Tahajud Love
Chapter 25's
...”Assalamu'alaikum, Khadijah. Wherever you are, I hope you remain well and may remain in the protection of Allah SWT....
...Oh yes ... Hafizha has grown into a sholeh child. If only you would have married Mas Yulian back then, we would have raised Hafizha together....
...Khadijah .. wherever you are if Allah reunites you with my family, especially with Mas Yulian. I beg you, embrace the fingers as hard as you can. Although his shoulders looked sturdy, but his heart was fragile and his soul felt lonely....
...If you knew ... right now I want to feel like I met and chatted a lot of things to you before death took my life, Khadija. But dear, God has not determined the destiny for us to meet again. And ... Now that I'm being critical, cancer is attacking my body so fast. So that I can't bear the pain anymore....
...Khadijah .. This is my last wish, please take care of my family in your affection....
...Aisyah Fadillah, your friend.”...
As soon as he read the letter from Aisyah, Khadijah's tears never stopped flowing and continued to wet his cheeks. However, Khadijah immediately wiped away the tears that had already soaked his black veil after He remembered the porridge to be made for Yulian.
”Look at Aisyah, I'm taking care of Yulian who's sick here. I ... make porridge for him, I hope Yulian likes it.” Khadijah commented on the smile but, his heart seemed to be unsheathed by a very sharp dagger.
After making the porridge immediately Khadijah served it to Yulian. The steps were taken by Khadijah to get to his room. And do not forget the porridge he made was on a tray that he brought. Then, the porridge was served.
”Eat this porridge, at least your strength will be filled after there is an assumption that fills your stomach.” Netra Yulian continued to advocate every step of Khadija's movement.
”Alright! Thank you ... for the attention you have done for me, Khadijah.”
Khadijah lowered his gaze, his neutrals unable to look at Yulian. Her heart was turbulent to accept marriage with Yulian as what Aisyah had asked, but doubt still ruled her body. So Khadija decided to wait after the time was felt to arrive.
’Hold your breath, Khadijah. Patience .. if indeed Yulian is your destiny and soul mate, then He will never turn away again.’ Inner Khadijah.
”I never paid any attention to you, Yulian. That's all I did was just help, because I knew you were sick. If you feel better, get out of here. I don't want anyone to see you here. Fear ... will cause slander.”
”Are you expelling me Khadijah? Didn't it deserve you to throw me out who was sick?”
Khadijah was silent, there was no heart to expel Yulian who was still sick. Because it was clearly visible from the look of Yulian's face that was still pale. However, Khadijah will still hold fast to his shield. The great wall must cover itself from vile slander. Because it would be useless if he would still let himself repeat the dark past.
”It's okay if I have to get out of here right now. I still remember Hafizha my little daughter, she must have missed me. He will never need a mother's love sincerely. Only I ... parents will be Father as well as Mother to him.”
”Abdullah, why does He still survive in his shield? So firm was his stance, as if it was hard to melt his heart. Then ... how to instill love in her heart if ... I feel this hard?”
”Don't worry like that, Yulian. If you are predestined and in love, God will make it easier for you to break through thick and high walls, breaking his hard heart, wade through the vast ocean and do not forget to always say bismillah before approaching it.”
It was almost giving up on getting Khadijah's heart and convincing Him in a marriage that would not be in vain and was merely a marriage on paper. However, Yulian resumed the do'a in prostration in the third of the night.
Tahajud sunah prayer is performed by Yulian with sekhusu' possible and done with full love towards Allah SWT. Do not forget to skyrocket the do'a at the end of his prostration.
”Ya Allah .. expand this chest in the face of the firmness of his heart. Lower this ego in every response to his anger and if You do so with a woman named Khadijah, ease me every time you approach her. Please help me to convince her heart. Aamiin Yes Robbal Alamin.”
’Yes Allah O my Lord .. I am only Your servant who often sins. Forgive me O Allah .. I have dared to love a man named Yulian, but my heart still holds firm to the shield to be a noble woman. The woman who wants to take care of her marwah. If the man named Yulian is my soul mate, then bring us near in your glorious shade.’
Under the same sky, but under different roofs, there are two people who throw the same do'a at each other. Even though the desire to have a stir in Khadijah, but he must still maintain his marwah which was once destroyed. Likewise with Yulian, even though he so wanted love from Khadija, but he had to go through several obstacles to convince Khadija's heart that had been broken because of a man.
The dissolving night had created a deep silence for Yulian. Reminds him of the memories with Aisyah in the past.
”Aisha, wife. If the marriage between me and Khadijah is your wish, then it is our do'a to soon be united in a sacred bond. So that we do not get caught in such a heinous slander.” Yulian stared fixedly at Aisyah's photo.
Slowly the fingers of Yulian moved to gently wipe the picture of Aisyah framed so beautifully. A soft kiss was shown to Aisyah's photo. And he held the picture frame tightly in his arms.
”Ayesha, am I being too selfish to hold on to my stance? Am I an evil woman who builds thick, high walls to protect the Marwah I want to keep? Aisyah... I have to how?”
The black veil given by Aisyah was held tightly in Khadijah's arms. Tears soaked the veil, Khadija several times also smelled the black cloth with tenderness. The longing was so swollen chest as her eyes were filled with Aisyah's shadow.
Somehow Aisyah used to be so sure if Khadija was the right woman to be his successor in giving a bandage of affection for his family. And Allah has approved the do'a Aisha by reuniting Khadijah with Yulian. However, could Yulian have been able to convince Khadijah of his heart?