Maybe I Love You
49. Just be with you

Helena has just returned from the supermarket with two grocery crackers. While humming he unpacked the contents of the crackle, he even bought an expensive red wine for tonight. But his smile suddenly faded as he stared at the old wine he was holding. Minho's words were ringing in her ears again, Helena walked towards her room then opened a small drawer. Anxiety increased when he saw an object in there, he did not lie when his little heart forbid to do this. If Jaeha was not willing to be with him he should have understood and retreated, but his selfish side kept urging him to keep trying and trying again to get Jaeha at all costs. Arguing with yourself is really difficult, run away anywhere still will not be separated.

“Try, once again try no harm. I'm sorry Sena. If I were you I wouldn't, but you wouldn't know, would you? Let me be with him tonight.”

Sena stopped her taxi in front of a luxury apartment, from her gaze she hesitated to meet one of the residents of this apartment. But he could not hold this alone for too long, he wanted to cry in the arms of someone he could trust, someone who was always there for him in any situation. The burden he felt was so heavy, he wanted to take it out, this sense of tightness he wanted to destroy it.

Arriving at the twenty-first floor, Sena immediately walked to one of the doors and pressed the bell. I wish the owner was in there. But when the door opened it was not the owner who welcomed it.

“Sena! Sujin just left.”

“Can I wait for him inside?”

“Of course, let's go in!” Sena went inside, the door closed outside was quiet again. “If you want to rest, you can rest in the room.” Sena nodded, she was already familiar with this Ahjumma, but because her feelings were not good it was completely different.

“Bi, can you make tea?”

“Sure, I will deliver it to room.”

Sena began to lay herself on the spacious mattress, herself staring at the clean white ceiling of the room. When alone like this his tears just suddenly flowed, he wanted to go to the crowd so as not to cry but he did not want to get more pain, he said, for him trying to forget or distract even make it more painful. If only she wasn't pregnant she would be screaming in the karaoke room, singing until the night or even running a marathon until he feels relieved even he can drink soju until some bottles of origin his feelings can calm down again. His increasingly sensitive feelings plus circumstances like this make his feelings completely destroyed and depressed, his awareness as a second person sometimes even makes him more hurt.

Tok tok!

“Sena!” He immediately wiped away his tears, allowing the Ahjumma to enter the room. “Rest, your face looks pale.” Ahjumma named Noh Jung Mi is touching the face of sena, channeling warmth that makes Sena get a little sense of comfort.

“I'm just exhausted, thank you for her tea Bi.” Jungmi's aunt smiled, leaving Sena in Sujin's room alone to do another job.

In office

“Make sure we have to get that latest output machine, we have to get it. With the latest output messih, you also understand what benefits we will get?”

“Good Sir, we will prepare it.”

After the person came out now Suho who entered while carrying coffee, “This.” He handed it to Jaeha.

“Hyung, it looks like Sena has forgiven me.”

“Really?” Suho looked doubtful, Suho actually felt that there was something else in Sena's gaze earlier. Sena's words felt really like a hidden sword for Suho to Jaeha. But he could not say that to Jaeha, seeing him happy like now he could not bear to say his thoughts.

“Why? He even delivered this lunchbox, he even bribed me, he also smiled at me.”

“Can be. But you don't buy into your mistakes again, just until yesterday's mistake. If you make a mistake again let alone, you will regret it Jaeha.”

“Tonight I'll see Helena.”

“What? What else are you doing?”

Suho had already let out his annoyed gaze.

“I will say my decision. It might hurt a little for her but, my life is now for Sena. I want to live with her, have children, grandchildren, and grow old with her.”

Suho holds Jaeha's shoulder, “Harus. You have to say it, don't make a mistake again don't hurt him again.”

Hyunjae and Sujin get out of the elevator, apparently Hyunjae picks up Sujin without telling the girl, the plan is Hyunjae wants to make Sujin annoyed him disappear because of Helena's affair that met them in the supermarket at that time, sujin's annoyance is still not completely lost according to Hyunjae's percentage only a few percent more because Sujin's behavior to him began to soften again as usual.

“Whose shoe is this?” Ask Hyunjae

Sujin saw the shoes he immediately went into the house,

“Sena, where's Sena? Where is he?”

Bibi codes Sujin not to make any noise, Aunt Jungmi points at Sujin's room telling her where Sena is now. Hyunjae followed Sujin into the room. As soon as Sena was asleep, Sujin's eyes became teary. He felt happy that Sena had finally come, he had a hunch that Sena would tell him what the problem was right now. But he was also sad because he knew what the real condition of Sena's household was like.

