happening to me.

When I got close to Magdum's house, I didn't see any of his motorbikes in front of the house. I wept. Gosh darn. Damnit. I bit my lower lip slowly, and wiped away the traces of tears on both of my cheeks. Walk back from that place. And, it seems, I should indeed allow Magdum to think for an even longer time. Although I want to finish everything immediately, in fact I also do not know how.

When I started to get close to the house, I could see Refi's sister standing at the door with an anxious look, until the moment I entered the yard. He walked over to me, and clasped my arm. Take me inside the house. “Where have you been? Galang told me if you'd gone home and when I got home, you weren't around. Where have you been, huh?!” the question that made me quiet. And I just realized, if I haven't contacted Refi.

I looked up and looked at him. “I am looking for Magdum..” I replied that made Kak Refi blink both eyes several times. His forehead twitched deeply, and he took his grip off of me.

“Magdum? I just saw him passing by. but he didn't stop by here,” said Kak Refi who made me speechless. Magdum just passed by the house? But I didn't see it. The rubbing in my hair, made me flinch. I bit my lower lip, again. “Do not think about it, okay?! Magdum needs more time than you imagined Lily.she needs to think long about your decision that hurt her.”.

I nodded, and tried to smile. “I want to rest...” muttered me while walking past Kak Refi. I slowly walked into my room. I don't know what I really feel. I'm lonely. Magdum was not willing to meet, talk or do anything else like we used to do together. I opened the door and locked it. Drop the bag on the floor, then walk up to the bed and drop myself on it. Caught up while closing my eyes.

Remembering – recalls my memories with Magdum when our friendly relationship was still good – is fine. Our first meeting while on campus, his first love statement to me, and continued with our other pleasure – pleasures. I remember everything, as if I had my own movie files. And I miss that so much. The longer, the more I was washed away in it, even I still kept remembering it, though unconsciously my tears started to fall back. I really love Magdum. It's just that it's our friendship. But why did all this have to happen?