Maybe I Love You
48. Falsity

Helena was pacing around the window of her room, her big hands were grasping something and her right hand was holding her phone.

“Do! You want to be with her, don't you? Do as I say. Tomorrow night she'll be with you.”

His heart was agitated, he only wanted Jaeha to be with him on the whim of Jaeha himself, not in this way. But if it wasn't like this, Jaeha wouldn't want to be with her. If he had to be tortured again he did not want to, even though he only pretended but he refused the offer. He also did not want to look weak even though it was the most powerful way to attract Jaeha's sympathy and attention.

“I also have another way, the only most powerful way to get Jaeha to fully return to you.”

“What is it?”

“Pregnant. You must be pregnant.”

“Pregnant? But how?”

“You're teased Jaeha, he's your husband and you're his wife. He's gonna want to. Or if he doesn't want to, you can tease him with a drink. He'll get drunk and you'll sleep together.”

“If she doesn't want to?”

“You can pretend to be pregnant.”

Helena looked out the window, confused by her own choice. There was a bit of feeling that he could not understand and he continued to deny in his heart. The sacrifices he made had gone so far as to where he might just give up, but... but when remembering Jaeha who was so happy not because he made him want to give up and let Jaeha happy with Sena. All he wanted was a happy Jaeha. Selfishly, he wants Jaeha to be happy with himself, just like he was. But the truth is now, that happy smile was never seen with her.

“I... I have to how?”

At Jaeha's house

“Sena, what are you doing?” Aunt Hanmi asked when she saw Sena cutting some vegetables in the kitchen.

“I want to make Heottok Bi, fill vegetable.”

“Oh, Yache Heotteok? Is the skin done?” Sena pointed to the medium-sized pot that was directly seen by Aunt Hanmi, “Her skin is good. You want to send him to Jaeha too?”

“What does Aunt mean? I don't want to look too good for him. He'll be home later, let it go. I don't want to go anywhere.” Aunt Hami saw the cooked noodle stew, after which it was drained and then cut into small pieces using scissors and then in the new seasoning mixed with other vegetables. Aunt Hanmi is now taking over.

“You're still mad at Jaeha? Until when?”

“I'm not still angry. It's just. I don't know. My mood is often fickle when it comes to Jaeha, sometimes I feel ashamed of myself as if this morning I was very annoyed with him but the afternoon could be so I want to be very excited about him. Is every pregnant person always like this? Always unstable? It really sucks.” Sena complained with her regretful expression.

Aunt Hanmi smiled slightly while mixing the seasoning, “She will definitely look a lot like Jaeha.”

“If it looks like I will be even harder to forget it.”

Aunt Hanmi's smiling face faded as soon as she heard Sena's words, “Nak, you really want to get divorced with Jaeha?” Sena was silent for a moment, he was still not one hundred percent sure about his wish, not even fifty percent yet. “That annoyance only lasted for a moment because you were pregnant, I understand how upset you were when Jaeha broke his promise twice. But he was really sorry, maybe he had no other choice because there were important activities that he had to go to. Remember don't make decisions when you're angry, it'll only torture yourself.”

“The problem is more complicated than that.”

“If you don't want to tell us, we understand maybe it's not time yet. But please think again, for her sake.”

Sena just quietly did not answer, he instead took the dough and began to make Yachae Hettok one by one. If you think twice about Sena not sure if Jaeha will choose her even though she says that she is pregnant, she could still be the second and must share a husband with Helena. She doesn't want it, she just wants to be the one-satuna important person in Jaeha's life. Not with other women, Jaeha also continued to look for Helena even though they were married, it could be seen that Jaeha really cared for Helena, still. Then why did he survive? Surviving the happiness of others is really painful.

“Sena!”

Sena turned towards the door as soon as she heard the voice of her mother-in-law who had just come. “Eommoni.” Sena showed her best smile, Madam Park immediately hugged Sena affectionately. “What do I bring?” Sena asked when she saw her mother-in-law carrying a package.

“Oh this..” The package began to open, some of Sena and Jaeha's favorite food boxes. “I made it for you guys. at eat yes?”

“Eommoni~ kamsahamnida, jal meokgessseubnida.” Aunt Hanmi started taking the boxes one by one to move and put in the refrigerator.

“Ah, and this.” Mrs Park handed Sena a different box. “Tow this to Jaeha huh?”

“Eh? Why should I?”

“Hm? Why should I? You're his wife, and don't tell me it's Mother's made ya.”

“But I—“

“Ah right, all while carrying this. It just so happens, right?” Sena looked at Aunt Hanmi with her incredulous look, Aunt Hanmi sided with her Mother-in-law.

“Yachae Heotteok? Hm~ looks good.” Sena can't resist if there's a mother-in-law here.she's forced to agree, very forced. “Be prepared.” Madame Park said as she patted Sena on the shoulder.

Sena chooses to take a taxi despite being forced by Aunt Hanmi and her Mother-in-law to get between Uncle Bong alone, to the point that Sena cape herself for convincing them that she will be fine. It was fortunate that the taxi that Sena ordered came in time so that she could rush away even though Madam Park and Aunt Hanmi were still talking.