“Let him rest, from his show Sena looks very tired.” Whispering Hyunjae, Sujin nodded she would not wake Sena. “Come we out.” But as they were about to get out the sound of Sena's phone made them speechless, they stared at Sena who started moving feeling distracted by the ringing sound of her phone, Sujin immediately picked up Sena's phone, seeing who contacted his best friend Sujin finally picked him up.

“Oppa, Sena is sleeping. Later you can call him again—oke, later I will tell Sena.”

After the phone call ended, Sujin put the phone back in the bag. But something intrigued Sujin, he took the sheet out. He closed his mouth with his hands as soon as he saw it clearly. Hyunjae who saw Sujin just silent now approached her lover to see what made the sujin so shocked. As soon as she saw him Hyunjae immediately brought the sujin out of the room.

“Sena... Sena's pregnant. Hyunjae, Sena is pregnant!” Sujin's feelings are uncertain, his feelings are not as clear as an abstract painting.

“Sayang..”.

“I'm happy, but I.. I am too..”.

“To keep it a secret from Sena if you know about Jaeha and Helena. Let Sena speak to you herself. All you have to show now is that you're happy because Sena is pregnant and you're going to be a aunt, that's what you have to show first.”

“But—“ Hyunjae smiled reassuring Sujin, it was the best thing Sujin had to do when Sena woke up later. Hyunjae also advised Sujin to be careful in talking, haurs thought about it well first. “Arraseo.”

“Company him yes.” Hyunjae kissed Sujin's lips and kept her owner closed, he secretly enjoyed it too, he actually missed this kiss. Because ever since he got upset with Hyunjae he didn't let Hyunjae kiss him. “I go first.”

After a few minutes Hyunjae left Sena out of the room, seeing Sena out Sujin was shocked because he had not had time to return the results of the USG into Sena's bag. “Sorry I took it,” Obviously Sujin when seeing Sena's gaze on him. “Congratulations yes!” Sujin obeyed what Hyunjae said, acting as if he did not know the problems of Sena's household. All she knew was that Sena was pregnant and she had to be happy.

“Gomawo!”

“New moon? Ah~ I will soon be a aunt!!” Say Sujin while rubbing Sena's stomach.

“New five weeks. I'm glad he can stay with me.”

Sujin did not expect that Sena would say such a sentence, it further opened a gap so that Sujin could make Sena talk about all her problems and sadness. Sena was fishing for him. “What do you mean? Survived how? Did something happen?” Sujin invites Sena to return to the room.

“Almost I lost him. Maybe he understood that I needed him the most, needed someone who could really make me strong.”

“What do you mean? Did something happen? Tell me!”

Sena's tears started to flow from both of her eyes, “I'm tired. I hate this feeling. Why...why should I love the wrong person again?”

Speaking, Sena finally spoke. Sujin's prediction was right, Sena would say everything now that's why she came to her apartment. The tired face says it all. Although he is not the main character but Sujin can feel it, Sena loves Jaeha. Sena's heartache for loving Jaeha, a terrible pain, Sujin felt that.

“You are not wrong Sena. Wrong Jaeha.” Sena looked at Sujin not understanding, Sena had not even told the core of the problem but Sujin seemed to know everything. Sujin could not lie to Sena anymore, Sena had already given her a gap then she had to say it now, all the things she knew. Sujin can't pretend he doesn't know anything.

“Jaeha who should be telling you the truth about her past. If he really loves you should be since the arrival of the woman he should decide who he will choose.”

“Sujin, you..”.

“I'm sorry Sena, I know. I already know. I've even met Helena, Jaeha's first wife.” Sena bit her trembling lips as she held back the crying, her body trembling withstanding the screams of a heart that wanted to roar to release the pain. Sujin immediately hugged Sena when it also made Sena's cry break, as well as Sujin. He also cried to see the pain of his best friend. Sena's cry was so painful to hear, Sena's tight embrace of him seemed to seek calmness and grip so that he continued to be strong. But the cry she let out said something different, Sena was tired, especially now that she was pregnant.

“Sorry I hid it from you. Sorry I didn't calm you down Sena immediately. Sorry I'm late.” Sena was not strong to talk, she just cried bitterly along with Sujin. Sena was tired of having to cry constantly like this, she wanted to go far, far as possible leaving behind the suffering and pain she was experiencing here. But can he?

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*Korean Language*

Arraseo \= I understand/well