My Killer Lecturer's
Learning to Open the Heart

A week has passed. Since the Rizal bang took me out of the house for the first and last time, since then I have also gained leeway.

Yes, the rizal bang began to give me space to exit the room, although only limited to entering the living room, family room, kitchen, reading garden, gym and flower garden.

The fence in this house is towering very high, therefore I do not know what the outside appearance is like. Moreover, so many security guards were keeping an eye on my actions at all times. If this is the way, huh .. is the same as a lie.

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The atmosphere on Saturday. I don't know why, gradually I'm getting more comfortable living in this place. Moreover, as dusk greeted, I started to get used to enjoying my gun time in the back garden. White roses are so pleasing to the eye. The fragrant bushes also spoil my sense of smell. Suddenly….

“Bunaaa!” shouted a little boy.

Brugh!

Someone hit me from behind. Her tiny hands tightly hugged my waist even though it wasn't there. I turned my body. The little boy looked up to reveal the twinkle of his two clear eyes.

“Hayo Buna, Maila tangen cama Buna,” said slurred.

I cringe. If I don't see it wrong, this face is the face that was shown by Bang Rizal through a 2R photo. Is it possible that he's Rizal and Anneu's bang son?

“Buna, tenapa Buna silent. Buna does not remember Maila?” ask the boy again.

I crouched down to align my body with her. “Who are you, son? Who came here?” I asked, just wanted to make sure who the kid really was.

“Maila ... Father, tuh!”

The boy pointed to the figure of the man walking towards us. Hmm, apparently it's true, he's Bang Rizal's son.

“Maira shower used to be the same Bik Ida, yes. Dad wants to talk to his mother Maira,” said Bang Rizal while carrying his son.

Before long, Ida came to take over Maira from the hands of Bang Rizal. Fortunately, the boy was very obedient. She did not flinch at all as Ida carried her and carried her away.

I looked at Bang Rizal. “What does this mean, Bang?” my many.

“Abang take Maira from Anneu's parents?” bang Rizal answered while landing his butt on a park bench.

“But why?” my many.

“They want to move to their hometown. Brother will not be able to have to separate away from Maira,” replied Bang Rizal.

“Indeed, where is Anneu's parents' hometown?” my many.

“Sumatera,” Reply Bang Rizal.

“Then his mother?” ask again.

“Come,” Reply Bang Rizal.

I cringe. How do you know, Bang? Where's Anneu going?” ask again.

“Abang don't know, Chi,” replied Bang Rizal.

“Kok is weird, Bang. So, Anneu doesn't know that Brother has brought his son here?” ask again.

“Ish, what kind of child he is,” my snort is upset. “Then Maira, why did she call Chi Mommy? Does he also not recognize his own mother?” my question, guess what.

“Hmm, your guess is absolutely right, Chi. Since childhood, Maira has never known the figure of a mother. Anneu did not want to acknowledge her as her son. Maira herself only knows Anneu as her aunt, because Anneu who introduced herself as a aunt to Maira,” said Bang Rizal.

“Aish .. kok there is a mother who is like that,” said I was getting upset.

“Many, Chi .. and one of them is Anneu,” Bang Rizal said. “Already in the afternoon, we should go in,” invite Bang Rizal while moving from his place.

“Abang just go first. Chi still wants to stay here,” I replied.

“Ya already.”

Bang Rizal left me alone in this garden. Ah, I don't know .. The more days, the more messed up my mind. My life is getting so bland. Life is reluctant to die unwillingly, maybe that's the picture of my life today.

Mama and Rayya's shadow faded. For some reason, my heart felt empty. Then the kid? What am I supposed to do with that boy, if Bang Rizal is going to leave him here?

Ish, why have my thoughts come so far. Hmm, hopefully, she just stopped here and Bang Rizal took her back away. Or else my suffering will be more complete.

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And, apparently, destiny says something else. My guess turned out to be true. Bang Rizal left the boy in this house. Inevitably, it was me and Ida who took turns to babysit the child every day.

Maira has been living here for almost a week. The more the day, the more agile the movement. Sometimes, Ida and I are made to laugh out loud at their funny behavior.

In the end I realized, the presence of Maira in this house is not too bad either. The house feels more crowded, although my communication is still very limited. There's no digital television, no cell phone I'm holding. All Maira developments, only Ida has the right to report. Although there is Maira, but bang Rizal still does not trust me to hold a communication tool.

“Nona, why don't you try to open your heart and accept Mr Rizal? Hasn't Mr Rizal always been kind and respectful to Miss?” asked Ida while we were in the park to babysit Maira.

“Come, Da. I myself can never even understand what I feel,” I replied.

“Look at Maira, Miss! Don't you want to give her affection as a mother? Ida see, he's very close to Miss. Would Miss have the heart to let Maira continue to have false hopes by thinking of Miss as her mother? What would Maira be, if one day Miss leaves here?” ida says.

“Hmm, can I get out of here, Da? I think I'll be locked up in this house forever. Don't you know yourself, if Bang Rizal will still keep me locked up until I want to marry him,” I replied.

“Then, why didn't Miss try to make peace with the situation? Try to open your heart, Miss. For the sake of Maira, and for the sake of the inner peace of Miss herself,” Ida said giving me advice.

“But how do I feel, Da? I have absolutely no feelings for bang Rizal, let alone feelings of love,”.

“Ish, Miss. Javanese proverb says witing tresno jalaran soko kulino, love that can grow because it is used to. Yes, get used to being together, because they interact, because they constantly meet. Ida sure, Miss Chi must have loved Mr. Rizal for a long time with sincerity,” Ida said.

I smiled at Ida's words. Yeah, it's possible. Nothing is impossible if God wills. But the thing is, right now I can't get used to receiving Rizal's bang. I don't know if someday. But for sure, if my destiny is indeed with bang Rizal, I will try to learn to open my heart to sincerely accept it.

“Hasar, Da. We'd better get Maira in,” I told Ida.

I approached the little girl playing in the sand. “Come Maira, we take a shower together Mother!” take me with you while carrying the little girl.

I set my foot to get into the house. Suddenly ….

Plaque!

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