“This fare.”

Sena got off the taxi and into the office building, some people bowed and greeted her. At first Sena did not want to come to the office, but in her heart there was a feeling of pleasure when she set foot here, the smile that Sena gave to the people who greeted her was not a trick, she said, that's original. Once in a while Sena felt her stomach in her heart she asked her son if he was happy to see Jaeha now, although there was no answer but Sena could know for herself.

“Where's Yejin? Usually he is here.” Sena just went in without having to wait for anyone's approval and because Yejin was not in place. Usually Sena will ask first if Jaeha is having guests or not to Yejin.

“Enak no?” Sena stopped in front of the door when she heard the voice of a woman she knew well enough.

“I told you not to come to the office, you promised that time.”

“I want you to taste this, I just learned how to make it. I can't wait to give it to you, I want you to be the first one to try it. At meal again, aa~?” Sena's hands began to clench, her breathing began to feel tight. He wanted to leave but couldn't, as if Sena was looking forward to their next conversation.

“You just say, I'll go to your house or we meet outside.”

“You always have a reason if I invite you to meet. But if you say so, can you come home later tonight?”

“Why?”

“You forgot? Today is our wedding date. Look!” Sena's breath felt increasingly tight, her heart was beating rapidly. It felt like he wanted to release the bomb in his heart but somehow he had to hold it, again he had to do this. Withstand this pain, alone and it's so very painful.

“Ah, really?”

“You must have forgotten. I understand despite the heartache of it.”

“What are you doing!?”

“A long time ago I didn't kiss you.” Sena's lower lips began to bleed because it was bitten strongly, wanted to get angry and want to hit Sena self-conscious. He's not the first, he's just the second. He and his son are only second. I can't stand it anymore Sena would rather go.

Hearing the sound of shoes from outside her private room Jaeha segea opened the door to see who was coming with a panicked face. At the door of his study he saw no one but Yejin who had just returned to his desk.

“Yejin, has anyone come?”

“No Sir.” Still with eyes looking here and there, Jaeha finally chose to re-enter his room.

“What's up?” Helena asked who came out from Jaeha's private room.

“You better go now. thanks for the food.” Jaeha would sit back in his chair but was held back by Helena.

“Come yes, you must come. Don't run from your words.” Helena again kissed Jaeha's cheek, after kissing the left cheek now on the right cheek. Without waiting for Jaeha's reply, Helena finally left.

Sena hid behind the passageway, Sena took a deep breath. His sadness changed, anger, regret, heartache, now more dominating to make his eyes turned sharp, although he was aware of himself but he could not hide his dislike. Especially when he saw Helena who was walking away through the hallway where she was standing now, while continuing to look at Helena who was waiting for the elevator, Sena took her phone, she said, he pressed the call button on one of the contacts on his phone.

“Oppa, naya.”

Suho and Jaeha came out of Jaeha's room to visit the finance department section, but their steps came to a halt let alone Jaeha being completely shocked to see who had come.

“Welcome Madam.” Say hello to Yejin, Sena smiled at Yejin. His gaze now turned to Jaeha who was still unblinking to see Sena who was now standing not far from him. Like a dream, not that, but because Jaeha was afraid that Sena would meet Helena. But Jaeha threw away all that prejudice, Sena had never even met Helena, how Sena could know. Which means they meet there will be nothing.

“Wae?” Sena asked while looking at Jaeha

“Why did you suddenly come? You should have called me first.”

“Why? You like surprises, don't you? Coming suddenly without notice, it feels like a rollercoaster ride, happy, surprised, sometimes there can be fear, it's nice to see people have such an expression.” Sena chuckled after saying that, “Or, for me there will be no time?” Sena put on her gloomy face.

“Not so.” Jaeha invites Sena to enter after telling Suho to back off time. Suho understood and went straight to the finance section.

“I was surprised because you came suddenly, but I'm also happy because you want to come to the office.”

“This I brought lunch, and this is the Heotteok I made. Hope you like.” Jaeha took it, he sat down and opened the lunch box. The look on his face turned happy, he told Sena to sit also beside him.

When Jaeha picked up Sena's chopsticks instead snatched it, “Open your mouth, a~?” Jaeha's smile this time grew wider, his worries now disappeared. The worry that he had previously thrown away, therefore it was all impossible to see Sena's treatment of him now.

“This is Mom's cooking right?”

“Eh? You know?”

“Take my mother different from others. Thank you for delivering it for me.”

Sena smiled, “Spend yes, I have to bring her back empty. But leave it to Suho Oppa too, I also want him to taste his Heotteok.”

“Can't, this is all mine!”

“Basic greed.” Both of them were smiling, one fake smile one more genuine happy smile.

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*Korean Language*

Eommoni~ kamsahamnida, jal meokgessseubnida. \= mother thank you, I will eat well (thank you for the food)

Oppa, naya \= sister, it's me