My Killer Lecturer's
Being Scornful

I heard the screams of my three friends. A moment later, I felt the warm embrace of my three friends. I can't say anything, everything feels empty. The soul seemed to be detached from the body, only the void I could feel right now.

'Stand, Chi!" said Kak Lastri. I could feel both of his hands grabbing onto my shoulder for me to follow his orders to stand up. But my legs feel weak.

"Chi!" Tika's words and strokes on the back of my hand seemed to want to pull my spirit from my subconscious. However, a fairly rude rejection in front of everyone, had made the spirit disappear instantly. I really didn't expect that today I was getting a slap without a sound. However, the marks will never disappear until my body is buried in the ground.

"Come, Brother help Chi!"

Back, Lastri pulled my shoulder. Still with a blank mind, I started to get up and stand up. Fired by Lastri and Tika, I finally swung a step. Apparently, they were going to take me back to class.

As we walked through the corridors of the classroom, I heard the grapevine of people who mocked and even laughed at me. Without us realizing it, someone smiled to see me who was no longer able to stem the shame and disappointment.

Arriving at class, I immediately dropped down on the chair and began to slap my face on the table. My shoulders are shaking hard. The pain in my heart has crossed my boundaries. It seems, I won't be able to get past the next lesson hour. That's why I immediately cleaned up the school equipment.

"Where are you?" tika asked as soon as she saw me packing all my things.

"I'm coming home, Tik," I replied still sobbing.

"Cave between ya, Chi!" Irma offered to drive me home.

"No, Ma. I can do it myself, I can." I refused Irma's offer. Honestly, I need to be alone right now.

"Yes, it's up to you, Dek. But, I hope you don't do anything silly" said Kak Lastri.

I'm nodding. Sorted by Irma, I finally headed to the teacher's picket room to ask for a home permit.

After getting the license, I took my foot toward the gate.

"Eh, Chi. Where are you going?" ask Gustaf. We happened to meet at the gate.

I'm looking. "Eh, Taf .. I'm mo go home, Taf," I replied.

Gustaf was shocked to see the tangle on my face

"Lo's crying, Chi?" ask Gustaf to investigate.

I turned my face to avoid the probing gaze from her. Gustaf, the person who always wanted to help if he saw his friend there were difficulties. Hence, he was a little pockeyed at my tangled state like this.

Tired of whack because of my heartache makes me not want to answer Gustaf's question. I immediately stopped the passing rickshaw and rode it after it stopped.

"Gue first, Taf!" pamitku as soon as I land the ass on the rickshaw seat.

At first glance, I saw Gustaf nodding his head. After that, I asked the rickshaw brother to leave immediately.

All the way back, these tears flowed without excuse. I never thought that cold man could humiliate me like this in a public place. I can still accept if he does reject my feelings. But that doesn't mean he has the right to humiliate me in front of a crowd. In the end, I condemned my stupidity that could be caught up in a taste I never had before.

Without feeling, the rickshaw has arrived in front of the house. Mama who saw my kedatantan before school, of course, felt surprised.

"Kok, are you home, brother?" ask Mama.

Mama took a look at my situation. You cry, Brother? Why?" ask Mama again.

"Brother's head feels dizzy, Ma. That's why my sister is crying. Ma, big brother went to the room, yeah. Pen sister rest." I ended my conversation with Mama before I was far away from telling lies.

After entering the room, I locked the door and turned on the tape with quite loud music. I don't want the house people to hear my sobs. I began to drop my body on the bed, face down on the pillow, and back in tears. Actually, I'm not a whiny kid, but somehow, these tears always shed when I think back to his bad words.

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The next day, with heavy steps, I entered the school gate. I couldn't possibly skip school just because of matters of the heart. I'm not a weak person, and I need to be able to prove that.

In the first Corridor, I again heard the students who were talking about yesterday. Even some of them blatantly booed my miserable state.

"Huh, what a pity, yes, to be rejected outright. If the cave anyway, will not want to show face again at this school," said one of the students who turned out to be my younger class

"Yes, that's .. the name of love clapping one hand, yes you have to be brave, dong, take risks," said his friend.

Actually I know who the person they are talking about right now. Yeah, that guy must be me. The girl they thought was sad because her love was rejected outright. But I don't want to respond to their words. I'm not the kind of person who likes to find trouble.

Brugh!

Being too overwhelmed by my own thoughts, I didn't realize anyone was standing. No doubt, we finally collided and the man fell.

"Ish, if you look around donk!" the man shouted while looking down to clean his dirty skirt in the dust of the floor. A moment later he looked up his face. A cynical grin was engraved on her beautiful face.

"Gee... Whoa... Wah.., apparently there are those who do not concentrate on walking because their heartbreak is rejected by the idol, nih," he said with a mocking smile.

Not wanting to win over the spicy-mouthed beauty, I set foot back into the classroom. Suddenly, someone grabbed my hand.

"Hey! The cave talks to you, the face of the wall! You hit the cave, you got a mouth, right? at least you can use your mouth to apologize rather than spitting obscure love words into people, cried Susan.

I cringed, not understanding what he said. However, as it was still early morning and I was reluctant to make a fuss, I finally relented. Sorry, I said as I walked back.

Brugh!

I didn't realize the woman was sticking out one leg. I finally fell. Back the boisterous sounds of the students cheering me on.

"Hahaha, it has fallen, hit the stairs anyway. But deservedly, it was a reply gatel girls who like to plunge in guys. Huh, you pe'rek!" the beautiful woman scoffed.

I can only be quiet. It felt, today I really did not have the strength to avenge that woman. Moreover, the corner of my eye caught the cold man in front of his class. Staring at me expressionlessly and passing by.

It hurts! Of course, there was only pain that was rumbling in my chest at the moment.

"Stop this!"

Seriate...