Maybe I Love You
70. Always Remembering you
At one o'clock in the night, Leon went down to the kitchen to get some drinking water. He saw someone standing in front of the fridge picking up something.
“You haven't slept, Jaeha?”
Jaeha looked at where the voice came from, Leon was walking towards him. “Not Hyung.” Jaeha closed the refrigerator door, and Ginger got used to calling Leon by Hyung's call. Leon never told Jaeha to call him Big Brother.
“Self why haven't you slept?”
“Too many jobs, and my own drowsiness has passed. Who did mera meet? She got grim after going for a walk with you.”
“Minho. Minho will really go to Venice.”
“Is just a one-time punch enough for you?”
While meeting with Minho, Jaeha gave Minho a punch of his fist as an outlet for his anger, but only once.
“I don't want to enter the police station. I also don't want to vent it continuously. I've received everything, so just one hit is enough.”
“Then, until when are you going to disguise yourself as Rico? Still don't have the courage to be honest?”
Jaeha nodded, he indeed turned into a loser. He still could not figure out whether Sena could take it back or not. Is Sena able to accept his lie again because he pretends to be Rico or not. His desire to touch Sena even hugged her became more and more and he had to endure it all.
“Alright, can only be thanks to gather your courage. But I'm also sure, sooner or later Mera will realize who you really are.” After saying that Leon left Jaeha in the kitchen.
In the dim light of the light, Jaeha looked at his palm. He felt the baby kick in Sena's stomach again this afternoon.
*on the way home Sena fell asleep, as the car stopped at a red light Jaeha noticed Sena's stomach, he wanted to touch her because Jaeha had never touched her. Feeling sure Sena was sleeping soundly, Jaeha also touched Sena's stomach slowly and when the baby kicked making Jaeha smile full day. He could feel his little whiz kick for the first time.
“This Father.” Jaeha whispered as he leaned closer to Sena's stomach, his kick getting stronger after Jaeha said he was her father. “True, this is Daddy dear.” Jaeha really wanted to cry because he was happy*.
“Daddy wants to touch you again, Nak.”
**
Every morning Jaeha does before coming out of his room to meet with Mera is put on a face mask given by Leon. With this mask Jaeha can survive until now on the side of Mera. After all was closed without gap Jaeha came out of the room as Rico.
“What Mera has not dropped?” Rico asked one of the waiters because the dining table was still empty because usually Mera was already at the dining table.
“Not Tuan.” Leon tells all the servants that Rico is Jaeha, his sister-in-law.
“I will bring breakfast to his room Mera, please prepare ya?”
“Good Mr.”
Rico stood in front of Mera's room with breakfast prepared, knocking on the door first. “Mera, breakfast is ready!” Rico back knocking door, “Mera?” still no answer, Rico started to panic a little. He asked for permission to enter the room, fortunately the door was not locked.
When he opened the door Rico heard Mera's voice in pain, immediately Rico ran up to Mera who was still on the bed. Despite the panic, Rico tries to stay calm.
“What's up? Which one hurts?”
“Feet. Leg cramps. Akh!”
Rico grabs the blanket covering Mera's legs, he starts touching Mera's right leg and scolds her so that the pain disappears immediately. “It will hurt a little.” Rico continued to massage Mera's legs until Mera did not feel any more pain.
“Thank you. I'm having trouble massaging it.”
“Do you cramp often?” Rico still stomps Mera's feet
“Early, but I think this is the most painful.”
“Still sick?”
“Dimming. Once again thank you.” Mera again felt an abnormal heartbeat, she also noticed Rico who was still massaging her legs. The touch of a hand that did not feel foreign to his body, why again he felt it from Rico? Is it because Rico looks like Jaeha?
Honestly, since Rico appeared, Jaeha's face always came without being invited either in a dream or when Mera was conscious. Secretly the usual longing is now increasingly indifferent. Why was Rico the trigger?
Although it had been a long time apart, but Mera could not forget the taste of the touch of Jaeha's hand. Now Mera wants Jaeha here.
‘Why does it feel the same?’
Mera closed her eyes, she enjoyed this touch. A touch he longed for. “Do your legs hurt again?”
“Sick, I think it's getting sicker.”
“I will massage it again until it heals.” While about to massage back Mera tells her to stop, she asks Rico to come out of her room.
Rico can not force to stay on the side of Mera, he prefers to obey what Mera wants than Mera to be emotional. When Rico came out of Leon's room, “Why didn't you hug him?”
“I can't hug her.”
“You still hesitate to not be honest with him immediately?” Jaeha was silent, he could not answer the question. He felt useless, he was truly a loser. From then until now he was just a loser.
Mera came down on the eve of lunch, she apologized to Leon for not having breakfast together this morning. Rico joins Leon and Mera for lunch.
“It's okay. Looks like I plan to stay here until your baby is born.”
Mera becomes the most sumringah, “Really? When will Mom come?”
“Maybe two or three more days. After all your gestational age is also 9 months, not to mention sometimes the birth is not in accordance with the predictions right?”
“Kakak don't know much, like already have a wife and children only.”
“You are always happy to tease me. Oh yeah, instead of baby fittings still lacking, why don't you go buy it together with Rico?”
Mera and Rico looked at each other, Mera herself was still embarrassed because she had cried in front of Rico this morning. This morning completely melow for him, he could not hold back his tears in front of others.
“Kakak is also coming!”
“You're spoiled. All right, but just for a second. I have to go review the new factory location.” Mera smiled happily.
After lunch they went straight to the baby shop. More often than not, Leon leaves Rico and Mera alone, acting only as spectators and sometimes acting as judges who determine what is good or not.
“I envy, I want to quickly have a wife.”
“Sister, this nice stroller is not?”
“Try to see the right one?” Leon said as he walked closer to Mera.
Rico himself was very grateful to Leon, he was also grateful for not having the wrong time. With his choice he can now be with Mera even though in Rico's face, he can also go shopping for baby needs and many more that he can not mention one by one.
“Mera, Brother must go. You guys just continue shopping.” Leon hands over his credit card, “Go for a walk, restore your mood, okay?”
Mera nodded, “Be careful on the road Kak.”
After satisfied shopping Mera invites Rico to stop for a while in the park, Mera wants to relax for a while as suggested by Leon.
“I'll buy a drink.” Rico asks Mera to wait.
The squeaking sound of birds perching on the tree trunk makes Mera a little calm, frenzied the sound of vehicles passing by trying not to hear. He was looking for a reason why he had to cry in front of Rico, just because his touch felt the same did not mean he had to cry. He was used to holding back the longing but still he kept crying.
“She kicked. She likes her music.”
Mera's attention was diverted to a couple who were sitting on a bench across from Mera. The woman is pregnant like her, the man confirmed the headphones on his wife's head, they look happy.
Mera could clearly hear their every conversation and it made her envious, every treatment the man had on his wife made Mera feel envious and sad. He also wanted to be like that, why did he have to see such a sad thing for him today? Why should she keep crying when she's been like this? Again her tears flowed.
Rico saw it all, he saw mera back crying. ‘I want to hug you, I want to make you feel the same as everyone else. But can you accept me again?’
Mera looked at Rico who was standing not far from her, after wiping away her tears Mera smiled back as if nothing had happened. Likewise with Rico, the man again walked up to Mera while carrying a warm drink.
“Sorry long wait.”
“We go home huh?” Rico nodded, they walked side by side towards the car.