Maybe I Love You
41. Lara Hearts

Jaeha woke up from his sleep, his eyes blinked a few times, looking left and right, feeling unfamiliar with where he woke up. “Isn't this Suho Hyung's room? Why am I here?”

“You really don't remember?” Suho walked into his room carrying a glass of water, he then handed it to Jaeha.

“I can't remember. Why am I here Hyung?”

Suho let out a long sigh, “You came to my house and cried incessantly until you fell asleep. And my hands are so sore because I have to carry you into the house exactly into my room.”

“I?” Jaeha saw his reflection on the glass, his eyes were swollen.

“What's really going on? Why are you crying like that? I just saw you for the first time like that.”

“Hyung... Can I stay here?”

“Mwo? K**club? Wae?”

“I beg!” Pinta Jaeha with a parched face, “I don't know where else to stay.”

“At home Helena.” Said Suho lightly

“Helena's in the hospital, and I don't want to stay in her place.”

“Wae? She's your wife. But why is Helena in the hospital? What happened to him?”

Jaeha was silent for a moment, he again shed his tears, “I am the most evil, irresponsible, useless person, I cannot take good care of him. I've never felt this much pain before. Me...” Jaeha sobbed, “If anything happens to Sena I will never forgive myself.”

“What else is this? I don't get it! Sena and Helena... They both why exactly?”.

“Sena. It's because I'm Hyung, because of me! I'm useless! I'm not a good husband, I hurt his feelings, I lied to him!”

“And it's all because of Helena?”

Jaeha nodded, his tears flowing. He tells her why he chose Helena and forgot his promise to Sena. Suho was exasperated but this was not a good time to get angry at Jaeha. He was concerned actually, but this was also Jaeha's own fault.

“I told you, you have to make a decision as to who you will choose! Why are you so stubborn?!”

“I'm confused Hyung! What should I tell Helena? What should I tell Sena? They're gonna get hurt! I don't want to lose one of them, if I tell you the truth, what if the person I want to keep the most leaves me because of Hyung's disappointment! And again Helena is in danger, where maybe I just shut up Hyung!”

To Helena's side last night Suho could understand, he understood, he would also do the same. But Jaeha should have come home last night and explained to Sena straight away, he didn't have to stay at any hospital, ‘Ah, if I could have said it.’

“Then who do you want to defend? The person you love the most, which one of them?”

Jaeha did not answer, however,

“I think now Sena is the most injured. If he wants to hurt himself, I think Sena is the one who hurt him the most because of what you did. Helena can understand why you married someone else, it's been a long time since you parted with her I'm sure she can understand. But Sena, your feelings for her are no longer just a childhood friend who thinks that this is just monkey love. The more you're with her, the more you can forget your feelings for Helena. You love her, don't you?” Jaeha just kept quiet, he digested all of Suho's words into his brain and heart. His words pierced, making his heart feel pain.

“Your jealousy towards every man who tries to get close to Sena, your happiness when with her, your concern for her when she is not with you, when she disappears from your sight, your pain and your tears when you see her hurt, is that not love?”

Despite her crying, Jaeha again remembered how his jealousy for Minho, the togetherness they went through together, in Japan, in orphanages, the memories of teaching Sena to drive, his worries when Sena could not be contacted, and his worries when Sena could not be reached, when the woman was not home, how she missed Sena so much in America, the sweet smile that Sena always gave her, his promise to Sena's parents where he promises not to hurt Sena and will continue to take care of her, all of a sudden just comes to pass, making his heart stronger if this is really love.

“Talk to him carefully, I'm sure sena loves you too.”

“How can Hyung be sure?”

**

“Sena!” Aunt Hanmi and Uncle Bong immediately stood up from their seats, they approached Sena who had regained their senses.

“Oh, thank goodness.” Aunt Hanmi cried tears of joy,

“This... where?” Sena was still in a daze, the faces of Aunt Hanmi and Uncle Bong alone were still not clearly visible to her.

“This is in hospital. You were in a lot of pain last night, but thankfully he was okay. He can still be saved.”

Sena could not help but shed her tears, her still weak hands trying to touch her stomach. “I'm not a good mother?”

“Sena, don't say that. He is strong because you are also strong.” Aunt Hanmi smiled at Sena.

“I didn't even know he was here.”

“Mwo? You didn't know you were pregnant?”

“I... I just found out last night.” When Sena was about to go home, someone called her and told her that there was blood on Sena's leg, a nurse who happened to be there hurriedly told Sena to do an examination before it was too late. Finally Sena complied and she knew that she was pregnant.

“Have forgotten, the most important thing now is that you have to rest a lot, he is still weak so you have to take good care of him.”

Sena sobbed, she felt a little comforted because someone would now always accompany her. It is like getting new power. ‘Sorry I can't control my emotions well and make you hurt, thanks you're still willing to stick with me. I'll do my best for you, so please hold on. Be strong with me. We both.’

“We will soon be Grandpa and Grandma.” Said Uncle Bong with a happy smile

“We deserve to be Grandpa and Grandma.” Sena smiled

“But Sena, what about your family and Jaeha? What should we do?” Ask Uncle Bong, he actually hesitated to ask this because Sena just woke up. Aunt Hanmi just elbowed Uncle Bong's arm.

“For my family, let me tell them when the time is right. For Jaeha's family, I won't tell them. So does Jaeha.” Sena stared pleading with Aunt Hanmi and Uncle Bong, “Please don't tell Jaeha that I'm pregnant, this will make him even more burdened, I beg you. And don't tell him too that I'm in the hospital!”

“What burden Sena? Why are you talking like that?! No child will be a burden to his parents, they are the peerless happiness he deserves to have. They are not a burden.”

“Don't tell Jaeha until I decide how our relationship is going.”

Uncle Bong and Aunt Hanmi stared at each other, “Sena you mean what? You didn't mean to..”

“Entah.”

“Sena, please think carefully about your decision. All the problems have a way out, we don't know what problems you are facing but Jaeha is very hit and he is very sorry.”

“He won't choose me.” Sena said as she looked towards the window, Uncle Bong and Aunt Hanmi were even more confused.

‘I'm not a strong woman. I'm tired, I'm cape. With this feeling and the reality I think I will die if I have to last longer.’

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*Korean Language

Mwo's? The kapjagi? Wae's? \= What? All of a sudden? Wh why?