My Killer Lecturer's
It's Not Love, but Escape!

I stopped my steps when I heard Aji's question. For a moment, I was only able to be quiet. The tongue is too weak to answer that question.

People say, first impressions are so strong in the heart. Maybe that's what happened in my life too. He was the first man who could give such a deep taste. Even though that taste has taken away thousands of colors in my life.

I took a breath, a second and then turned around. I tried to smile to cover the roar in my heart. "I'm engaged, Ji. So, no matter what happens to the Fatwa, it's too late" I replied. "Excuse me!"

I leave and leave the backyard of Wak Haji. It's not that I don't want to linger with my best friend, but I can't afford to continue this conversation. I fear that the wounds that have long dried up will now return to gaping.

"Where is Chi Mo going?" Suddenly, Az-Zahra's reprimand in front of the house, stopped my steps.

"Eh, Ms. Zahra .. sorry, I have to go home" I replied.

"Well, how come you go home anyway? Didn't you guys just meet after a long time apart? Why the hurry, Mother? Don't you want to exchange stories first?" ask Zahra.

"Chi has to help mom, maybe next time. Come, Ma'am!" I'm looking for a reason not to be held by Zahra for too long.

"Oh, yes, Ma'am. Say hello to Mama Chi, huh?" zahra.

"OK, Chi's coming in. Come on, ma'am .. assalamu'alaikum!" I say goodbye to Zahra.

"Wa'alaikumsalam!" answer Zahra.

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I walked down the street complex. Along the way my mind continued to wander at what Aji said. For some reason, my heart began to tingle to find out about the Fatwa's relationship with Anna first. Intention inwardly to contact one of the scout friends from SMA 42. But after I weigh again, it's not good to dig up stories of people who have died.

"Sister! Where you going?" my mother's screams stopped my steps. Instantly I turned around

"Yes, go home, Ma!" I answered while looking at my mother.

"Where to go?" Mama asked back.

"To the house or, cook to the house of the people!" I replied who was upset by my mother's unfaithful question

"House is here, brother! Delay! Why also Brother keep going," cried mama again.

I spread my eyes. Athaghfirullah! It is true what my mother said. My house has passed, and now I am standing, in front of my neighbor's house. I snorted in annoyance as I walked back to my mother. How could I be less focused on kek gini?!

"What the hell are you, brother?" ask my mom as soon as I get in front of her.

I feel like I want to express all the heart-feltness. But what should I tell my mom? This is not the right thing. I have a fiancee, and it is not appropriate for me to think of others.

"Why, Brother? You got a problem?" Mama asked back.

I can only look at my mom. A moment later, I hugged my mother tightly to feel a warmth that would give me strength.

I don't think Mom wants to force me to talk if I'm not ready. He only rubbed my back to strengthen me.

After hugging my mother, I said goodbye to go to my room.

"Go! Clean yourself up" said the mother who saw my eyes begin to turn red.

I nodded, then passed away from before my mother. My eyes are starting to feel hot considering Aji's words. 'He loves me. Really it?'

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Suddenly someone pulled my hand as I was walking towards the bus stop.

"You!" I shrieked softly, not wanting to make the students who had disbanded college suspicious of us.

The Fatwa kept dragging me. "Come in!" his orders after he opened the car door.

I'm unmoving. I was really lazy to serve him whose attitude was never good to me.

"Lake in!" Once again he gave the order while slightly pushing my body.

Inevitably, I followed his wishes. A moment later, he turned around and opened the steering door. Like an orang-in-law, the Fatwa propels its vehicle above average speed.

I don't know which way I and the Fatwa went, but everything seemed foreign to my eyes. I want to feel like I asked. But seeing the expressionless cold face beside me looking straight ahead, I undo my intentions. I could only shut up and follow wherever he took me.

The car continued to drive past the ranks of pine trees lined up on the left-right of the road. My hair began to stand looking at such a desolate state. Coupled with the dim sunlight that began to hide in the western horizon, making the place even more gripping.

After walking around for an hour in the pine forest, I saw a multi-storey house standing firmly at the end of the pine forest. European-style ancient house with an exterior that has identical characteristics. Walled granite and bricks outside the house, as well as traditional ornaments that make the house look classic.

The entrance leaves are very high with a curved top shape, and have wide windows and high, creating an elegant impression on the house. It's like it's taking us back in time. It is visible from the outside if the house resembles an ancient castle.

"Come down!" said the cold man, flat.

I still hold on in my silence. Really, I felt very upset by the attitude of him that I thought had kidnapped me.

"I don't like to repeat my orders many times, come down!" Still in a flat tone he again gave me orders.

For a moment, I glanced at him. It was very clear that the eyes were so sharp with a ray of anger.

Oh my God ... What is my sin? Why could he have such a cruel eye on me?

Not wanting to be the target of his anger, I started to go down and follow him from behind. For a moment, the cold man took out a key from his suit pocket.

Tracks!

The house key is open.

Krieet!

The door is wide open. The smell of air typical of an empty house, gushed in my nose. There was so much dust on the white cloths that covered everything there.

Back the cold man blocked my lemgan wrist and pulled it until I fell in his arms. For a moment, he hugged me tightly while closing his eyes.

"Do you know, I've waited long enough for this day" whispered the Fatwa in my ear.

I just kept quiet. I really can't understand what he did today.

His breath began to go down the right cheek until it emptied into the niche of my neck. "I love you .. I love you so much" he whispered softly.

I was stunned, for a moment my senses began to disappear. Slowly both my hands clenched tightly to his back. However, it,....

'You remind him of Anna's late house'.

Aji's words were so clearly ringing in the ears. I also pushed the Fatwa's body.

"No! It's not love, but it's just an escape!"

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