Imperfection
Chapter 26

“I think, I want to go home alone for now.” I muttered as Galang started to open his car door for me. And his actions just stalled, then looked at me in disbelief.

“And you think, I will let you go home alone, so?!” I nodded my head quickly. And I could see the change in the look on his face, and I didn't expect that Galang would close the door so hard, which surprised me.

He leaned against the car and placed both arms in front of his chest. Staring at me sharply. “I won't let you go home alone, Lily.” He's hissing sharp. “And I no longer want to lose the person I love, because of my negligent attitude. I don't want.”

“I know... It's just, please explain to me, why he would want to take me away from you. You didn't even explain it at all. Telling Silvi to leave just like that, without any clarity, just as I feel now, Galang.” I let out my tired breath. “I must also know the reason... to take care of myself.. and my family, my dear ones.”.

“Lily..” He approached me and touched my left cheek with his right palm. Staring at me gently. “You will not understand my anxiety and fear, Lily. I just want you to be in my reach, under my watch, to protect you.”

I returned the look of both eyes. Bite my lower lip, and I blush. “Galang... I beg..” I sighed again, and rubbed his jaw. “This is also my burden now. If you don't want to tell me.. it's okay.”.

And I saw the shock in his eyes, and his face was starting to be a little relieved. “But, I want to go home alone, now,” continued, which made Galang stunned, to make him take off his touch to me.

“Lily... I told you, I will not let you go home alone. And it won't happen.” Galang grabbed my right hand and pulled it slowly. He could never force me, with his actions. And I stomped the handle until it slipped off. I know if I'm making her heart hurt, but I need to do this too.

“Lily??” He nodded in disbelief and looked at me.

“I beg you, Galang..Let me go home alone now. Only today, tomorrow you can pick me up, drive me and also accompany me. But, I just need today alone. I need to calm myself.” I tried to convince her, even from Galang's gaze, she still did not want to let go of me. “I need peace at the moment. That's all.”

“I understand, Lily. You can go home alone now.I won't stop you anymore. I will obey what you want right now. Okay well? So don't worry, I'm useless. I know it. I'm just a disabled person, who tries to be perfect in both of your eyes.” Both of his palms were clenching strongly.

“It's not like that Galang... I didn't mean it like that..” I took a few steps to get closer to him. But my steps came to a halt as Galang stared straight at me quickly.

“You can go home now... and I'll think of all this..” He stepped towards the car door that was on the other side. Opening the door and stopping, he looked back at me who could only stare at him. “After reaching home, you should break Lily.. or at least contact me, so that I know you are good – is fine.”.

Galang quickly got into his car, without allowing me to answer his words. I'm speechless. And I know, he's hurt by me. His car was traveling at moderate speed, leaving the campus courtyard. I clasped both my palms tightly. Biting my lower lip for the umpteenth time. And I started to move both my legs, leaving the campus area. Walking on the – side of a crowded street.

Enjoying the solitude I need. A gust of wind that was quite strong hit me, and brought me more relaxed. As if little by little the burden of the mind that exists, begins to decrease. I walked to the nearest park. Already very crowded there, children – small children running around here and there, parents who talk and laugh. And I smiled seeing him. I decided to sit on one of the empty park benches. Enjoying the solitude side. But in fact when I started to rethink about the terror – terror, there is a side in me that is increasingly depressed with it.

“This has not worked at all..” I muttered. And in fact I feel very sorry for not obeying what Galang said earlier. I got up and walked out of the park. I need to get home soon.

My steps continued to swing, passing through many shophouses. Stop for a moment, and look to my right and left, making sure the streets are empty, to be able to cross the road. After making sure, the streets were empty, I started to step right on the zebra cross. I don't know why my heart is beating so hard.

“HEY! WATCH OUT!!” The cry of someone made my step stop and stare at that person, as well as in the other direction where he pointed. Unexpectedly, a black car was running quite fast towards me. And arrived – arrived I feel a very pain in my body. I screamed, but there was not a single sound coming out of my mouth. My body was getting more and more painful when it hit the asphalt. My breath was puffing, and I saw the car just keep going. Many voices were heard, making my ears ring. I could feel many hands trying to grab me. Then everything darkens.