Imperfection
Chapter 7

“Dek? Deck?”

I immediately raised my head and looked straight at Kak Rendi who was currently staring at me. I straightened my body and tried to smile. “Iya Brother? Why?” I asked.

“Nothing. It's just that you just fell silent, so I felt really curious. Are you thinking about something right now? Did anyone bother you at school? Just tell brother.” Replied Kak Rendi while looking straight at the street in front of him at this time.

And yes, we are currently on our way home together by car. I immediately with a very quick movement shook my head. “No. There's nothing at all. And I'm not daydreaming either. I just saw what was outside the car. That'sthat's all. Brother need not worry. Okay?” I answered as if. Although, I myself also know that Brother Rendi will not easily trust me. Because I'm not good at lying at all.

Instantly I heard that Kak Rendi sighed slowly. And yes, maybe my guess is correct. Brother Rendi won't be that easy trusting me. “Good.” He muttered and the atmosphere inside this car turned silent again.

I leaned back in my car seat and stared straight out through the car window. I'm speechless. Still speechless. But my mind feels really bad right now. I don't understand at all what I'm thinking. There were a lot of things that attacked my mind and it felt really sad. Recalling what I saw between Ryan and Tina. I think they both are hiding something from me. They seemed to be avoiding me and I felt strange. When my two best friends didn't even say anything to me. Usually, the three of us always share the same thing, though happy and painful at the same time. But now, why does everything feel so different?

And when I saw the two of them in the library, I felt tired at once. And decided to go straight home after sending a short message to Tina, if I can't do the group discussion, because I'm not feeling well all of a sudden. And I feel like I don't even care if he trusts me or not. Because in fact, I was tired all of a sudden. And I immediately contacted Rendi to be able to pick me up on campus. I even unconsciously ran away from the library. It's like I'm avoiding them both right now.

“Lili, let's get down.” Said Rendi suddenly.

“Lili? You sure you're okay now?” Brother Rendi asked again when I had just finished drinking my orange juice. He looked at me worriedly and confusedly together there.

I put down the glass and shook my head in a very stiff motion. “No, Brother. I'm doing fine. Em, I'm just exhausted that's all. So, I feel thirsty. And, well I need to get inside the room and rest. Brother rest too, huh?”

I answered as I could and as much as I could. And after that, I put the juice back in the fridge. And immediately walked to the room. I didn't even notice how Rendi looked at me all this time. All I'm doing now is I want to hide to convince myself.

Clamps

I locked the room door and threw my bag in a careless direction. And I no longer care about the state of my room being completely dark right now. I immediately laid my body on the bed and stared straight at the ceiling. The look in both of my eyes started to heat up. Back to thinking about how Ryan and Tina talked so closely. With an interaction that had never even happened between the two of them when I was around them. Thenwhat? What the hell is going on? So I'm having a hard time getting an answer right now. Which at any moment makes me feel alien to my own feelings right now.

I turned my body and hugged the pillow tightly. Muffled my own crying there. And the thought that had been in my mind had once again entered and made me feel uneasy. Could it be that Ryan likes Tina? Could it be if the two of them had already been in a relationship together without telling me that in the slightest? Then why did the two of them become so cold towards me? I didn't even do anything wrong...

Could it be if they did hide their relationship because they no longer wanted me to be among them? Or could it be that they thought that I would be a barrier between the two of them?