Tahajud Love
CHAPTER 10

After reading the mushaf, Yulian was finally able to control the anger that had rumbled in him. Then, he momentarily kept silent while seeing two teenage couples who were drunk with romance. Deep in his thoughts about Aisyah who used to be with him. Combine love with love.

”Why are you looking at them like that? Really ... You also know the behavior of teenagers is not worth looking at.” Yulian was shocked when Abdullah slapped his shoulder and uttered a word that made him realize what had made him sinful.

”I didn't mean to look at them like, just..”.

”Only do you remember the past with Aisyah. Never mind Yulian, forget Aisyah so she can calm down there.” Yulian immediately stared intently at Abdullah who was sitting beside him.

What a look Yulian made to Abdullah was really a gaze filled with disappointment towards Abdullah. However, anger now cannot affect his mind, heart and self. Because in his heart Yulian still chanted dhikr several times, so that his heart still felt peaceful.

”I know you can't forget Aisyah. But ... that was already two years ago Yulian, even almost more than two years Aisha went to fulfill the call of God. Did you never think in the slightest how Aisyah there who saw you like this?”

”Really ... I feel disappointed at your deceptive attitude to God, Yulian.” Yulian raised his face after hearing Abdullah, a friend who understood how he was. Because they are together almost every day.

Yulian seemed to be thinking about Abdullah's words, but after so much thought he did not find any answer to understand the meaning of Abdullah's words. Deceiving God? It was really that sentence that was still circling in his mind.

”Confidence God? What do you mean, Abdullah?”

Yulian finally gave up, so he asked Abdullah a question, so that Abdullah would give an explanation to him. However, Abdullah was silent in silence, which made Yulian even more wondering.

”Think carefully what you've done, Yulian. After all, Hafizah still needs a figure of guidance and affection of a mother.” Yulian recalled something that Aisha had asked for before death took her life.

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Arriving at the house Yulian did not forget to say hello before entering the house. And Yulian again met Ahtar and the others, but not Tristan and Arumi, because they had returned home.

The awkwardness between Yulian and his son was bound to happen. So that they just. silence each other without greeting each other. But not with Light, Yulian's kind-hearted daughter-in-law.

”Wa'alaikumsalam, Abi.” Yulian smiled looking at the Light that was approaching her and thrusting her hand to kiss the back of Yulian's hand.

”Ya already, Abi want to go to the room first!”

The light just nodded slowly, confirming what Yulian said. And once in the room Yulian again thought about how he apologized to Ahtar for what happened last afternoon.

Under the air shower Yulian felt himself really being overwhelmed with worry. The shadow of the word dispute between himself and Ahtar flashed in the eye. Even the shadow was as long as it made her feel angry again, but not out of hatred for Ahtar. Rather it was angry that Yulian could not keep the flames of anger rumbling within his soul from last afternoon.

”Pardon Abi, Ahtar. Perhaps true, Hafizha had to get affection from her mother. But ... not to marry Abi.” Yulian hit the wall with his fist several times.

Yulian's body decays with a cry that she can't hold back. Still under the shower, Yulian cried awkwardly and occasionally felt tightness in the chest. And when the destruction had hit her, as if passing shadow Aisyah who accompanied her at that time.

Hafizha had opened the door of Yulian's room which was indeed unlocked from the inside. Several times Hafizha called out Yulian's name, but Yulian did not call the little girl. And Hafizha only heard the snickering of the shower from inside the bathroom.

”Tok... Abi... Abi..”

There is still no confirmation from inside the bathroom. So Hafizha ran out and called her brother, Ahtar. Which was in his room at the time. Where Ahtar's room was next to Yulian's. So close was the distance between Yulian's room and Ahtar's.

Ahtar, who was getting a complaint about it from Hafizha's plain lips, immediately ran to Yulian's room and confirmed what happened to Yulian while inside.

”Tok... Abi... Abi..”

”Abi .. please open the door! This Ahtar and Hafizha are outside waiting for Abi.” Soon after, Julian opened the bathroom door.

”What's up, Ahtar ... Hafizha?” ask Yulian.

Yulian only wore a towel that covered part of her body when she came out of the bathroom, looking so full of adult male body posters that still maintain her immunity, exercise and diet, he said, a famous athlete who has perfect abdominal muscles.

”Abi will wear clothes first.” Ahtar stared at every movement of Yulian that passed before him.

”What happened to Abi? Why did Abi take so long in the bathroom?”

For a moment Yulian breathed out his heavy breath. And slowly he spoke softly with Ahtar, ”It's okay, it's just ... Abi is thinking of something that is worth doing.” For a moment Yulian fell silent, as if unable to return to words.

”Alas ... what does Abi think?” ask Ahtar curiously.

”A feeling that indeed will not be forced, until anytime.” Ahtar smiled and thought that what Yulian was talking about was none other than his own feelings.

Ahtar again felt disappointed in Yulian, so it was difficult to make Yulian think about the feelings between mother and child. How could the selfish Yulian be a father who had a good and noble heart.

”Ahtar know, no need to continue anymore. If Abi can't, at least look for Khadijah's mother and make sure that she is fine without hurting her heart in the past.” Yulian simply clenched her teeth and clenched her hands so tightly.

Ahtar decided to leave Yulian's room which left him disappointed. However, just as he was about to step foot towards the end of the door he suddenly heard a body falling to the floor.

”Brukk,”

Ahtar immediately turned his body to confirm what had happened. And after knowing whose body fell to the floor, as soon as possible Ahtar approached the body with a deep worry. Several times Ahtar patted his cheeks and said his name, but nil. No answer at all.