Maybe I Love You
64. Contrition
Zurich, Switzerland
Sena woke up looking around her confused, she thought she was still on the plane but she wasn't. Now he was on a soft bed, already somewhere else.
“You're aware?”
With a still blurry vision Sena saw a man walking over to her, it was clear she was not her father because her voice alone sounded younger.
He sat next to Sena's body still lying down, his hand touching Sena's forehead just checking Sena's body temperature after a day of sleep.
“Your body is still hot, you shouldn't have left if you're sick. It's not good for you to force yourself.”
The man again put a wet towel on Sena's forehead as a compress tool.
“Who are you?” Sena could now clearly see the man who was looking at her, she was Korean, but why did she enter her room so freely?
“I'm Leon Kim, I'm your brother more precisely your stepbrother.”
“Ap-what?”
“Did Mom and Dad not tell you? I'm Kim Han Soo's son from his first wife, I really want to meet you because I really want to have a little sister. I lived with your Dad and Mom since 4 years ago.”
Sena still does not understand what this man named Kim Leon is talking about, he said, he was still busy feeling his vision still visible spinning and his head that continues to throb due to a headache that continues to attack him since his plane took off from Korea.
“I see, now you better rest again later we continue to talk after you feel better. I don't want to make your pain worse.”
Sena saw Leon coming out of her room, she was not thinking about anything else at the moment she just wanted to close her eyes which were so heavy to open, her thoughts about Jaeha made her physical and inner pain. Wishing the man alone made him not bear, but he had to do it because Helena would make Jaeha happy too. Sena finally chose to close her eyes again.
Leon crosses paths with Grandma Nam after exiting Sena's room, “Is she awake?”
“Sena was aware but it seems she still looks dizzy, her body is still hot and now she is back to sleep.”
“Please take care of her like your own sister, I beg you.”
“Grandmother need not beg like that, I will take care of her because she is my sister. I really wanted to meet him, but I didn't expect to be in this kind of situation and situation. But does Sena really want a divorce from Jaeha?”
“Sena has already taken her decision to leave Korea. With her departure you can guess it yourself, right?”
“But Sena will not easily forget Jaeha, why should she sacrifice her own love for the happiness of others?”
“I didn't know there was anything like that in Sena. He's an adult but why should his trials be this heavy?”
Jaeha went back to his house he looked around and his situation was now back as quiet as it was when Sena had not come into his life, he returned to his feet to Sena's empty room, he saw Sena's bed where the woman often fell asleep, Jaeha sat down, he leaned his back beside the bed.
Jaeha could not hold back his tears that kept falling from his eyes, he remembered every time he spent together with Sena, he said, how he could give his heart to Sena all those memories made her a complete frutation! The happiness here that he felt was all gone, the happiness that Sena gave him was all wiped out by the guilt and sadness he felt. Every time Sena's smiling face reflected, Jaeha's tears could not be contained, he could not help but cry. The woman's smile was the source of the wound she felt.
“You where?”
That sentence was what he always issued since, Suho could not even find where Sena he knew for sure Sena told his people to remove the traces of his departure made Jaeha worse. Sena already hates me, Sena actually hates me, Sena no longer wants to be with me, Sena lies to me, Jaeha always says that in front of anyone and when he is alone.
Jaeha cried sobbing he continued to regret himself for not having the courage, he always thought that Sena would never leave him, everything would be fine, the thought lied to him, “You should have waited for me, You should have listened to me when I was about to say that I loved you so much. You have to listen to my reasons why I'm hiding everything from you. I admit I was wrong, I assumed everything would be fine I assumed it would all be over soon I intended to end it soon but why did you leave so soon without waiting first?! You misunderstood Sena.”.
It hurts more than what she felt when Helena left her, it really hurts more. He is stupid, he is stupid. He was played with by his own feelings, his feelings of indecision in making choices caused him to fall into deep wounds, unable to tagas and not listening to what others suggested made him feel a very painful wound.
He regretted, he regretted why in their togetherness at that time he did not express his feelings to Sena, saying that he loved her, loved her very much. But all he did was delay and continue to delay, all he did was create wounds and add wounds. He's really stupid.
“Aaaarrggghhh!”
“You've met Leon?”
“So, he came to my room. Is he right my brother?”
“True, he's your father's son from his first wife. She was so happy when she found out you were coming here she really wanted to see you. But he shouldn't be happy, right?”
Sena did not respond too much to the question, “Is she married?”
“Not yet, she still doesn't want to get married. He still wants to be alone with all his busyness in the company he manages in Amsterdam.”
Sena nodded she again put a spoonful of porridge into her mouth,
“You sure you want a divorce with Jaeha? You don't pity him?” Hwaran looked at Sena's stomach
“I'm only the third person among them, I'll do it, I know myself Bu.”
“But I can see Jaeha loves you so much, maybe he'd prefer you over Helena. Why don't you wait a little longer?”
“Jaeha loves her Mom, that's a fact. He never said he loved me, never. How can I be sure that he loves me? I'm just a temporary intersection, ma'am. All he wanted was for me to stay by his side, was he going to keep me hurt? Do you want me to be like that?”
“You sure about that? What if Jaeha really loves you?”
“Mother I don't want to stay here, Jaeha will find me he will know that I went to see Mom.”
“Are you afraid Jaeha will go looking for you when you are sure that Jaeha never loved you?”
Sena fell silent, he could not answer his mother's question “Think before making a decision. You don't know what Jaeha really feels like because you didn't ask him directly. You have to remember one thing there is your baby who will need a father figure, after he grows up he will need his real father.”
“I can find a stepfather for him who is as good as Father Hansoo.”
“Sena~”
“Mom also chose to divorce from Dad, right? Then you can meet a nice guy like Hansoo's dad. Why can't I be like Mom?”
“Mom doesn't want you to copy that from Mom! Iu—“
“But it's all done, it's too late! Jaeha hid everything, he was not honest with me, he did not say that he loved me, I was tired Mom, I was tired of loving him alone and hurt alone as well. Please don't try to change my decision again. I'm sure of everything, please don't shake me Bu.”
Kim Sena's stubbornness may be down from her biological father, one's very similar nature, hoping that nothing is the same but it turns out that she inherited the stubbornness of her father. Hwaran could never change her ex-husband's decision to do anything about it, and now she can't do the same to Sena.
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Minho was sitting uneasily in his office room, waiting for news from his man about Sena's whereabouts. The sound of the door being knocked made Minho immediately respond for the person to enter immediately.
“How?”
“Since his departure seems to have been removed, we are still doing a search. But most likely Sena went to see her mother.”
“Switzerland.. I don't know where her mother's house is. Find her address and send people there, just I know if she's there or not.”
“Good.” That guy left too
“Sena, you said my wish would be granted soon. You left Jaeha but didn't come back into my arms and you went further and further. But I'll keep chasing you, before I hear a word of rejection or even see you cry when you reject me later.”
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